Suffocated...nearly

I finally (really finally), have time to sit down and blog. I've been aware of the amount of time I've been spending outside, and it's become quite unnerving.

First, my workload ever since school has re-opened is overwhelming. Gone were the days when I can pack up and head for home by 2pm. Gone were the days when I can have a proper lunch and rest during free periods. Now, I've to grab every free period to do work and continue racing against time to try to complete my work after school. I used to be able to check my phone quite regularly last year and reply messages rather promptly. But this year, I'm so busy to the extent that I sometimes forget that I've a handphone to attend to! The meetings that have been held so far just make things worse. They take away my time for marking and at the end of each meeting, I just end up with more work to do. Damn. If not for the fact that I constantly remind myself that work is never-ending and I should just leave my work for tomorrow 'cos I do need to relax and unwind, I would've been staying in school till 7pm instead of the 5pm limit I set for myself.

Second, someone has been taking up alot of my time. This week I've not had the chance to sit in front of the tv and stone. AT ALL. I need such time for myself. I need time to do all the unimportant stuff like plucking my eyebrows, doing masks, walking around the house and disturbing my sister, listening to my mum's nagging (I must be really missing alot of personal time to be missing my mum's nagging, hmmm), etc. This cannot go on. Absolutely no. Or I'll go berserk soon. It's not really his fault but I just don't know how to turn people down. Especially when all I need to do is agree to have dinner at AMK or Bishan (which is really nice of him since he stays in Pasir Ris). Thus, next week I'm going to learn how to say 'no'.

I have to wake up in about 4 hours' time for my CCA training. Crap.



When I was with him, I realised how much you must have loved me.
Now that I'm with him, I realised how much I loved you.