Apathy...If only

I know I haven't been really blogging. Uploading videos doesn't count. I wanted to continue just uploading videos to express myself, cos it's so much easier, but I realise that I can't. I need to pen down my thoughts.

I can't forget your words. Maybe you said it out of anger or maybe, you were just preoccupied with your own feelings. But it hurts like hell. How could you?

All I wanted was to make everything ok again. We were doing great, weren't we? Things were just starting to fall into place and I was happy. Yet, that had to happen and you said there was nothing we could do to better things. Do you really mean it?

I'm learning alot. From trying to understand you, to a point where I thought that I've finally understood. But in fact, what exactly are you thinking? Does it matter so little to you that you are willing to let it be ruined?

I had so much hope...so much faith. I let you in to where no one has ever been. I let my defences crumble. I did try, tried so hard to leave myself with some cover. But......Now I know why I've never allowed myself to get so far before.



I wish you could see.


I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you