Prior to the diving trip

I'm all excited about it! I'm 85% sure that I'm gonna survive the trip now. I just have to remember to breathe.

I know how worried my parents are but they're acting cool about it. I'm touched and guilty at the same time. All the more I have to come back safely. :)

Well, this also marks the first overseas trip we're having together. Yuni, be nice.

I know you guys already know this, but let me just say it again. I LOVE YOU, PEOPLE!
The Very Important People in my life (if you don't already know that you are that important to me): Hia Si Ying, Tan Kah Shien, Frances Lee, Chan Lenny, Goh Mia Seng. I would be lost without you.

Yeah, just in case. Just so you know.



Paranoia

Feeling Good

I've stuck to my plan of exercising everyday until my diving trip and I'm currently having quite firm arms, legs and tummy. Hehe.

I'm a little irritated by my laptop. I used to be able to click on something by tapping on my mouse board but now I've to press hard on the button to be able to click (if you know what I'm talking about). I don't think it's spoilt, I think the function has been turned off somehow but I've no idea how to turn it back on. Do any of you know?

And guess what? The stupid blogger has its 'sign in' icons (those at the top right hand and left hand corner) in Chinese. Is it my computer or is it blogger? Irritating.

But I'm still feeling good! 'Cos I'm gonna meet the ogre in less than 3 hours, after being separated for 5 days. Haha. I sure hope that there won't be any last minute changes; he's quite indispensable in his work. *Hope*

The oil prices. At this rate, drivers like me are going to just park our cars at home and take the public transport. Either that or eat bread for 3 meals in order to afford the petrol. Seriously.



Turning 24. Goodness.

Blogging

I'm trying to adjust back to sleeping late since the holidays are here. Not too bad, it's getting later by the day. Ha.

Okay, this is going to be a very boring and crappy post if I continue. So I shan't.

Good night, darlings.

:)

Impressive

It's the start of my June holidays! :D I still have to go back to school this week though, to clock the hours and to hold compulsory supplementary lessons. 8am - 1pm. But I'm officially de-stressed! Hooray!

I'm proud to say that I've been exercising (yesterday and today). I'm planning to exercise tomorrow, the day after and the day day after as well. My plan is to try to get back to my drop-dead figure before I go for my diving trip (do not roll your eyes yet), so that my boyfriend can drool and his friends can be envious. Not that I'm in a bad state now, but my tummy used to be firmer and flatter. Oh, there's a downside though. My boobs. I don't mind their size now, even though they're still considered small compared to yours (you know who you are). LOL. Ok, you may roll your eyes now.

Anyway, I went shopping on my own today! You know the difference between 'shopping alone while waiting for someone' and 'really shopping alone'? Well, today I just decided to drive to Orchard and shop by myself! Hehe, that's another thing to be proud of. :p

After some thought (and some discussion), I think I'll survive my diving trip after all. Yuni the Great, leh. What do you expect? Hahaha.



I won't disappoint you.

Fear

Let me digress a while before telling you the real thing: Damn. My appeal was rejected. Another $50 to be added to Singapore's revenue. Double damn.

My main concern: As you all know, I'm going for my virgin dive next friday. I had my second (and supposedly last) pool session last night and it was horrible. You know how people say, when things go wrong, blame yourself, not others. I found out last night that I could easily lose my life during that trip and I would not have anyone to blame but myself. The drills that I'm supposed to master aren't difficult at all. But for some reason or other, I screwed up. Big time. I did a fatal move not once, not twice, but thrice. I can say that it's basic instinct but really, it's no excuse. I knew I should never do that. What can I say? My incompetencies. Maybe it's true. My attitude towards learning this is wrong from the start. I wasn't serious and treated it as a game. I knew he'll be my buddy and I'd be safe in his hands. In actual fact, he can only look out for me this much, and if anything happens, I've to save myself. It's my responsibility.

So now, I'm going (have to) for a third pool session. Hopefully, by then, my fear and anxiety would have been overcome by excitement and anticipation.

People, pray for me.



The price.

My lack of maturity...

...aka childishness.

I don't even know where to start recording this stupid event of mine. And let me tell you......it's REALLY stupid.

(Warning: The following paragraph has been typed out in a very long-winded way. You are advised to read it only when you really has nothing better to do and you need my stupidity to entertain you.)

I knew beforehand that he's gonna work on Vesak Day and I am okay with that. I've my workout to catch up with anyway. I can slack and spend some me-time. I can even do some bonding with my parents! Then, I got to know (from him) that he can actually not work tomorrow, provided that he can bear to break his word in front of his boss. So, of course, as the responsible and hardworking man he is, he quickly dismissed that thought and he will go to work. Unfortunately, my brain has registered the idea that he can actually not go to work if he wants to. It went like, 'Ding ding ding! Yay!'. And it refused to let go of the idea even after my boyfriend has patiently explained why he could not not go to work tomorrow after all. I let my emotions got the better of me and turned swiftly to be the girlfriend from hell. You see, I understood and I know that going to work is the right thing to do. But the he-can-don't-work idea just got stuck in my brain and I refused to accept the fact that logically, he couldn't, not that he didn't want to, and I ended up sulking for the rest of the night.

And I left the poor man feeling sad and helpless.

It was so totally unnecessary. Why was I acting so difficult? Why couldn't I just back down, right? I am too damn headstrong. I was (am) too spoilt and I just want to get my way. I was pushing it to the limit.

Thank goodness, he managed to 'shield' (he said) himself from my nonsense and counter attack. He managed to cut short my sulking time. Otherwise, I'd still be sulking now. Hee.

Moral of the story: Deal with a prrrroblem child by giving her a problem.



Are you sure about me?

Funny Wednesday

I think I'm going to be sooo fat! I just ate a huge slice of delicious chocolate cake and a bar of Cadbury Boost.

I think my boyfriend's head needs to be installed something called 'The Yuni Radar'. If he's on the line with me and he happens to get called for work, he tends to forget that I'm still waiting on the line and I'll just be hanging on the line until I decide for myself that I should hang up. And he doesn't call back. Thus, 'The Yuni Radar' can help him to remember that there's a gonna-be-upset-if-you-don't-call-her-back girlfriend and save him from trouble. I just don't like things left hanging halfway; we hadn't said goodbye yet. He can just call back and tell me that he's busy and we'll talk later, bye-bye. And I'll be happy. I know I can be real weird at times, but to me, that is an 'ending' and also a form of courtesy.

Just when I thought that I can be in a state of relaxed mood from this week onwards, the contact time today brought back the stress level. Work is really never-ending.

Sleeping seems so enjoyable during weekdays.

The Real Me?

We were supposed to go to the zoo today with 2 other friends but it was cancelled. I slept at about 4am last night and at 9am my eyes were wide open already. No matter how hard I try, I just couldn't go back to dreamland. It gets quite frustrating sometimes, you know? Especially when your man beside you is fast asleep and you know he won't be awake till at least 12 noon and that is provided that I manage to wake him up. So, in the meantime, I have to fully utilise my self-entertainment skills.

After lying in bed for what seemed like hours, I finally gave up going back to sleep and decided to surf the net. Pathetically, there is nothing much for me to do online and I resorted to taking personality tests. Here's what I've found out about myself from several tests.

Test A- The Real You

1. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
2. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
3. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
4. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Test B - What type of personality do you have?

You are self-centered. People around you get tired of trying to please you all the time. You don't care how others feel and everything has to be done your way - this is why you don't have very many friends. Deep down, however, the real you is quite a nice person, and when you like someone, you can be very sincere. So try to think less about yourself and you will eventually be a more popular person.

*ouch* Am I really that bad?

Test C - Your Hidden Talent

You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

In other words, I should just mind my own business. LOL
And fyi, if I were taller, I would really go for SIA or modelling.

Test D - Future

1. Your future friend: People with mature and strong character attract you. Your close friends are usually a tigress or a tomboy. (I can only think of Phoebe as the tigress. All my friends are quite lady-like and gentle. I think.)
   
2. Your travel plan: You will travel to exotic countries like Tibet, India, Egypt. You enjoy visiting ancient ruins, lost woods and spending time in a hut in peaceful neighborhood. (It's true. I'm in fact Lara Croft at heart.)
   
3. Your future financial status: You are very good at saving and sometimes you are even stingy. The reason you want your teeth to grow longer is because when you can't eat, you can save even more on food. Once your money is deposited in the bank, there's no way that you will withdraw it out just to spend on luxuries. (In this question, you are asked to choose if you'd prefer your teeth or nose to grow longer and longer. I chose teeth because I thought I could simply saw it off when it gets in the way but I can't do anything to my ever-growing nose! Right?)
   
4. The last period of your life: You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around. (Who wants to be a lonely old lady???)

Test E - Get To Know Yourself Better

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


I don't sound so bad after all, do I? :)

A Fruitful Saturday

The time now is 1.44pm as shown on my laptop. I woke up at 7 plus (my auto body alarm, as usual), sent my boyfriend to Eunos for his driving lesson, bought breakfast for my parents, had a very heavy breakfast (Lenny, I bought bee hoon for myself! It's not the white colour plain one, it's the brown colour one and I added vege plus dou fu pi. Heehee), bought and read The Straits Times (ages since I read one), watched tv for the rest of the morning, caught the last episode of a HK drama again (I really wonder why I always manage to do that), got nagged a little by mum, felt that it's time for me to shower and I just showered. And I'm sweet-smelling now. LOL.

So, I don't have any 'homework' and I can totally enjoy this weekend! Yippie! Now that the school term is ending, I think and I hope that the next few weeks can be nice, nice and nice! I foresee that my marking will be much reduced and I can go home earlier! Double yay! :D

Honestly, I miss clubbing. I miss dancing. Not that I miss the kinda life I had 4-5 years ago, but now that I look back, it seemed so much more fun and carefree. I think this just proves to me once again, that I've grown. And changed. We all have. For me, I think of the bigger picture now. The word 'fun' has a different meaning and I no longer yearn for it as much. This isn't a very good sign, right? Mid-twenties syndrome!! HELP~!

OK, I still have more than half of my Saturday to spend and I still don't know how I wanna spend it. My boyfriend is at home, hopefully he's finished doing his household chores as he had planned before getting glued onto his computer screen. Maybe it's time to go over and annoy him. Haha.

Oh before I forget! There's something I wanna complain! I got a $50 summon from parking at his house. We didn't know that his carpark's coupon parking is only till 10.30pm, which means parking overnight is strictly reserved for season parking holders. So, just in case some of you aren't aware of this rule, BEWARE! There are many ways that you can accidentally contribute to Singapore's revenue.



I love it when you smile.

A Nice Day!

Since last night, I've been in a bouncy mood because I know what kinda Wednesday I'll be having. After working so hard for the past few weeks, today is finally a relaxed day. No marking, no contact time and no more tuition (for at least 1 week), and I'm home at 3pm! When's the last time I did that?? *grins*

Just a quick update. Previously, I mentioned that I wanna watch that movie and I can't catch it right? Well, guess what? I caught it! 'The Other Boleyn Girl'! It was given to me as a surprise. :D

So, what are you guys planning for the June holidays? Oops! Sorry, I forgot. Not everyone has June holidays like moi. LOL. Yuni is going diving and Taipei! The air tickets and hotel for Taiwan alone cost me $900+, and I've no idea how much I wanna spend there, plus my diving trip should cost bout $500, which means, I'm gonna be soooooooooooooooo broke!!

To my dearest Frances and Phoebe, I'm so sorry! I've been really busy! Once school is no longer such a mad rush, we'll meet up k! Miss ya, girls! Muack!



I would never jeopardize the best thing that I have. Not intentionally.