The Second Last Week of My Holiday

Please let it pass slower. Please, please, please.

Will be spending the last week at Indo...having mixed feelings about it. :x

I want to play mahjong.

They've Got Talent

There're so many talented people out there. Once upon a time, when you're naive and well-protected in your little hole, you thought that you're probably the most talented girl, and that you're better. But the truth is, you're not the one and only who can do it.

What makes you so special?

Moody

–adjective
1. given to gloomy, depressed, or sullen moods; ill-humored.
2. proceeding from or showing such a mood: a moody silence.
3. expressing or exhibiting sharply varying moods; temperamental.

I felt 'off' the moment I opened my eyes this morning. Something just didn't feel right. I got irritated by the slightest thing (mainly by mummy dearest). And as I was showering, I finally knew what was causing the 'discomfort'.



I'm missing you.

Enjoying/Not Enjoying the Holiday

I've been hardworking today. My 'holiday homework' is 80% completed. Yay!

I love having all the time to myself, doing what I want to do. But when there is too much 'me time', I get restless and bored.

What shall I do now?

......

List of Things for Dec

What I MUST do:

1) Set test papers for 2010
2) Stick to my workout regime
3) Pamper the loved one (after the arduous course)

What I WANT to do:

1) Stick to my workout regime
2) Pamper the loved one (after the arduous course)
3) Get a new wallet
4) Fix my hair (style + colour)
5) Have more kind thoughts
6) Spend some time under the sun
7) Wash my car
8) Finish reading my novel
9) Shopping
10) Get an idea of how the bridesmaids' dresses look like



I am so blessed. :)

Punctured Tyre Experience

The title said it all. A stupid nail. Lucky that I managed to drive to a petrol kiosk to fix it.

Cost: $135

Oh well. Now I know how a car with a punctured tyre feels like when it's driven.

Experience: priceless

Where has the sun gone to?

I know it's the monsoon season, and I'm quite enjoying the free car wash every now and then, but I miss the sun. Rainy days make me lazy.

The man is on a very important course these few weeks. This course demands the physical, emotional and intellectual aspects of a man. For more than 12 hours a day, you work your guts out and give your best. Sadly, work doesn't end when you reach home and you hardly get more than 5 hours of sleep each night. After some thought, I've decided that it's perfectly reasonable for you to be 'King' during this period (emphasize: only during this period). As for last night's incident, it's guaranteed that it won't happen again. I'll be on my best behaviour. :P

I want the following artistes' songs: Daughtry, Taylor Swift, Pink, Black Eyed Peas.....(let you know when I think of more). Lenny, please take note. Hahaha



More love needed. Greediness.

Forward

Ever since the proposal, Miss Yuni has been so busy with all the preparation. Finally, after countless phone calls, discussions and tears, the venue is confirmed. Yay!

Bridal package and photography is next.


Doing good.

The Status Upgrade

Thank you for going all the way out for it. I am sincerely touched and VERY impressed.

Everything was perfectly planned and it will remain deeply etched in my brain.

20.09.2009 :)


The F word.

09.09.09

Just wanna leave a mark on my blog for this nice date.

It was revealed to me that a proposal could have happened on this day, but he had no time to buy the ring. Oh well.

I had a surprisingly nice time with my colleagues on the Teachers' Renewal Journey. We stayed at Holiday Inn Atrium for 2 days 1 night, had fun during the sessions and sort of bonded. It made me feel different towards this school; I am no longer in a hurry to leave. But, they are just 15 out of the 80 staffs. There is still evil lurking around.

My September holiday is going, going........(gone).



Understanding is a key component.

Slack

–adjective
1. not tight, taut, firm, or tense; loose: a slack rope.
2. negligent; careless; remiss: slack proofreading.
3. slow, sluggish, or indolent: He is slack in answering letters.
4. not active or busy; dull; not brisk: the slack season in an industry.
5. moving very slowly, as the tide, wind, or water.
6. weak; lax.

Tell me if you are like me; when there are a lot of things for you to do, you feel motivated to go to work and actually enjoy being busy...on the other hand, when you are practically free almost everyday, you start losing interest and lose the drive to work.

I'm now looking forward to Teachers' Day, and then the 1 week September holidays. Yay!

Nightmare

You know how some dreams can feel so real? I had one of those last night. When I opened my eyes, I had to take a moment to realise that I was in a dream (nightmare). The feeling of helplessness in the dream (nightmare) was so real that I woke up feeling scared...and realised.

I would never, ever want it to happen in real life.



I am lucky.

The Haze

I really, really, really dislike the haze. I really, really, really, really, really, really dislike smelling the polluted air.

The stupid haze implies 2 things: 1) We are all breathing in filthy air, and 2) Another part of the forest is destroyed by a bunch of selfish farmers.

Luckily, our haze has cleared up. :)



Together.

What happened?

I guess you don't need an idiot to tell you how I feel about you. And, I don't need another idiot to tell me how much I mean to you.

You apologized. I should too. There are two of us here. Things couldn't possibly fire up single-handedly.

You said, I should have known that you're not good with words and often say things that doesn't mean the way they sound. You were not blaming me but I misunderstood the words and caused myself a sudden burst of fury, so much so that I said what I said...and hurt you.

There isn't the tiniest tinge of doubt that I should never have said what I said. No matter how angry I was. No matter what. We went through this before and I knew it would hit you. Yet, the words flew out before I had time to bite my tongue.

I hate the aftermath of every such incident. The deep sea of sadness that surrounds both of us is almost unbearable.

I am sorry.

x 1000

The Slight Bit of Motivation

Maybe it was the brief talk with the experts. Maybe the feeling just came. But I feel that tiniest bit of motivation...finally. It definitely is good news.

Well, this week has been a happy one, so far. We got irritated 'bout me not showering (note: I was procrastinating, not that I went to bed without showering) last night but we're really getting good at solving this kinda trivial irritations. Haha.

I don't have anything else to update.


Getting VERY stuck on you.

All The Small Things

Well well well, something must have came over us the past 3 days, or else how can we explain all the arguments over the stupidest things?

If I told you what our quarrels were about, you'd be laughing your heads off. Seriously.

Admittedly, I were the one being ridiculous. I have the notion that he's a worm in my tummy (direct translation from chinese, lol) and thus, he should know what I'm thinking without being told. Sadly, this is entirely not true. No guys, I repeat, NO GUYS will ever know what we GIRLS want, without being told EXACTLY. And so, Ms Chan has a resolution. *wide grin*

Sidetrack: I'm sooooo happy that I don't have to work this coming Monday. It's my convocation at NIE. What a good occassion. Hahaha.



I need to grow up more.

I'm Alive

Hey there, been missing my posts? Or rather, me? :P

School has reopened and because of the H1N1 thingy, there are so many extra things to be done. I'm in the afternoon session now, which makes me feel like I'm doing OT everyday; the day just seems so much shorter.

I've been spending so much lately (eyebrow, lasik and accident), that there is a desperate need for me to scrimp and save as much as I can. I try to survive on the minimal BUT habits die hard. :(

Time for me to sign off (can't waste too much time blogging). Wanna say hi to my babes out there, you know who you are. Miss you all, Muacks!



We complement each other, just like The Muttons.

My First

BRAAAAAAAAAAKE..............!!!!!! BANG!

That taught me a lesson. Never be a busybody while driving. I took my eyes away from the road to see the traffic police and a Toyota Rush at the side for about 5 seconds and it cost me $$$$$. :( :( :( :(

Thankful that no one is injured.

A Talent

I've always regarded Taylor Swift as just another pop singer who will eventually fade away after her 2nd or 3rd album...until I hear this song.

Now, I believe she's gonna make it big. A young girl with real talent.





I still wanna be a star.

I DID IT!

Yes! My surgery was a success! You can't imagine how relieved I felt when I opened my eyes immediately after the surgery to discover that I still have my sight. Haha. The experience was terrifying; I was uptight the whole time. Thank goodness I have a nice doctor and nice nurses around. This marks the first and only selective surgery that I will ever put myself through in my life.

Today is considered the third day, or specifically, 43 hours after the surgery. Yesterday when I went for the first follow up, doctor said everything is excellent, I have 6/6 eyesight on the first day of recovery, and no signs of infection. I was soooo happy to hear that. And he said I could do and eat whatever I want, as long as no swimming and contact sports for a month. And so, I watched a movie last night already. Terminator Salvation, with a bucket of popcorn. :)

Well, I wasn't supposed to wash my face and hair for the first 48 hours after surgery, but who could stand doing that right? So, I did both of the 'sins', being very careful not to allow water get in my eyes. Unfortunately, a few drops of water did flow across my eyelids last night while I was washing hair and it was a little stingy. But I think everything is under control. Hehe. :P

I might have lost quite a good portion of my fine vision though. I can't see my pores at all. Either they have miraculously disappeared or more logically, my eyes can't see tiny things like pores anymore. As a result, I appear prettier on my mirror and my man appears more handsome. The illusion of a smooth complexion.

I sure hope my fine vision gets better. I wouldn't want to think that I'm a swan when everyone else sees me as an ugly duck.

And by the way, my doctor is Leonard Ang, Premium Lasik Surgery Clinic.



2 weeks of turbulence but we survived.

My Research

The research I've done so far:

1)http://www.lasikcomplications.com/TopTenReasons.htm
2)http://www.lasikdisaster.com/dryeye.htm
3)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O4kDC4sZ5Jg
4)http://www.elasikeyesurgery.com/
5)http://www.myeyesurgery.com/

and many more...

LASIK

I have made an appointment on 29th May at 10 am to do the pre-Lasik evaluation. If everything is fine, I will do the surgery at 2 pm. However, I am still having second thoughts. Some friends told me to go for it...said it's safe and will save me a lot of hassle in the future, others warned me against the consequences of the surgery and how unreliable the whole thing is. HOW??? Should I or should I not?



It is my eyes we're talking about.

Childish Thoughts

I am aware that I am in my mid-twenties and I should start behaving like 1. But towards certain things, I'm still using the 18 year old brain.

I shall not divulge the specific childish thoughts as they are really, not worth to be mentioned.

Anyway, I had a great time shopping with Phoebe today (yesterday)! She can just light up my life in ways which no other people can. :) Lovesss!!

So, practicum's over. I have a 'long' break from now till 29 June. That should make me happy.



Friend or foe?

Who Else But You

We have been asking what song this is and finally, I stumbled upon the title and singer. And so, this song is for you, my 'somebody'.

3rd Diving Trip

Practice makes perfect. I'm finally comfortable with navigating in fins and breathing through the regulator. Yippie!

The next step would be to feel confident in taking off my mask and putting it back on. Only then will I feel good enough to take the Advanced Course.

Other than the super duper frustatingly annoying sandfly bites and the long journeys, I am actually starting to enjoy diving. :)



Aren't you glad?

Time To Blog

I am bloated again. Soooo irritating.

I am seriously saddened by the fact that I am going to be stuck in this school for the next three years.

I am even more saddened when I woke up from my dream of being a tai tai.

I am at least comforted at the thought of having him for the next 5 decades or so.

I am thrilled at the thought of spending the rest of my life with someone I am currently madly in love with, even though sometimes I don't realise it.

I am sleepy and need to sleep now.



Wouldn't it be nice if the world was cadbury...

Bitch

When I first cried tears of indignation, I thought I was plain unlucky and she was probably having PMS.

When it happened again barely a week later, I firmly believe that the problem lies with her; she's trying ways and means to make my life difficult. But being inferior in position, I can't possibly win her.

Now, after repeated bullying incidents and after realising that she has no right to treat me like this, I have decided to stand up for myself, probably risking my grade for this practicum. I have already thought of ideas to do her in. If she wanna be despicable, then I can be ten times as ruthless as she can ever possibly be. Just watch me. I'll make sure she lives in fear everyday. (It'd be great if she ended up in IMH.)


I may be small but never underestimate the power within.

Hello April!

In just 10 more weeks, half of 2009 will be over. I will then be officially 25. Damn.

Recently, I have been talking to people about bridesmaids. Oo
Basically, I have been thinking about the future. A lot. I quite like what I envisioned. :D

We are like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle; the longer you spend time doing it, the better it gets.



You make me smile.

Annoyed

Why can't I just conduct my lessons the way I want? Yes, they are not exceptionally good, but at least I'm comfortable with it. Yet, somebody is expecting more from me. I feel like telling her that it is just not my style and I don't really care if my grades are gonna suck because I am lousy in CL and MI strategies. I just want to be me!

I know I'm going to be in so much trouble if I offend her. But somehow my stubborn personality is just not willing to do something just to please someone. I just wanna pass.

Sometimes I wonder, why can't I put in more effort? Then I realise, I'm really just a lousy person. I don't want anything too troublesome. I will put in enough effort to make things go smoothly, or rather, to have it not too out of my way.

Please let this horrible 10 weeks be over soon.

Sigh

This must be the most boring holiday I ever had. 1 week flew past just like that. Wasted!

I really want this practicum to be over soon. It gives me a very bad feeling. For the first time since I started teaching, I actually dread going to work. I hate being supervised so closely. Still, I am thankful for the short official working hours.



So stuck on you.

I Certainly Hope So

The Eagles - Love Will Keep Us Alive

Happy Birthday, Dad!

Nowadays, when I look at my dad, I always feel that slightest bit of heartache. I wanna go over, put my arms around him and say "I love you". I love to see him smile yet I don't get to see it often. I wanna make him happy yet I don't know how to, other than fulfilling his wishes as soon as possible. I worry about him, the way he worries about me, yet I don't know how to express my care and concern. I wanna take care of him when he's sick, pamper him with massages, accompany him more when I still can. So, why do things turn out so differently?

I remember how he used to carry me on his shoulders whenever he comes back from work. I remember how angry he was with the maid when I slipped and fell down hard on the butt because the floor had just been mopped (I was warned but I ran across the wet floor anyways). I remember how he immediately brought me to the doctor's when he saw my badly wounded knee (I was chasing after bus 135 when I tripped in front of everybody, my face barely an inch away from kissing the ground. I was 14.) I remember the foot massages he gave me when I was sick during childhood, in a bid to make me sleep. I remember how pained he was when I was heartbroken for the first time. I remember ...

When did this closeness end? When did we become so shy towards each other? Is it because I'm no longer your little girl?

I flare up whenever my mum bullies my dad. I feel that strong urge to protect him and stand up for him. Eventually, for trying to show my love for my dad, I behave nastily to my mum. I feel guilty for being the daughter that I am.

Dad, come what may, I will always be your little girl.


What a cheesy post.

Random

I was thinking what can I talk about other than posting about my work. I realised, there is none, really.

Despite not having any interesting stuff to share, I still wanna blog. Just because I feel like it.

Nowadays it has become so unbelievably mundane, that we tend to behave like my parents. Well, not exactly but close. Obviously, something needs to be done and I think I have to start with me.

I have just eaten yesterday's food for lunch and feeling quite low because my Sunday is gonna be spent doing lesson plan .

What a wonderful life.



Sleepy...

Dilemma

First day of practicum. Apalled by the self-absorption of my new colleagues. Stark difference between FTPPS and MPS. I yearn for the warmth during my contract teaching. I miss the noise in the staffroom. I miss FTPPS, period. And I only realised how much I've blended into the culture until now. It will take some drastic adjustment of my concept of this job if I'm gonna be stuck in this chilly school.



Weighing the pros and cons.

Oh. My. God.

I just watched a youtube video of the process of giving birth. TOTAL MISTAKE.

How the hell do doctors and nurses stand the scene? That's why I'm teaching.

Guys, if you're brave enough, go check it out (just go to youtube and type your search). I'm not gonna post the video here.

Gag.



Why am I a woman?

The Overrated Day

I seriously feel that Valentine's Day is just a day for florists and restaurants to earn big money.
Nonetheless, I was delighted when I got this bouquet of flowers. Love it! :D Thank you. But please, don't spend so much money on things that will eventually wither. I'll be as equally happy with plastic flowers. It's the thought that matters. Muack!

The Next Thing

I'm almost done with my assignment (finally)! I've so many things I wanna do next week! It's the week before my practicum and I wanna enjoy it to the fullest!!

First, I wanna watch moviesssss!!!

1) Valkyrie
2) Slumdog Millionaire
3) New in Town
4) The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
5) Underworld

You've only been away for 2 weeks and look at what we've accumulated. I can't imagine what will happen if you're ever gonna be posted for 6 months. Shudder.



The adult way of dealing with things.

Sad

I feel sad that we don't share the same interest. I feel sad that you had to miss diving. I feel sad that I have to know that you miss diving through facebook. I just feel sad all of a sudden.

:(



If the sad face could be written bigger, it would cover the entire page.

Unwilling To Go To Bed

I really can't remember the last time I've been so 'homey'. This whole week, I've only went out of the house for school, tuition, gym and dinner with family. And because of so much 'free time', I'm proud to say that I have completed all of my assignments, except for 1 dreadful one. :D

I was wondering what I can blog about; It's been some time since I put up any interesting posts. But I don't know what's considered interesting. My life has become so mundane now...excitement seems to only originate from handing in my assignments and the occasional quarrels I have with the man, that he claimed to spice up our lives (now that he's out of town, his calls are the only spice). As I was telling my sis just now, I'm growing mould already. Being me, I can't be at home too much. Thank goodness I'm finally going out tomorrow!

Ok, I think I've stayed up late enough (I thought that since I've spent my Saturday at home doing work, I should at least stay up late - silly I know) . I'm willing to go to bed now so it's sleeping time!! Lenny, if you're reading this, turn off your laptop and go to sleep!



I wanna dream of you tonight.

I'm Not A Boy

This remix with R Kelly is beautiful. Check it out if you haven't.




This song makes me understand.



You're not a perfect man and I'm not a perfect woman.

5 days

I slept at 3.30am last night but I'm already awake. Actually, I was already up at 8am and started tossing and turning. My alarm was set at 9.30am but my body just didn't seem to need it. I think my body is acting weird again. My gastric is bothering me on a more frequent basis and my abdomen is, most of the time, bloated. I read about IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) and thought I might have it. But then again, if I have that, my doctor would have found out when I did the extensive health screening (which included testing my stools) last year. Shrugs.

Though it's just 2-3 minutes each time, it's always the highlight of my day.

5 days down, 11 more days to go.
4 assignments down, 3 more to go.



Wouldn't it be nice if we can teleport?

Happy CNY!

This is a belated post, I know. Still, Gong Xi Fa Cai !!!

This year, I feel almost embarassed to be collecting ang baos. Not that I wanna distribute ang baos already, mind you, just that I'm so old compared to the younger ones!

16 days. It'll fly past us. Fast enough, I hope.



I miss you already! :(

Engine Started

I'm waiting for the bathroom. Expected waiting time: 30 minutes. Because my I'm-so-relaxed-so-I-do-everything-slowly sister is bathing.

I'm dying to remove my contact lenses after wearing them for 17 hours. But I have to wait for that too because my I'm-so-relaxed-so-I-do-everything-slowly sister is in the bathroom where my contact lenses casing is.

Well, it's the second week of school and I'm starting on my assignments. So, unless there's earth shattering news that I MUST inform you guys, I'll disappear for a while.

Till then, ciaoz.

Back From Heaven

First day of school : 2 assignments deadlines given.
Second day of school: another 3 assignments deadlines given.

Please, wait a while, my engine is still warming up.

When I'm set, I'm gonna 1) start looking for resources for my assignments and work on them like a bullet train and 2) resume my workout.



I'm getting stuck on you more and more each day...so gonna miss you when you're away.
:(

Another Year Ahead

It's 2009.

My school/work starts next Monday. After resting for almost 2 months, I am definitely re-charged and ready to face the new semester. I think.

I'm currently feeling quite sick in the stomach, all because of the dinner last night. We went to try the steamboat buffet at Chin Huat Live Seafood, the one opposite Novena Square, and stuffed ourselves silly. We thought it'll be the same as the one at Marina South, where we can grill the meat ourselves, but it turned out to be different. I don't think we'll go there again. But if you love seafood, then it's the place for you.

Oh, did I tell you that we went to Siloso beach for the countdown? It was okaay, just that...well, I'm not gonna make any racist comments here. :P



Priceless.