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Being Married

2012-01-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

It's when two become one, and joined as a single entity.

It means whatever decisions made will affect US, not I or you.

It reminds me of the roles and responsibilities as a wife, and you as a husband.

It tells me that we have to stick together no matter what happens, and never take the easier way out.

It makes me feel comforted and loved, to know that I have your hand to hold till death do us part.

It has taught (and is still teaching) me a new perspective of love.

More than just love.

December!!

2011-12-14T00:06:00.000+08:00

Despite being bored or lonely at times, annoyed to the bones by the mother, I am thoroughly enjoying my holiday. :D

It's the season of giving, which means presents!

I wish December can last longer......

More About You and Me

2011-11-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

I think this is a lazy baby. I have been a lazy girl for the past 4 months or so. At work, I try to just do the minimal. At home, I look forward to afternoon naps and meals. I try to move around as much as I can, but still, I am so inactive compared to the pre-pregnancy me.

I wish the hubby can accompany me for long walks every day.

It is so fun to feel you move inside me. At least I hope that it is you moving, not my stomach or intestine doing some work instead. I am starting to fall in love with you. :)

We are going shopping for baby's stuff next month; hoping to grab some good bargains.

Then, the question about taking no pay leave or not. As much as I want to, the money part seems to hold me back. Can I?

New Priorities

2011-09-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

The title says it all.

April 2012.

I am anticipating.

I am scared.

I promise (to myself) that I will NOT turn yellow.

Cross my heart and hope to die.

Updates

2011-08-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

I fell off a horse yesterday. My butt hurts really bad and now my neck is sore too. I can't really bend and turn my head. Well, at least the bruises are getting better ( I feel), compared to yesterday, when I tried to reach my legs during shower and I teared 'cause it was so painful. I hope it will heal soon, then I can resume training for KOTR. Now I even have difficulty turning around in my bed and wearing my pants. Shake head.

I know I should stay at home and rest my poor bruised body instead of climbing up and down the stairs in school and worsening my condition, but I can't afford to. August is a really short month and I'm rushing to complete the syllabus like mad. Sigh.

I will be taking a break from horse riding. I have completed the Beginner's course and Novice 1 is getting challenging. Perhaps I will continue next month. Hehe.

There's a secret though. I am late. :P

BOILING POINT

2011-08-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

Words can hardly express my anger and disbelief.

You can't control your child and now your child is throwing tantrum, saying that she doesn't wanna go to school for some f****** reason, you call me and start scolding.

Hello?!?!?! Are you the mum or am I? If I am able to pacify her and make her listen to me instead of you, then what kind of a lousy mother are you? And please don't start blaming other children for your daughter's 'disability'. I am disgusted and shocked by your words. Before you start to degrade people, please take a look at yourself. The child's family whom you have just badmouthed about is worth much more than your whole ancestral line. Please, take a look at yourself. You are the one who should be blamed. Not others.

It is very rare for me to start cursing people. And you have just made me do that.
Be careful while crossing the road.

Germs Are Everywhere

2011-07-06T22:04:00.001+08:00

(from Yahoo News)
7 Germiest Public Places

On average, you can touch as many as 30 germy objects a minute. While coexisting with microbes is a necessary fact of life, here are the top seven places that are best left untouched.

On July 1 American health and nutrition magazine Prevention reported on the germiest public places, with some practical tips on how to steer clear of the bugs that could make you sick.

1. Restaurant menus - A new study reported that cold and flu viruses can survive for 18 hours on hard surfaces, cites Prevention. Restaurant menus get passed along to hundreds of people and are rarely washed, so wash your hands after you place your order.

2. Lemon wedges - Slice of lemon with your tea? If you're at a restaurant, go citrus-less. Researchers ordering drinks at 21 different restaurants found 25 different microorganisms lurking on lemons -- including E. coli.

3. Condiment dispensers - Maybe skip the ketchup too. Or use a disinfectant wipe beforehand -- although you will run the risk of looking like a germophobe. "Holding the bottle with a napkin won't help; napkins are porous, so microorganisms can pass right through," states Prevention.
4. Restroom soap dispensers - Gross-out factoid of the day: about 25 percent of public restroom dispensers are contaminated with fecal bacteria, experts say. Since most soap dispensers are never cleaned, the bacteria grow, so scrub your hands thoroughly with hot water for 15 to 20 seconds after touching the dispenser.

5. Grocery carts - In 2007, a study found that the handles of almost two-thirds of the shopping carts tested were contaminated with fecal bacteria, with bacteria counts exceeding those of your average public restroom. Your best friend is a disinfectant wipe to swab down the handle.

6. Airplane bathrooms - Your in-flight restroom trip could expose you to E. coli lurking on the surfaces of the faucets and doorknobs, according to a study. Plus, you're 100 times more likely to catch a cold on an airplane than on the ground, according to a new study. Prevention recommends self-protecting by taking green tea supplements. A 2007 study found that people who took a 450-milligram green tea supplement twice daily for three months had one-third fewer days of cold symptoms. The supplement brand used in the study was Immune Guard ($30 for 60 pills; immune-guard.us).

7. Doctor's office - Limit your exposure when visiting your physician by packing your own tissues, hand sanitizers, and magazines. When in the waiting room, try to leave some space between yourself and the others waiting to reduce the chances of catching their bugs, especially if someone is sneezing or coughing.

That is why I'm so conscious about cleanliness and hygiene!

Yippie Yay!

2011-06-28T14:52:00.000+08:00

I'm going horse riding this weekend!!!!

EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED!!!

Thank you, hubby!!!

:) :) :)

Really

2011-06-15T01:39:00.000+08:00

You see, as a sociology graduate, I totally understand and agree what my professors taught me.

Some things in the society happen because society needs it to happen to make the society the one that we are all familiar with. Those things don't happen quite naturally. If there isn't a norm, a lot of things won't even exist.

I don't actually know what I'm trying to convey here.

I'm just full of anger and disappointment at this time that I need to vent my frustrations somewhere.

I Love It Like That

2011-06-09T17:05:00.004+08:00

My wish came true!! I had a blast, shopping vouchers and the company of great people for my birthday!

In fact, the celebration felt like it lasted a week! I almost felt like royalty. ALMOST.

Let's do a recap:
Thurs 2 June - Cuba Libre
Fri 3 June - Steamboat dinner. Hangout at Nat's house
Sat 4 June - Brewerkz dinner plus Cuba Libre (and 30 minutes of Shanghai Dolly)
Sun 5 June - Surprise delivery of Hatched breakfast (so sweet). SzeChuan Court dinner
Mon 6 June - Lunch at Ion. KTV. Dinner at TCC (1 for 1 yay!)
Tues 7 June - Fitness First trial session (SUPER FUN). Mahjong (won $150 yay!).
Wed 8 June - Adeva Spa eye rejuvenation treatment. The Ultimate Wellness Haven back massage. Crystal Jade dinner. ZOUK!

:)

Looking Not Bad After All

2011-06-03T03:20:00.001+08:00

The morale of the night: Be daring to try; keep your mind open.

My legs are aching and I am four hours past my bedtime. Yet I feel good! Thanks to my colleague who brought me to her den, Cuba Libre! :)

Initially, I was skeptical about the place. 30 minutes into it, I was enjoying myself! The people were great and the deejay played MY kinda music! The live band was cool too.

On hindsight, I hadn't clubbed for soooooooo long that any kind of club would have been fun for me.

That is in fact, quite pathetic, isn't it?

Just Like This?

2011-05-31T20:24:00.000+08:00

The nearer it gets, the more I feel that I'm not gonna have a blast.

I feel so sad.

Is it me? Is it time to stop all those playful desires?

Birthday Wishlist 2011

2011-05-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

1. Thick and healthy hair
2. Trim and toned body
3. Healthy insides i.e. no more bloating
4. Shopping voucher
5. Shopping voucher
6. Shopping voucher
7. Good complexion
8. Have a blast
9. Have a blast
10. Have a blast

It's May

2011-05-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

I love the long weekends.

Somehow I am glad that I am a teacher because I get to have another Monday off because of the polling day.

That gives me 3 consecutive long weekends!

I feel quite ashamed to admit that I am still clueless about my GRC and the candidates.

In fact, I am clueless about politics.

I don't think I have the energy to bother so much; I don't think I am that bothered anyway.

Wait till I become Princess Yuni, just like how Kate Middleton becomes a royalty now, then maybe I will express more interest. Oh well, apathy is not a crime, right?

Club Can't Handle Me

2011-04-17T15:50:00.001+08:00

When was the last time I went? 3 months ago? Gosh.

Lulu, I think you're the only one in my social circle now that I can count on to go with me. Please do not quit. P L E A S E

So the only comfort I give to myself nowadays when I wanna go but can't (NOBODY TO GO WITH!!) is that the club can't really handle me anyway.. LOL

And so, my bedroom becomes the dance floor.

Give Her A Break

2011-04-05T18:17:00.001+08:00

She is the poor girl who has been smashed by the media very harshly. She broke the record in YouTube for having more than a million dislikes (WOW!).

True, she sounds awful. And I wonder what Simon Cowell can say about her singing. But hey, give her a break. She's only like what, 16? I don't know.

For those of you who have never heard of Rebecca Black, go on and listen. Be the judge. :)

Record

2011-03-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

I think I have just achieved my fastest time for 2.4km.
15:36

Celebration!

Sleep

2011-03-29T18:49:00.000+08:00

I am growing to love my afternoon naps.

Oh dear, I am becoming lazy.

Me.

2011-03-19T21:25:00.002+08:00

If there was a video recording every single moment of how I endured their quarrels, you would see the damage they had done.

If there was some kind of a tool to peek inside my heart to see how it was never whole, you would understand why I seemed so cold sometimes.

If you had seen the damage inside of me, you would discover that I'd give anything to prevent something similar from happening to us.

If you had seen whatever is left of me, you could never bring yourself to blame me for wanting to take the easier way out.

But I don't think you can. Because if you had, I wouldn't be writing all these now.

An Achievement!

2011-03-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

It's the FIRST time I went to the market by MYSELF. I bought 15 pieces of yong tau fu ($2.50) to cook lunch with. I was walking proudly on the way home. :P

And I thought to myself, how nice would it be to wake up everyday knowing that your day starts with a morning walk to the market. But when the thought continues to the part where most of my time has to be in the kitchen preparing meals, I went 'Urgh'.

Hey BODY,

2011-02-25T16:44:00.001+08:00

You have been aching the whole day, feeling feverish and suffering from a bad headache.

Can you please fight the whatever bug that is inside away?? As your owner firmly believes that you are in desperate need of a detox, you only had apples and carrot soup for today. Is it working? Are you busy fighting the germs? Please do.

The owner doen't want to waste this weekend.

With the help of BEAFLU, you should get better soon. :)

Lovey Dovey Till Death Do Us Part

2011-02-24T15:36:00.000+08:00

THAT will be my dream.

THAT will be the one thing that is easier said than done.

I just saw my colleague, being driven to work by her hubby of 25 years, I repeat, 25 YEARS, kissing goodbye to each other.

My first thought, "WOW!"

It's really not easy to maintain a loving relationship but I hope to achieve that.

Shall we?

For Lenny Wati!

2011-02-16T17:53:00.000+08:00

1. Rihanna - Only Girl
2. Katy Perry - Firework
3. Katy Perry - Teenage Dream
4. Christina Aguilera - Express
5. Avril Lavigne - What The Hell

5 first, I'll update when I think of more. hehe!

The Sensible People Will Choose To Not Celebrate Today

2011-02-14T19:04:00.000+08:00

My colleague asked how I am going to celebrate tonight, and I said, "No la, waste money!"

It is just a day invented by people for people to earn big bucks and for people to spend unnecessarily. (If you can read this accurately, my people refers to different types of people.)

Anyway, I feel quite bad for not getting the hubby anything, when he is getting me something. I don't know what is it though. Hmmm. Quite anticipating it. Hehe.

Well, Happy Valentine's Day!

Chinese New Year

2011-02-02T11:35:00.002+08:00

I have to give out Hong Baos already. Crap.

Enjoy the holidays, people!

Bloated!

2011-01-16T10:20:00.001+08:00

My stomach or maybe it's intestine or is it my gastric, has been filled with so much gas that I look 5 months pregnant!! Bloated to the max! Argh!

It's been a week!

So annoyed by this.

IT'S 2011

2011-01-01T18:50:00.001+08:00

I have spent so much money in 2010 that I should be spending the next year living in SUPER BUDGET.

Other than getting my own house and a change of car in 2011, will there be any more exciting happenings?

I anticipate. :)

May Prince(s) Charming arrive for Lenny, Laura and Frances.

The Last Few Weeks of 2010

2010-12-09T11:43:00.006+08:00

I am actually not looking forward to the new year. 2010 has been a fabulous year for me. I simply love everything (minus the part about losing a supposed friend) that has happened in this year. I love the busy preparation for the wedding; trying on the gorgeous gowns, feeling like a star during the photoshoot, the short getaway in Bali and getting ready for the big day. Though we had our fair share of arguments along the way, it is through those times that we learn and grow to love each other in every way. :)

As for work, there were days when I really feel like giving up. Those days made you feel like you're wasting your time and effort. You can't seem to see the result and your hard work will never be appreciated. But when you receive a sincere thank you from a parent or when a child tells you that she wants to be just like you when she grows up, everything changes again. It is after all, a kind of job with returns that no amount of money can measure. I ... (can't believe I'm actually saying this) think I love my job. Maybe that feeling will not last, but as long as I'm in this department with a great boss, I know I'll enjoy working for her. Pray hard that I will not be in other department next year.

So, COE went up.
CAR (1600CC & BELOW); TAXI $47,604

CAR (ABOVE 1600CC) $62,502

Thank goodness we were one step ahead and we bought the car 2 weeks before. Smart move! Now waiting for shipment to arrive. :)

2011 Kia Sorento SX

I'm So Going To Europe!

2010-11-14T20:49:00.000+08:00

Hers
Down jacket (Zara): $199
Sweater (River Island): $68
Boots (Timberland): $229
Long John (Winter Time): Top + Bottom = $90
Online shopping (recommended by Frances Lee): Approx $100+ ??
Socks (Timberland): 2 pairs = $55

His
Sweater (Winter Time): $48
Sweater (Timberland): $159
Long John (Winter Time): Top + Bottom = $90
Socks (Timberland): 2 pairs = $55
Boots (Timberland): $299

Kah Shien, when you get married, please have it during winter.

Perhaps I will go to Las Vegas during winter.

I shall go to every country during winter.

Loving You

2010-11-12T02:57:00.000+08:00

I just have the urge to do this post.

When I think about the way you love me, I simply feel so fortunate to have you. Have I ever told you that I am damn proud of you? I am proud that you are such a responsible employee. I am proud that you are able to achieve so much within a short period of time. I am proud that you have amazing integrity. I am proud of what you are, of whatever I can never be.

So here's to our 1st month, though it's a little belated. These kinda words don't pop out of your head all the time.

This feeling is priceless, and I pray that we will never lose it.

26 & counting

2010-10-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

Are you, like me, more of a coward as you age?

I used to be a fan of horror movies. I loved the thrill. Now, I prefer to watch humour, action shows. I get too scared to look at the horror screen easily.

I seem to be less tolerant of pain too.

Nowadays, I think more before I act.

That's why they say 'young and carefree', never 'old and carefree'.

Mrs Goh

2010-10-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

"Miss Chan, are you Mrs Goh already?"

(smiled) "Yes."

"Yay! Can we call you Mrs Goh now?"

(smiled and nodded)

A few hours later..."Byebye, Mrs Goh!"

Ta Dah!

2010-10-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

As requested by Mr Goh, this is my first post as Mrs Goh. Hehe

While the man is engrossed in his game, the woman shall find things to occupy herself.

The laptop, or to be more precise, online, only has three things for the woman to do. First is email account. Checking email, or rather, clearing the inbox (by clicking multiple delete) will take approximately 10 minutes. Second will be Facebook. Usually the social network site can keep the woman occupied for about half an hour. Then, occassionally, when the mood is there, blogging will take place. This can take up to an hour if she wants to. Very rarely. So, at the last resort, with no one to talk to or keep her entertained, she will decide to work. Like now.

Let's go to my work email and complete some of the stupid reflections assigned by my nothing-better-to-do-HOD.

The Last Post As Miss Chan

2010-10-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

The title says it all.

I am excited.

And exhausted.

Can I be absent from work the whole of next week, please?

The First Taste

2010-10-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

So that's how it feels like. I can handle it, can't I?

Am I not what I appear to be?

I guess, it does hurt. No matter how hard I try to convince myself.

I wanna create a protective bubble over myself, just like Wyatt in The Charmed Ones.

A Blast

2010-10-04T15:13:00.000+08:00

It was really A BLAST. The hen's night couldn't have been better. :D

There were many choices and there are still choices, or should I say, distractions. That is what a marriage is all about. I've made my choice and I should be strong enough to stay on the track.

And so, 7 more days to another upgrade of status.

If we ever meet again

What Will My Girls Do?

2010-10-02T10:04:00.000+08:00

I'm all excited about tonight. And the wedding. I woke up at 6 plus in the morning and couldn't get back to sleep. Ha.

I wanna have a BLAST tonight.

Girls, do ANYTHING but don't make me so drunk that you have to carry me back.

Muacks!!

I Like!

2010-09-23T23:10:00.002+08:00

In 3 weeks

2010-09-19T16:53:00.000+08:00

Oh no.

It's so fast!!!!!!!

I'm fortunate to have friends like you, Frances Lee, Laura Lee, Tan Kah Shien and Ku Ka Yan! :)

I'm fortunate to have a sister like you, Lenny Chan. I love you to bits! :)

I'm fortunate to have a cousin like you, Luelle Ng Zhi Hui! You're the best cousin in the whole wide world! :)

And what can I say about the man? :D *smile*

Now, I am left with
1) Guo Da Li
2) Hen's night
3) Actual Day Programme (a lot to settle!)

A Fruitful Day

2010-09-09T22:56:00.001+08:00

Today, I have done 3 things: eat, pack, swim.

Eating and swimming took up less than an hour combined. The rest of my day was spent sorting, throwing and packing things. I guess this day will never come if my parents hadn't bought me a new cupboard. I threw away MANY things. You know what always happen when you are packing things? That's right, a walk through memory lane. I found stuff from year 2000. I found my diary. And I read. Gosh, what a 'discovery'. And I discard.

Throwing things, or should I say clearing space, has an amazing effect on one's soul. I feel lighter! Literally and figuratively. My room is so much neater and CLEANER now. All the dusty objects have been cleaned. Happy!! :D

Oh, I must announce that I have cleared my wardrobe (last Sunday) too. I threw away a huge bag of clothes. Does it mean that now I have space for new clothes? Hahaha. This September holiday turns out to be more fulfilling that I thought it would. :D

26 hours more to the reunion! Big hug and big MUACK to the man!

If I cared less, it wouldn't hurt as much. So that's what I'm gonna do.

Barbara

2010-09-02T17:33:00.000+08:00

The girl's name Barbara \b(a)-rba-ra, bar-bara\ is pronounced BAR-bra. It is of Latin origin, and the meaning of Barbara is "foreign woman". The adjective was originally applied to anyone who did not speak Greek; it has the same root as "barbarian". In Roman Catholic custom, Saint Barbara is invoked as a protector against fire and lightning; she is patron saint of architects, stonemasons, and fortifications. Barbra is a spelling variant made familiar by singer/actress/film director Barbra Streisand. Many people may associate the name with the popular doll Barbie, which with Babs, are informal pet forms. Barb is the short form.

To Laura Lee: No Barbara!!!!!!!

Colourful

2010-09-01T22:13:00.000+08:00

Settled the theme for the brothers and sisters! Yippie!

Guest list!! Help!!!

Pray that we won't exceed the maximum number of tables. Or else I gotta retract my invitations!

Thank you, Frances Lee! What will I do without you? Muacks!

Tuesday, 31 August.

2010-08-31T16:35:00.001+08:00

Are you at some place where there is no reception? I hope you are alright.

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What does it take to be a worthy friend? Have we lost it years ago?

Can't Wait!!

2010-08-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

Get ready the winter clothing!
http://www.dynastytravel.com.sg/grouptour/grouptourdetail.aspx?iid=EDC100714-0000012&m=3346&kw=SCCENTRALEUROPE&ldy=-1&hdy=-1&lp=-1&hp=-1

:)

Fourth Night Without You

2010-08-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

On the first night, I was covering myself with the blanket up to my chin. The air conditioner in the room seemed too cold (21 deg. C) for just me.

On the second night, I increased the temperature to 23 deg. C. It was probably because of the rain that made the room so cold.

Subsequent nights, I've decided to stick to 24 deg. C. You know how crazy the weather is now; frequent downpours cool the surroundings already.

By the way, I ate a mouldy bread today. Yucks! It was so sour! Not purposely, of course. I was busy marking and just opened up my lunchbox to grab my bread. It tasted fine, but towards the end it was very sour. At that time, it didn't occur to me that the bread could be mouldy. I thought the sour taste could just be...well, I don't know. So I just swallowed it. Then, when I reached for the second slice, I turned my head and glanced at my bread in the lunchbox. To my horror, there was something on the side of my bread! Oh my god! I went home and looked at the 'use by date' and surprise, surprise, it was 22 August.

*applaud my foolishness*

I need your hand in mine.

Beautiful?

2010-08-21T21:10:00.006+08:00

A Match Made

2010-08-11T22:43:00.002+08:00

I guess it's the way I am, that makes everything fits perfectly.

I think it's the way you are, that makes me feel so blessed.

'Absence makes the heart grow fonder' - how appropriate.

I often take things for granted, so it's moments like this when my senses return, that I will remind myself, yet again, to treasure what I have.

Are you ready? I am. In fact, I can't wait. :P

Wasting Time

2010-08-08T12:27:00.002+08:00

Friday was a half working day. It was over just like that.

Saturday was a full working day. A good Saturday gone just like that.

Today is a Sunday. I hope that it will not be wasted like the past 2 days. However, looking at my circumstances now, it is highly likely. *frown*

Am I being selfish?

Just Blogging

2010-07-29T17:43:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, I looked at my expensive photos again and singled out the pretty ones which were 'discarded' as it was TOO EXPENSIVE to put ALL OF THOSE in the wedding album. And surprise surprise, I filled up a 50 slots album, sending 100 odd 'discarded second time' photos back to the envelope. I actually felt quite good knowing that I have SO MANY pretty photos and felt even better knowing that I OWN ALL OF THEM. *grin* The $3088 doesn't seem that much now, especially after talking to people and realised that spending $10k on your wedding photos is considered 'average'. Well, depends on how you look at it, right?

Ever since Term 3 started, work has been crazy. We have meetings, lesson study and more meetings. To be explicit, OT is an everyday thing. The management personnels believe that they are doing what's best for the pupils. But in fact, when the teachers are drained, what kind of quality teaching/learning can take place?
Finally, a group of teachers sent an anonymous complain letter to the 'leaders'. No work-life balance was the main concern. I guess somehow it dawned on them that we are not robots and we do need A BREAK. Solution: no Contact Time + reduced lesson study time for 2 weeks. As you are reading this, you may be thinking "Hey that's very nice of the school". I agree but the fact is, we do not have lesser things to do. The school is just freeing up some time for us to meet the deadlines. Yay?

Alrighty, gotta get ready for dinner with cousin! Shower time!

Time

2010-07-23T19:28:00.002+08:00

I don't have enough of it. With all the wedding preparation and piles of work, 24 hours is really too little. 30 hours would be much better; the extra hours are for sleeping.

This year, I've already taken 7 days of MC.

$3088

2010-07-19T23:36:00.001+08:00

I feel anger.

I feel cheated.

I feel forced.

It wasn't part of the plan.

Is it possible to ask them to void the payment?

My Dream

2010-06-23T10:29:00.002+08:00

Can I call it a dream?

I have always wanted to visit Las Vegas. Since childhood days, whenever I have to answer my favourite country, America will pop up. Las Vegas is the city that I wanna visit the most. I don't know why I'm so attracted to that place. Maybe it's the nature of that city; wild yet posh.

Will it ever be fulfilled? *shrugs*

P/S: Do you know that my parents actually visited U.S.A last year?? They didn't bring us sisters along!

$$$$$$$

2010-06-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

If you have a flair in photography, do consider being a part-time photographer. Once you have a slight recognition, you can earn big bucks. $2000 for an assignment which requires about 12 hours of work is easy money, don't you think? (People like me, for example, only earn $2000 for 200 hours of work.)

I am currently choosing my actual day photographer. Either by chance or fate, I have zeroed in on 2 companies: Out Of The Box and Tri-Angles. $1800 and $2288 respectively. I trust Tri-Angles's skills more but a difference of $488 is a lot.

How?????

Grumpy

2010-06-09T17:41:00.002+08:00

Woke up from my interrupted afternoon nap. Headache.
Heard unpleasant news.
Very grumpy. GGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Is there a vampire in my life?

Happy Birthday!!

2010-06-04T18:16:00.003+08:00

It's tomorrow but since 2 people have already wished me, I might as well get into the birthday mood! :D It's gonna be a non-havoc birthday this year. No alcohol, no drunken state.

It will be a day to celebrate me being born into this world! It should be a massive celebration since I've brought much joy to the people around me. Especially to YOU! Hahaha. Without me, there'd be 50% less entertainment in your lives. Note the s; implies to all of you.

I don't exactly have a wishlist, but it will be nice to have a new handphone. My E66 has cracked. Yet, I don't have a dying desire to own a new handphone. I guess that phase of my life is over. Now I know why my parents can use the same handphone for...ever. Oh my god. I'm really growing old!

2 weeks of 'rest'. I want to savour it.

Hello!

2010-05-09T13:52:00.003+08:00

When was the last time I felt motivated to blog? hmmmm....

Butter Factory is slowly degrading. Just last night, at 11pm, the entrance was barren. For those of you who frequent there, it is a common knowledge that a LONG queue should be present. I think that place is cursed. Seriously. Think 'bout all the other clubs that were there previously.

My friends asked me last night, how sure am I that he is the one, on a scale of 1-10. I paused. I thought of the things he does that annoy me. And I replied, "Ten."

Anyway, it's already MAY!! Goodness!! I have to start finalising all the other stuff soon. Let's see what is there on the list. In order of importance.

1) Tentative guest list
2) Montage
3) Actual day gowns (bridesmaids' gowns incl.)
4) Dinner menu
5) Themes (ballroom + overall)
6) Wedding shoes
7) Invitation cards
8) The Happening Hen's night
9) Speech / Performance

It's 15 hours to 7.30 on Monday. Sian.

That says a lot, doesn't it?

GOOD Friday

2010-04-01T19:09:00.002+08:00

It's gonna be a good, good long weekend! I know it because I don't have to do any marking at home! Read: It's gonna be a REAL long weekend. Happiness!!!!!!!!!

Read This!

2010-03-28T23:54:00.002+08:00

For bimbos and non-bimbos, this is a highly entertaining book. :)

Something Cheery

2010-03-15T11:01:00.002+08:00

Yippee!!! It's the March holiday! Happiness happiness happiness!! :) :D :) :D :) :D

Whatever negativity has turned into positivity. The secret thought has magically erased itself too.

See, it is good.

Buried

2010-03-11T22:25:00.003+08:00

I have a secret thought. But I can't say it out loud. I'm hoping that it will go away.

It is one of those things that you can't say but you really want to say.

I can't say it here because of my 'audience'.

Yet I am dying to say it here because it is supposed to be my right, especially on this space.

This is my blog! Why is there a need to censor myself??

Feelings

2010-03-10T22:06:00.002+08:00

I know that I'm not your favourite, but shouldn't there be more effort on your side?

I'm just feeling a little negative about how things are going.

Effort

2010-02-23T20:15:00.002+08:00

I have totally lost my voice. *croak croak*
My throat has been hurting since last Friday (and I had slight fever) but I refused to visit the doctor. There are a few valid reasons for this:
1) I don't want to waste money.
2) I don't want to take MC.
3) I think it'll go away by itself.

But now, my throat is telling me that it is not going to recover soon. It's trying to croak,"Serves you right for shouting when you're having a sore throat. Now you can't even talk!"

So, will I surrender and take MC tomorrow? I'm still undecided. I have my class to think about. Term 1 is ending and all the teachers are rushing to cover the syllabus. I have tons of corrections to hunt after the darlings. Can I afford to take MC?

Then again, even if I were in class tomorrow, would it be productive? I can't even talk without hurting my throat, let alone teach for 6 hours.

Tell me, am I that noble?

Really??

2010-02-13T11:20:00.002+08:00

A few days ago, a thought struck me.

If I got pregnant next year, say July, I can be on maternity leave until my bond is over (2012 June). Ain't it great?

But, it can never be so simple. Sigh. As much as I would like to be a stay-at-home mum, circumstances deny me so.

Life's always complicated.

LIM CHEE GUAN

2010-02-07T15:27:00.002+08:00

Just got back from Chinatown, after queueing for the 'irresistible' bak kwa. For 6 hours.

That's a record for myself.

And I'm never gonna break it.

I swear.

Staying Afloat

2010-01-30T13:43:00.002+08:00

I love the kids. I have the drive and energy to nurture them well. What I don't have is, the time and enthusiasm to do all the other kinds of extra (useless) work. There are just too many redundant things that teachers have to do, and all these are draining our energy, sucking out whatever passion we originally have for this profession.

Tell me, what can the kids possibly benefit from, when all that we do is 'do for the sake of doing'.

Revolution, please.

2010

2010-01-09T19:28:00.003+08:00

The fact that I took more than a week to leave a post in the new year says a lot about my life now. No time!!

Well, the Indo trip was good. He managed to 'charm' everyone around him. Haha. We shopped a lot, ate a lot and talked a lot.

Back here, my work is draining so much of my energy everyday.

Love, love, love.

The Second Last Week of My Holiday

2009-12-21T15:38:00.002+08:00

Please let it pass slower. Please, please, please.

Will be spending the last week at Indo...having mixed feelings about it. :x

I want to play mahjong.

They've Got Talent

2009-12-16T13:50:00.002+08:00

There're so many talented people out there. Once upon a time, when you're naive and well-protected in your little hole, you thought that you're probably the most talented girl, and that you're better. But the truth is, you're not the one and only who can do it.

What makes you so special?

Moody

2009-12-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

–adjective
1. given to gloomy, depressed, or sullen moods; ill-humored.
2. proceeding from or showing such a mood: a moody silence.
3. expressing or exhibiting sharply varying moods; temperamental.

I felt 'off' the moment I opened my eyes this morning. Something just didn't feel right. I got irritated by the slightest thing (mainly by mummy dearest). And as I was showering, I finally knew what was causing the 'discomfort'.

I'm missing you.

Enjoying/Not Enjoying the Holiday

2009-12-15T17:17:00.002+08:00

I've been hardworking today. My 'holiday homework' is 80% completed. Yay!

I love having all the time to myself, doing what I want to do. But when there is too much 'me time', I get restless and bored.

What shall I do now?

......

List of Things for Dec

2009-12-08T19:11:00.003+08:00

What I MUST do:

1) Set test papers for 2010
2) Stick to my workout regime
3) Pamper the loved one (after the arduous course)

What I WANT to do:

1) Stick to my workout regime
2) Pamper the loved one (after the arduous course)
3) Get a new wallet
4) Fix my hair (style + colour)
5) Have more kind thoughts
6) Spend some time under the sun
7) Wash my car
8) Finish reading my novel
9) Shopping
10) Get an idea of how the bridesmaids' dresses look like

I am so blessed. :)

Punctured Tyre Experience

2009-11-24T22:58:00.002+08:00

The title said it all. A stupid nail. Lucky that I managed to drive to a petrol kiosk to fix it.

Cost: $135

Oh well. Now I know how a car with a punctured tyre feels like when it's driven.

Experience: priceless

Where has the sun gone to?

2009-11-19T17:13:00.002+08:00

I know it's the monsoon season, and I'm quite enjoying the free car wash every now and then, but I miss the sun. Rainy days make me lazy.

The man is on a very important course these few weeks. This course demands the physical, emotional and intellectual aspects of a man. For more than 12 hours a day, you work your guts out and give your best. Sadly, work doesn't end when you reach home and you hardly get more than 5 hours of sleep each night. After some thought, I've decided that it's perfectly reasonable for you to be 'King' during this period (emphasize: only during this period). As for last night's incident, it's guaranteed that it won't happen again. I'll be on my best behaviour. :P

I want the following artistes' songs: Daughtry, Taylor Swift, Pink, Black Eyed Peas.....(let you know when I think of more). Lenny, please take note. Hahaha

More love needed. Greediness.

Forward

2009-10-27T09:19:00.002+08:00

Ever since the proposal, Miss Yuni has been so busy with all the preparation. Finally, after countless phone calls, discussions and tears, the venue is confirmed. Yay!

Bridal package and photography is next.

Doing good.

The Status Upgrade

2009-09-23T06:37:00.003+08:00

Thank you for going all the way out for it. I am sincerely touched and VERY impressed.

Everything was perfectly planned and it will remain deeply etched in my brain.

20.09.2009 :)

The F word.

09.09.09

2009-09-09T21:05:00.002+08:00

Just wanna leave a mark on my blog for this nice date.

It was revealed to me that a proposal could have happened on this day, but he had no time to buy the ring. Oh well.

I had a surprisingly nice time with my colleagues on the Teachers' Renewal Journey. We stayed at Holiday Inn Atrium for 2 days 1 night, had fun during the sessions and sort of bonded. It made me feel different towards this school; I am no longer in a hurry to leave. But, they are just 15 out of the 80 staffs. There is still evil lurking around.

My September holiday is going, going........(gone).

Understanding is a key component.

Slack

2009-08-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

–adjective
1. not tight, taut, firm, or tense; loose: a slack rope.
2. negligent; careless; remiss: slack proofreading.
3. slow, sluggish, or indolent: He is slack in answering letters.
4. not active or busy; dull; not brisk: the slack season in an industry.
5. moving very slowly, as the tide, wind, or water.
6. weak; lax.

Tell me if you are like me; when there are a lot of things for you to do, you feel motivated to go to work and actually enjoy being busy...on the other hand, when you are practically free almost everyday, you start losing interest and lose the drive to work.

I'm now looking forward to Teachers' Day, and then the 1 week September holidays. Yay!

Nightmare

2009-08-17T22:57:00.002+08:00

You know how some dreams can feel so real? I had one of those last night. When I opened my eyes, I had to take a moment to realise that I was in a dream (nightmare). The feeling of helplessness in the dream (nightmare) was so real that I woke up feeling scared...and realised.

I would never, ever want it to happen in real life.

I am lucky.

The Haze

2009-08-06T09:23:00.003+08:00

I really, really, really dislike the haze. I really, really, really, really, really, really dislike smelling the polluted air.

The stupid haze implies 2 things: 1) We are all breathing in filthy air, and 2) Another part of the forest is destroyed by a bunch of selfish farmers.

Luckily, our haze has cleared up. :)

Together.

What happened?

2009-08-04T08:33:00.002+08:00

I guess you don't need an idiot to tell you how I feel about you. And, I don't need another idiot to tell me how much I mean to you.

You apologized. I should too. There are two of us here. Things couldn't possibly fire up single-handedly.

You said, I should have known that you're not good with words and often say things that doesn't mean the way they sound. You were not blaming me but I misunderstood the words and caused myself a sudden burst of fury, so much so that I said what I said...and hurt you.

There isn't the tiniest tinge of doubt that I should never have said what I said. No matter how angry I was. No matter what. We went through this before and I knew it would hit you. Yet, the words flew out before I had time to bite my tongue.

I hate the aftermath of every such incident. The deep sea of sadness that surrounds both of us is almost unbearable.

I am sorry.

x 1000

The Slight Bit of Motivation

2009-07-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

Maybe it was the brief talk with the experts. Maybe the feeling just came. But I feel that tiniest bit of motivation...finally. It definitely is good news.

Well, this week has been a happy one, so far. We got irritated 'bout me not showering (note: I was procrastinating, not that I went to bed without showering) last night but we're really getting good at solving this kinda trivial irritations. Haha.

I don't have anything else to update.

Getting VERY stuck on you.

All The Small Things

2009-07-10T09:19:00.002+08:00

Well well well, something must have came over us the past 3 days, or else how can we explain all the arguments over the stupidest things?

If I told you what our quarrels were about, you'd be laughing your heads off. Seriously.

Admittedly, I were the one being ridiculous. I have the notion that he's a worm in my tummy (direct translation from chinese, lol) and thus, he should know what I'm thinking without being told. Sadly, this is entirely not true. No guys, I repeat, NO GUYS will ever know what we GIRLS want, without being told EXACTLY. And so, Ms Chan has a resolution. *wide grin*

Sidetrack: I'm sooooo happy that I don't have to work this coming Monday. It's my convocation at NIE. What a good occassion. Hahaha.

I need to grow up more.

I'm Alive

2009-07-01T22:24:00.002+08:00

Hey there, been missing my posts? Or rather, me? :P

School has reopened and because of the H1N1 thingy, there are so many extra things to be done. I'm in the afternoon session now, which makes me feel like I'm doing OT everyday; the day just seems so much shorter.

I've been spending so much lately (eyebrow, lasik and accident), that there is a desperate need for me to scrimp and save as much as I can. I try to survive on the minimal BUT habits die hard. :(

Time for me to sign off (can't waste too much time blogging). Wanna say hi to my babes out there, you know who you are. Miss you all, Muacks!

We complement each other, just like The Muttons.

My First

2009-06-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

BRAAAAAAAAAAKE..............!!!!!! BANG!

That taught me a lesson. Never be a busybody while driving. I took my eyes away from the road to see the traffic police and a Toyota Rush at the side for about 5 seconds and it cost me $$$$$. :( :( :( :(

Thankful that no one is injured.

A Talent

2009-06-11T14:00:00.004+08:00

I've always regarded Taylor Swift as just another pop singer who will eventually fade away after her 2nd or 3rd album...until I hear this song.

Now, I believe she's gonna make it big. A young girl with real talent.

I still wanna be a star.

I DID IT!

2009-05-30T08:26:00.002+08:00

Yes! My surgery was a success! You can't imagine how relieved I felt when I opened my eyes immediately after the surgery to discover that I still have my sight. Haha. The experience was terrifying; I was uptight the whole time. Thank goodness I have a nice doctor and nice nurses around. This marks the first and only selective surgery that I will ever put myself through in my life.

Today is considered the third day, or specifically, 43 hours after the surgery. Yesterday when I went for the first follow up, doctor said everything is excellent, I have 6/6 eyesight on the first day of recovery, and no signs of infection. I was soooo happy to hear that. And he said I could do and eat whatever I want, as long as no swimming and contact sports for a month. And so, I watched a movie last night already. Terminator Salvation, with a bucket of popcorn. :)

Well, I wasn't supposed to wash my face and hair for the first 48 hours after surgery, but who could stand doing that right? So, I did both of the 'sins', being very careful not to allow water get in my eyes. Unfortunately, a few drops of water did flow across my eyelids last night while I was washing hair and it was a little stingy. But I think everything is under control. Hehe. :P

I might have lost quite a good portion of my fine vision though. I can't see my pores at all. Either they have miraculously disappeared or more logically, my eyes can't see tiny things like pores anymore. As a result, I appear prettier on my mirror and my man appears more handsome. The illusion of a smooth complexion.

I sure hope my fine vision gets better. I wouldn't want to think that I'm a swan when everyone else sees me as an ugly duck.

And by the way, my doctor is Leonard Ang, Premium Lasik Surgery Clinic.

2 weeks of turbulence but we survived.

My Research

2009-05-18T18:56:00.002+08:00

The research I've done so far:

1)http://www.lasikcomplications.com/TopTenReasons.htm
2)http://www.lasikdisaster.com/dryeye.htm
3)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O4kDC4sZ5Jg
4)http://www.elasikeyesurgery.com/
5)http://www.myeyesurgery.com/

and many more...

LASIK

2009-05-18T18:11:00.002+08:00

I have made an appointment on 29th May at 10 am to do the pre-Lasik evaluation. If everything is fine, I will do the surgery at 2 pm. However, I am still having second thoughts. Some friends told me to go for it...said it's safe and will save me a lot of hassle in the future, others warned me against the consequences of the surgery and how unreliable the whole thing is. HOW??? Should I or should I not?

It is my eyes we're talking about.

Childish Thoughts

2009-05-14T00:07:00.002+08:00

I am aware that I am in my mid-twenties and I should start behaving like 1. But towards certain things, I'm still using the 18 year old brain.

I shall not divulge the specific childish thoughts as they are really, not worth to be mentioned.

Anyway, I had a great time shopping with Phoebe today (yesterday)! She can just light up my life in ways which no other people can. :) Lovesss!!

So, practicum's over. I have a 'long' break from now till 29 June. That should make me happy.

Friend or foe?

Who Else But You

2009-05-09T23:10:00.003+08:00

We have been asking what song this is and finally, I stumbled upon the title and singer. And so, this song is for you, my 'somebody'.

3rd Diving Trip

2009-04-26T23:44:00.002+08:00

Practice makes perfect. I'm finally comfortable with navigating in fins and breathing through the regulator. Yippie!

The next step would be to feel confident in taking off my mask and putting it back on. Only then will I feel good enough to take the Advanced Course.

Other than the super duper frustatingly annoying sandfly bites and the long journeys, I am actually starting to enjoy diving. :)

Aren't you glad?

Time To Blog

2009-04-19T01:27:00.002+08:00

I am bloated again. Soooo irritating.

I am seriously saddened by the fact that I am going to be stuck in this school for the next three years.

I am even more saddened when I woke up from my dream of being a tai tai.

I am at least comforted at the thought of having him for the next 5 decades or so.

I am thrilled at the thought of spending the rest of my life with someone I am currently madly in love with, even though sometimes I don't realise it.

I am sleepy and need to sleep now.

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was cadbury...

Bitch

2009-04-08T22:36:00.002+08:00

When I first cried tears of indignation, I thought I was plain unlucky and she was probably having PMS.

When it happened again barely a week later, I firmly believe that the problem lies with her; she's trying ways and means to make my life difficult. But being inferior in position, I can't possibly win her.

Now, after repeated bullying incidents and after realising that she has no right to treat me like this, I have decided to stand up for myself, probably risking my grade for this practicum. I have already thought of ideas to do her in. If she wanna be despicable, then I can be ten times as ruthless as she can ever possibly be. Just watch me. I'll make sure she lives in fear everyday. (It'd be great if she ended up in IMH.)

I may be small but never underestimate the power within.

Hello April!

2009-03-31T00:21:00.002+08:00

In just 10 more weeks, half of 2009 will be over. I will then be officially 25. Damn.

Recently, I have been talking to people about bridesmaids. Oo
Basically, I have been thinking about the future. A lot. I quite like what I envisioned. :D

We are like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle; the longer you spend time doing it, the better it gets.

You make me smile.

Annoyed

2009-03-22T11:26:00.002+08:00

Why can't I just conduct my lessons the way I want? Yes, they are not exceptionally good, but at least I'm comfortable with it. Yet, somebody is expecting more from me. I feel like telling her that it is just not my style and I don't really care if my grades are gonna suck because I am lousy in CL and MI strategies. I just want to be me!

I know I'm going to be in so much trouble if I offend her. But somehow my stubborn personality is just not willing to do something just to please someone. I just wanna pass.

Sometimes I wonder, why can't I put in more effort? Then I realise, I'm really just a lousy person. I don't want anything too troublesome. I will put in enough effort to make things go smoothly, or rather, to have it not too out of my way.

Please let this horrible 10 weeks be over soon.

Sigh

2009-03-21T10:11:00.002+08:00

This must be the most boring holiday I ever had. 1 week flew past just like that. Wasted!

I really want this practicum to be over soon. It gives me a very bad feeling. For the first time since I started teaching, I actually dread going to work. I hate being supervised so closely. Still, I am thankful for the short official working hours.

So stuck on you.

I Certainly Hope So

2009-03-16T23:28:00.001+08:00

The Eagles - Love Will Keep Us Alive

Happy Birthday, Dad!

2009-03-16T20:46:00.003+08:00

Nowadays, when I look at my dad, I always feel that slightest bit of heartache. I wanna go over, put my arms around him and say "I love you". I love to see him smile yet I don't get to see it often. I wanna make him happy yet I don't know how to, other than fulfilling his wishes as soon as possible. I worry about him, the way he worries about me, yet I don't know how to express my care and concern. I wanna take care of him when he's sick, pamper him with massages, accompany him more when I still can. So, why do things turn out so differently?

I remember how he used to carry me on his shoulders whenever he comes back from work. I remember how angry he was with the maid when I slipped and fell down hard on the butt because the floor had just been mopped (I was warned but I ran across the wet floor anyways). I remember how he immediately brought me to the doctor's when he saw my badly wounded knee (I was chasing after bus 135 when I tripped in front of everybody, my face barely an inch away from kissing the ground. I was 14.) I remember the foot massages he gave me when I was sick during childhood, in a bid to make me sleep. I remember how pained he was when I was heartbroken for the first time. I remember ...

When did this closeness end? When did we become so shy towards each other? Is it because I'm no longer your little girl?

I flare up whenever my mum bullies my dad. I feel that strong urge to protect him and stand up for him. Eventually, for trying to show my love for my dad, I behave nastily to my mum. I feel guilty for being the daughter that I am.

Dad, come what may, I will always be your little girl.

What a cheesy post.

Random

2009-03-01T12:59:00.002+08:00

I was thinking what can I talk about other than posting about my work. I realised, there is none, really.

Despite not having any interesting stuff to share, I still wanna blog. Just because I feel like it.

Nowadays it has become so unbelievably mundane, that we tend to behave like my parents. Well, not exactly but close. Obviously, something needs to be done and I think I have to start with me.

I have just eaten yesterday's food for lunch and feeling quite low because my Sunday is gonna be spent doing lesson plan .

What a wonderful life.

Sleepy...

Dilemma

2009-02-23T22:13:00.003+08:00

First day of practicum. Apalled by the self-absorption of my new colleagues. Stark difference between FTPPS and MPS. I yearn for the warmth during my contract teaching. I miss the noise in the staffroom. I miss FTPPS, period. And I only realised how much I've blended into the culture until now. It will take some drastic adjustment of my concept of this job if I'm gonna be stuck in this chilly school.

Weighing the pros and cons.