Independence week (cont'd)

Been enjoying the peace and quiet at home for the past 5 days. Not exactly having the time of my life but it's good to have a change every now and then. Doing everything by myself; no naggings AT ALL. Starting to miss them though. Hah. And so, I sms-ed mummy dearest in the mornin. :)

Despite being exhausted, I did the laundry, vacuumed and mopped the floor which has been making my feet black. Well, not really black, but you can feel it when your floor's not been mopped, aye? Cleanliness is a virtue!

Children's Day is on Monday...which means it's a holiday for me! Yippie! But hey, I've got nothing to be happy about. It's just gonna be another day of me-time. All of you are working. I'm getting really brilliant in self-entertainment. Oh, bugger. AT LEAST I don't have to work. Let's just hope I don't wake up at 6.30am that morning. Actually, that applies for Sat and Sun as well.

Since I've got nothing better to do now (other than watching tv or sleeping or driving to 135 Seagull Walk for Wii which right now, I'm too tired to do so), I shall type more. I feel impelled to tell you people how kids nowadays have turned out, if you don't already know.

Boy A: Teacher, you got boyfriend, right?
Me: Do your work.
Boy B: Teacher, you and your boyfriend will do this, right? (Boy does the hugging and kissing action)
Me: (eyes widened) No..!
Boy A: Teacher, you will lock the room with your boyfriend and then.....(does funny actions)
Me: (eyes widened more) No..!! Where you learnt all that?!?
Boy A: Teacher, you know what is sperm?

Faint. My eight year olds. I don't know which is more urgent: To save the earth or to save our children's innocence.

Are you anyone's favourite person?

Came across an interesting clip while idling my time away. You know, when you're alone at home and just entertaining yourself...this clip made me have something to post on my blog. Excellent.


So, am I anyone's favourite person?

Independence week

It's the start of being completely alone at home for 1 week plus. My folks are in China now. Though it's liberating to be able to walk around in underwear, it can get kinda lonely. But so far, I'm enjoying it. Hah.

Okay. I've absolutely nothing else to type.

Just blogging

That's right, I don't have anything interesting to say but I'm just blogging for the sake of it. Hah.

I don't have to work and yet I still woke up at 6.30am this morning. How wonderful. But I was determined to go back to sleep and so after lying on the bed for 1 1/2 hours, I succeeded. Slept for another 2 hours before waking up to mummy dearest's karaoke. Ate the beehoon which Daddy dearest bought for me. Thanks daddy, but can I have some fish cake or at least an egg other than just plain beehoon and vege? I like those vegetarian beehoon with the fake char siew. Fyi, my dad does not read my blog. In fact, he does not go near computers...I'm just talking to myself again.

My Her World arrived. I was reading it and watching tv at the same time. Saw a Mont Blanc bracelet that I really like. Hmm...I wonder how much is it. It's been some time since I bought myself expensive accessories. And I caught the last episode of a HK drama again. It intrigues me that I always manage to watch the last episodes of dramas that I did not follow. It's like really random. Then, while mopping the floor, Britney Spears shocked me by performing her 'Give Me More' on VMA. She had just glittering underwear on and trying to dance. TRYING. It's like she's now too fat to dance properly...her moves seem restricted. Disappointed. I was once her fan and she was such a good dancer. Hey people, I said ONCE...which means I no longer am, so dismiss whatever thoughts you might have about my taste right now! :P

Gonna try the Waraku pasta later on. It'd better be good. I'm hungry already...my beehoon is fully digested.

A nice day!

Today started out really nice, due to a certain pleasant surprise from someone. It made my day, really. :)

Been nasty to the kids these 2 days. I can feel the tigress in me taking control each time I face them...which is very good as this makes my lessons so much more easier to cover. I finally understood why the experienced teachers told me not to smile too much and be strict! Because otherwise, they become barbarians.

Highlight of the day: I got a new phone! SGH-U700. It's not really necessary but my N7373 is gonna become antique soon, so it's just a matter of time. Furthermore, it's been giving me problems. Sorry, pinky but I gotta abandon you already. My god. I just talked to my phone.

Goodbye Welcome

Happy Birthday KS!!

Dedicating this post to Ms Tan Kah Shien...Happy Birthday!! Another year of not celebrating your birthday with us but I guess someone else is doing a better job of making this particular day a special one for you. Hehe. He'd better, huh. Presents?? Hah. You'd better come back during Sep one of these years, or else...you'll be forever missing presents from us. Hahaha.

Love ya to bits! Muackz!

A better day

As what the title suggests, I had a MUCH better day today. Nothing much, except that I did 'charity' to a boy. Bought him food as he was hungry and had no money to eat. If not for me, he would had to wait till 4 o'clock, which would be the time he got home today, to be able to eat something at all. No wonder he's so skinny and always sulking. And from what I know, alot of pupils in this school have no money to eat. I was like...huh?! How to study with an empty stomach. How can any parents allow their children to go hungry?? Then I realise that I've been living a too sheltered life.

Well, speaking of eating, I ate KFC today!!! It's been so long that I can't even remember when was the last time I had that. Yummy!! And since J8 is having a mini mooncake bazaar, Fran and I sampled on some. Niiice. I think that's the highlight of the day. LOL

Monday..

Had an extreme Monday blues in the morning. It's the first time that 'MC' crossed my mind since I started work 2 months ago. When my alarm went off. By noon, it got better and the blue feeling subsided slowly. So I concluded that, it's really just a Monday blues and not because I'm starting to dislike my job. Really. Even though I almost cried today.

I'm not a person who gets angry easily. I don't have a short temper and I normally don't get affected by what people do. You know how some people can get so angry over some things that strangers do. Like waitress being rude or when some morons change lanes abruptly without signalling that cause you to brake so suddenly. Well, I don't. Unless you're someone who means alot to me that everything you do matters. And that only leaves a handful of people. Mummy dearest will always be at the top of the list. Mums always manage to get on your nerves, don't they? Anyway, that's not the point. I digressed too much. What I'm trying to say is, I'm not supposed to allow those little ones make me so angry. But they did. And I think they'll always do. Because I'm trying to do my job well and they're not cooperating. And I don't seem to have a way with them. I feel so helpless and frustrated. I sooo wanna do my job well. Can I?

Okay, enough bout work. So depressing. Let's talk bout how the ball went. Hehe. It was at Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel, yes, the one beside Zouk. And no, we didn't club after that. The food was nice and I would've eaten more if not for the fact that I ate ramen before going there. Oh, I have not updated you guys on the preparation prior to the ball! Used Jean Yip's services for hair and makeup, which I think is soo totally not worth the money. As what he said, it's ah lian's makeup. The hair's passable, just that it could be nicer. Felt bad for making him spent so much. Anyway!!! The most feared thing happened! 2 girls wore the same dress as me!! One is exactly the same, the other is of another colour but exact design. DAMN. Thank goodness I didn't get to bump into them face to face. Lesson learnt (which I knew beforehand and this incident just reinforced it): Never buy gowns from Daniel Yam AGAIN. Irritatingly common.

Pics. I know all of you are hungry for it but they're not with me so we all gotta wait. :)

Sat 15/09

Just watched another movie at Cineleisure, again. Not that I'm complaining, but seems like 80% of the movies I watched recently were all at that place. Thank goodness I've UOB card. 12% discount. Heh.

The movie was 'Cheaters'. A korean sex comedy. Not very entertaining. Due to its nature (R21), I got to see boobs and sex scenes. Quite embarassing, ya?

Right. The ball . Wonder how I'll look like. :P

Gonna sleep soon. But my tummy is growling. Urgh. The mooncakes on my dining table are beckoning to me. I shall resist. Till tomorrow.

An update

Just realised that I haven't blogged for the whole week. But there's nothing much to blog anyway. Been working hard....I guess. Haha. The kids are as problematic as ever. Getting used to it so I'm not stressing myself as much now.

Watched 'The Invasion'. Great film. Highly recommended. Nicole Kidman's great, as she has always been. Sexy even, in the first few scenes (she went bra-less in a white t-shirt).

Mooncakes!! Not that I love to eat them, but they're really quite nice when you have a craving for them suddenly. Hmm, what am I talking about? Anyway, my mooncakes are from Swissotel, the one which comes with the cheongsam box. You guys know? VERY nice packaging. One of the mooncakes is in the shape of a peach! Cool.

Back to work

It's Monday and I'm back to work after 1 week break. Everyone in school was complaining how lazy they were feeling and not wanting to work today. One of my colleagues has 5 absentees in her class. Another colleague only got back half of the class's holiday homework. Same for my class, plus 2 absentees. I'm very sure they are not sick. I wonder what the parents are doing. If my kid tells me he/she doesn't feel like going back to school, I'll make sure school appeals more than home. Nah, kidding. Corporal punishment is so out of date. :P

My bf is being super sweet today. That's what I mean by feeling in bliss, you know? It really takes so little. :)

Bought my gown and accessories yesterday. I really need bigger boobs. But well, good things come in small packages, isn't it? Hahaha. Only lacking shoes now. Hee :)

Sunday 09/09

Oh man. It's Sunday already. Which means I've to work tomorrow...Can time pass any faster?

This week has been in a blur. I managed to do most of the things that I listed out, but how come I don't feel accomplished? I've been eating alot though. Damn.

I don't think I spend alot of time sleeping. As a matter of fact, I really don't. Even when I want to. I do think that I spend alot of time waiting.

I had always thought that certain things were beyond my control. That they are the way they are cos of what happened and I couldn't better things. But yesterday, I realised that I can. It only took a meal and yet I could already see the happiness in their eyes. I know how badly she wants to be there for me and how devastated she must have felt to be shut out. Sorry, I should've let you in earlier. I've to show my care and concern more. Time is running out. Esp for Dad.



Things could be different...only if I try hard enough.

Oo

Was reading Asyiqah's blog and...I'm..I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling. I wanna be there, Phoeb. But you didn't tell me. Sigh. It makes me sad how we're missing out on each other's lives. I know we are growing and things change...but damn it, I'm still nostalgic. I miss those times. So much.

I think I've finally sorted it out. No more 'polluted air'. There's nothing wrong actually, it's really me and my brain. I should banish all the weird thinking and funny assumptions. No more comparison. It has been really turbulent...at least for me. I hope we can land on the ground soon. If there's more turbulence, I might just decide to leap out of the window. But I've never been the suicidal kind so I don't think I will. Even if I decide to, I'll prepare a parachute, but I've a phobia of height! Which means I'll most probably be dead on the way down already. Die of heart attack. LOL. I wonder who will still be reading this without rolling their eyes and going 'huh?'

Anyway, I'm going to a ball next Sat! Preparation to looking drop-dead gorgeous. Haha.



It's really simple to make me happy, you know?

Bared

I don't know what made me do that.
It's so not me. To open up and bare my soul to you requires much courage. The risk. All my deepest fears, thoughts and feelings...they are usually buried. "So how? Damage control?" you asked. But it's already out of control. I had just given up whatever I had left.

I try to understand my own mind, to think in a more logical way. Yes, to stop torturing myself. To stop taking the slightest thing and evaluate it according to my own (forever negative) perception. It doesn't seem to be working. It eludes me.

And so, I feel like a meat on the butcher's chopboard now.

Still

Been talking to Silvia today...it was very nice. It's always a great feeling to talk to a hardly-get-to-talk-to friend. Was telling her what's happening in my life and stuffs. All the doubts that I tried to hide resurfaced again. It's nothing when one person tells you that, but it means something when everyone is telling you the same thing.

I am wondering, what is the meaning of having a blog? To write down stuffs that you want people to know? But the most inner thoughts that you would like to pen down will eventually be censored, cos there are somethings that you don't want everybody to know. And so, a blog becomes just a form of entertainment. For both the blogger and the readers. Or maybe, it's just me. I'm thinking too much again.



What's new?

Sep holidays

Feels great to have a job that encompasses school holidays. Well, this is a very much treasured one week break. I wanna do so many things. Time is precious and I wanna spend it carefully. After this week, I'll be caught up in work again. Argh, just by thinking of it makes me stressed. Do you know that after I took over last week, my pimples have popped out? Gosh. It's so irritating. Luckily I'm still gorgeous. LOL

So far, I've caught up on my sleep. Or at least I think I've been sleeping enough. Most importantly, I no longer need ages to fall asleep; less time is being wasted. Therefore, other than continuing on my sleep, here are the things that I hope to accomplish this week:

1) Shopping
2) More shopping
3) Meet friends
4) Workout
5) Be a leech
6) Tidy up my room (quite hard)
7) Club
8) Watch vcds (it'll be easier if someone accompanies me)

Let's hope next week arrives slower...

beyond human

Do u know that China abort babies at 7th, 8th and even 9th months?!?
2nd time mothers are forced to abort once found out. You get dragged out of your bed in the middle of the night, feeling like a caught convict. They'll go to the extent of pinning you down and ripping your clothes off to take away that innocent life inside. Just because of a bloody state policy.

Disgust.
And I'm ashamed.