Post Christmas Pre New Year

I was trying to disturb the man in dreamland but to no avail. A few snorts and grunts were all that I got. Haha. So I decided to put off the mission for the time being and turned to the computer for entertainment.

Seems like everyone is blogging bout how their 2008 went, so I'm gonna do a post mortem too. My 2008 was full of love and laughter. I got attached physically to MOE and emotionally to SSG M S Goh. What I liked best about each year is, I get to experience and learn more about life. Lessons which can only be learnt through experience...invaluable. I've never really regarded myself as an adult until this year. I guess the main characteristic of an adult is the responsibilities. Gone were the days where I could do whatever I want, throwing caution to the wind. From this year onwards, I have to be aware of repercussions of what I say and do. I am afterall, turning mid-twenties. Okay, I'm already in. Gosh.

So there it is. I'm not exactly embracing the new year ahead. Nor am I dreading it. I just wish that time wouldn't pass so quickly. Let me enjoy several moments more. Let me take a look at certain things in greater detail. Let me take my time to mature. But the reality is, we have to grow up fast. Because time never waits.



The horror of the mid-twenties.

Still in Pre-Christmas Mood

Okay, after 2 lousy clubbings, my desire to party went down by 50%.

I am really enjoying my holiday. :) Please don't let it end so soon.



I'm loving you more each day.

Pre-Christmas mood

I need to get presents for people. I need to get 3 presents for that special someone because there're 3 occassions within Dec and Jan. I'm still thinking of the perfect gift(s).

The house has somewhat drawn us closer. We are officially a team now. However, am I still uncertain?

I will be 25 next year, yet I'm still so into partying. Is that normal? Or maybe I'm forever 18. At heart.



Planning. Crucial.

December

What a nice life I've been having for the past few weeks. I'm thoroughly enjoying my holidays!

Phoebe: I can't wait to go paaaarrrrtyyyyyy with you!



Not the material girl.

Yes

"Men are like diamonds. You have to polish them up and create the right setting before you can really see their true value sometimes."

That was taken out of the book that I'm currently engrossed in: Second Prize, Chris Manby. You can only imagine how thrilled I am to be so free so as to be able to enjoy a novel now. Glee.

But as always, being too free has made me so lazy that even though I'm bored to death at home with only the few things to entertain me (tv, computer and novels) and with absolutely no one to talk to now that my parents are away again (not that I'm eager for my mum to strike a conversation with me), I keep procrastinating the essential trip to the hairdresser's. And I'm still contemplating whether or not I should turn up for the absolutely redundant service learning thing that all student teachers have to do. Currently, it's 70-30. Knowing me, you should know which is which. :P

I can see how a stunning woman turns into 'huang lian po' once she's detached from the society. For once, being a housewife doesn't seem so appealing after all.



Polishing and creating the right setting.

In and Out

The holidays are in; school's out.

Nature is in; skyscrapers are out.

Fit is (forever) in; flab is (forever) out.

Au naturel is in; heavy makeup is out.

As you can see, I don't really have any interesting happenings to update. Well, we went Botanical Gardens today and totally sweat ourselves out. I like. :P



Go with the flow.

!

I think I'm having PMS. Everything irritates me. Everyone is irritating. ARRGHH.

Blogging

My 2nd diving trip is way much better than the first. As I've said, the company matters and it makes a lot of difference. It's a small group and we know each other well enough to play and joke around. Other than the fact that the choppy water made me vomit quite a number of times, it was a good trip. :) There's one darn thing though. The only dive that I chose not to go for because of my sick tummy, they saw Manta Ray. Oh well.

My sandfly bites are horrendous. There are about 20 of them. Proof that I've been to the beach. :P

Gonna enjoy my slacking days from this week onwards. :D x 10



I wanna see how you look like 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 years later.

A Happy Day!

Dear diary,

I had a really nice day today. I had a sumptuous lunch with my parents where we stuffed ourselves with food enough for five people. In the end, we surrendered and da bao the leftovers.

Hit the gym two hours later. I had to burn the calories or else I'll definitely suffer the consequences. The workout left me feeling even happier. Thanks to the endorphins released. Ha.

The highlight of the day, though, would be the meet up with the girls. As always, whenever the quartet gathers, there'll be endless fun and laughter. Love you girls! Muackz!!

And to add the icing on the cake, the sweet man came to pick me up. I know it's just a simple gesture, but it's appreciated. Thank you. :)



Blessed.

Yuni is Studying

Finally, we got over it. I don't think it's ever gonna come up again. The issue IS over.

I'm basically quite free now. Other than going to school three days a week, I just have to prepare for 2 papers. And by next week, I'll start enjoying my holidays. Envious?

Meanwhile, I'm gonna devise a way to win the big man while wrestling.



Play.

Halloween

It's meant to be a night of fun and laughter. A pity this girl doesn't know how to let loose and be magnanimous. She has ruined what was otherwise an enjoyable event.

None of the characters was as scary as what had happened. Traumatised is the word.

If only time can be reversed. Mistakes will be undone.



Implications.

Happy!

I'm finally done with ALL my assignments! Yippie!! Damn glad that they're all over. No more deadlines for the time being. Gotta concentrate on studying for my exams now though. I must not get too carried away! Hehe.

The Deepavali long weekend was very well spent indeed. So much so that I extended my holiday to Tuesday, when I was supposed to be attending classes. Well, I thought I needed the additional break anyway. What a lousy excuse for my laziness. The truth is, the motivation to go to work just diminish away when your partner is still asleep because he don't have to work. Plus, I wouldn't turn away the chance of spending extra time with the man. :P

Since last week, I've been thinking of my Halloween costume. I wanna be reaaally creative. Let's hope I succeed. I don't have a reputation of being artistic and creative, you know.



Savouring every moment.

All Grown Up?

I received the 2nd wedding invitation for this year. Suddenly, people around me are either engaged or married. In NIE, you can spot sparkling diamonds on the fourth fingers easily; some are really huge while others are normal-looking.

And before you get the wrong idea, this post is not about me wanting to get married (because I don't, yet). This post is about how we are all growing up too fast and too soon. In the blink of an eye, we are gonna transform from fun-loving babes to home-loving wives!

Even though the stuff that I do sometimes resemble a wife's duty but still...the label matters.

I still find 'crossing over' very scary. To me, it's a whole new world. Being a wife means a lot of things. You can't expect to live a life you've always did and be someone's wife. Your priority will shift. Your responsibility will increase.

Nonetheless, I recognise that it's part and parcel of life. We'll all reach there somehow. It's just a matter of time.



Being human.

Am I?

Demanding (adj)
1. requiring or claiming more than is generally felt by others to be due: a demanding teacher.
2. calling for intensive effort or attention; taxing: a demanding job.

Somehow, this word bothers me.

Questions
- Has it been tiring for you?
- Can you keep up for now and the future?
- Will you resent?
- What if it gets too tiring?



So how?

A Pleasant Day

I spent 6 hours with 2 of my favourite people and it's just so nice. I feel a sense of accomplishment this weekend too as I managed to complete 1 assignment. :D

I shall not describe the details here because my laziness does not allow me to. Please read Frances's blog if you're interested. Fran, you're gonna blog about today, right?

Anyway, I've decided to post some pics! Not in any order, not for any purpose. Just because, seeing them makes me happy. :) My dears out there, don't get jealous. I have not featured your photos too because I'm trying to protect your identity. LOL



The Ogre and the Monster


The Black Pig and the Black Pig


The Homemaker-to-be


The Shit Federation



Contentment is bliss.

I wonder...

Many things have come to my mind recently. Some important, some not. Some crucial to my future, some redundant.

You.
I have not spoken to you for 2 days. Not even a proper sms. I suppose your schedule there does not allow you the time. I try to understand and not think too much. But the train of thoughts just keeps going.

You.
It's been weeks. I realised, again, how stupid I was. I gave a lot but only expected the minimal return. Yet, I'm disappointed, once again. Am I really so dispensable in your lives? Had I been only an entertaining clown of no value? Or maybe, more time is needed.

You.
I'm really glad that you ladies came into my life. We're not only colleagues (ex-colleagues) that's one another's pillar during work, the firm bond which has formed is also undeniable. I know I can depend on you girls anytime. :)

You.
You caught my eye.


Am I asking for too much?

Answer

If I told you that I grew up that little bit more within a day, would you believe?

I know what's been bothering me. It's a little too complex to put it to words. Or maybe, I'm just not ready to tell you people. Maybe I won't at all. :P



Advancing towards.

Fall For You

'Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again don't make me change my mind....' just keeps repeating in my head while I'm trying to do my literature review. Sadly.

Smile

Physically, there is something not quite right. Once I'm done with all the assignments, I'm going for a check up.

Emotionally, there is something not quite right too. I can't pinpoint what is it exactly but the effect is rather clear.



I am such an idiot.

Weekend

I almost forgot how it feels like to be out the whole night and sleeping only the minimum 5 hours (7am - 12 noon), resulting in me feeling sleepy-but-can't-sleep for the day.

I'm currently reliving it.

Anyway, last night was nice. It's always nice to observe the funny people in the clubs. It's always nice to see the man enjoying himself. It's nice to know that my boyfriend's friends hang out with Ronald Susilo. I have something to say about that guy but being moral, I shall not broadcast it to the whole world. ask me personally

I'm thinking of what to do now. Choices:
1) Work
2) Wake the sleeping beast up and risk getting screwed
3) Lie down on the bed, toss around and risk waking the sleeping beast up and in turn risk getting screwed

:(

It's Friday

Yea, it's Friday AGAIN. Time is flying by too fast.

Well, my assignments are finally clearing up. I'm left with 3 or 4 more deadlines for the remaining of October. Somehow, I'm getting lazy. Or maybe, I'm just really tired of working so hard. I'm slowing down and starting to procrastinate.

I'm happy today. There's a high possibility that I'm in good mood because of something someone from school said. It's been real long since anyone has praised my physical attributes. And doesn't it just make you float! Glee. :D

I'm goin St. James in a few hours time. Somehow excited. You know, the whole dressing up thing and feeling good when you know you look good? I just hope that the music doesn't turn out too sucky, knowing that it's gonna be HOUSE. Eeew.

And while I was typing that paragraph, a hideous picture of myself flashed across my mind. I was wearing specs and a napkin-looking white top, posing with KS. I remembered that I had class that day and met up with Phoebe and KS to shop. Then, we headed to Zouk. I couldn't be bothered to go home and dress up first as clubbing was such a frequent event to me back then. And Phoebe, I wouldn't remember this incident so clearly if it wasn't for you. You just have to keep reminding me of how u-g-l-y I looked. EVIL. :P

The boyfriend. Getting more and more indispensable each day.



Within reach.

Hungry

I'm sitting in one of the tutorial rooms, after a boring tutorial, waiting for my group mate to finish another of her group discussion so that she can record the podcast with me. My stomach is growling like hell and I can feel the gastric juices churning against the wall. But what to do? Gotta wait.

As usual, I think too much and weird ideas crept into my mind. That was yesterday. I guess being my boyfriend is really not easy. You gotta figure me out when I don't even know what I want at times.

Okay, my stomach just gave a super loud growl.



The connotation of weekend seemed to have been lost.

Children's Day

I went back to FTPPS today. The performance was great, seeing familiar faces was even better. It's nice to know that the bond was still there despite the separation. :)

I watched you sleep last night. I adjusted your pillow so that your neck won't ache the next morning. I covered the blanket nicely over you, in case you felt cold. I smiled.



Do you know that you still make my heart beat fast?

Reading Week

I guess I should feel happy that it's reading week. That means more time to do my assignments. I bet you guys are so sick of hearing that and I'm sorry. But really, my life is that boring. If you are thinking how come I can still blog, then let me tell you, I'm just waiting for my stupid zip file to get attached onto the email that I need to send out. And it's taking forever. I'm getting ANGRY!

Fyi, I'm using two computers now. You should really see this scenario. It's like I'm earning big bucks to be this busy. Madness.

The stupid attachment is really making me FRUSTRATED.



I miss my VAIO. Well, for love.

Oops

I'm still in September. But mentally, I'm already in October. That's bad. I'm more stressed than I thought myself to be. Haha.

Horrid October

I thought September was bad enough. But when I compare my assignment datelines for this month with September, I realised how 'fortunate' I was.

Work is the first thing on my mind when I wake up every morning and it is also the last before I go to bed. Stress is the word. But luckily, Yuni always have a way to manage her stress. I ensure that no matter how busy I get, I'll somehow still have a life.

I really wonder how the working mums manage. They are indeed 'supermums'.

Alright, I shall go and have a nice dinner now.



I just need to hang on till the 24th.

Constipated...Again

It wasn't my initial intention to put that as the title, but because I am feeling so damn bloated now and I can almost feel all the shit that is trapped inside, I have to put that. Lenny...! Help!

Highlight of the day: Confrontation with a project group member. Or I should just call it a showdown. Let's just say that she's quite unpopular among us and she has very strong views and opinions that she wants to implement on us. In other words, she's really lousy in cooperating and compromising. To put it bluntly, she has very low EQ and social interaction skills. She's lucky that for the past few weeks we've been giving her face and the girls in the group are very nice people. The sad thing for her is, I don't have time for her nonsense and even if I have, I don't think I have the tolerance level to contain my temper. And as the sub-group leader, I have to protect my group's interest. So what can happen if you step on my tail? I can be reeeeaaally mean when I want to, but I didn't tell her to resign (from her self-assigned post of assistant leader). Perhaps she realised that this time round she can't win. Haha. Somehow, when I read her resignation e-mail, I felt elated.

Oh man, I'm so evil. My friend said that I'm a devil in disguise. Even though I look sweet on the outside. I take it as a complement.



Don't mess with Yuni.

Sanity

I just finished another assignment and felt so relieved. I looked at my organiser and the next one is due 2 weeks later, so I thought I could relax a little this week. Then, I checked my e-mail and there is my professor, telling us to make appointment with him to clarify any doubts, hinting to us that we should start planning what we want to do about the assignments. Crap. Talk about stress.

The man is coming home tonight. Yay! It was only a day yet it seemed more. I guess that's what routine does to you.

I'm listening to Daughtry's What About Now, and I just love him! This bald guy is awfully talented. His songs are meaningful and they always strike a chord in me. You know, one way to really sweep me off my feet would be to sing and play an instrument for me. You could really melt this monster. Not that it's hard to melt in the first place. Oh well, I'm basically crapping. It's quite a good way to de-stress.

I have 6 hours of non-stop tutorial tomorrow. Plus another 2 hours of tuition. It doesn't sound too bad if I don't include what I've to do at night.



Same situation, different feelings.

M.I.A

I haven't been going out with people. I think I'm missing out quite a few things, right?

The man is totally busy this week. I hardly get to talk to him. If I'm not wrong, according to his sms at 4.50am, he's only getting an hour of sleep. Poor darling.

I'm a little ahead of my assignments and that's good news. Plus, I managed to return 5% of my sleep debt by sleeping at 10pm last night. :D

My skin is viciously attacked by mosquito bites. Horrible red bumps everywhere. That's bad news cos I can't wear shorts and skirts for the time being.



This is when Mopiko becomes the hero.

BAD DAY

I paid $6.60 for carpark when I can pay only $3.

I could've gotten home at 4pm but I was home only at 6pm.

WASTE OF TIME & MONEY!

Perpetual

I had a good rest last night and I thought I would be energized for the whole day. I was planning to swim after school but I'm tired already! I haven't been working out since the Nike+ Run. I was discussing with my colleagues just now, how easily we get tired nowadays. Either we are really worn out by the workload or it's the age. The fact is, we can no longer stay up till the wee hours of the morning and still feel energetic the next day. It makes me sad. We are really getting old. :(

As I'm typing, I'm really tempted to lie down and rest, but time has become so precious to me now, so much so that I can't afford to sleep more than the minimum requirement. A funny guy in my class once said," I sleep very little because I believe that we can sleep for a long time when we're dead."

That's true. But how long can we last being perpetually tired?



"Even if the sky falls down on me, I have you."

Madness

I've a test tomorrow and yet the first thing I do when I got home was to mop the floor and water my dad's plants.

I'm really tired due to all the work and insufficient rest, yet I'm here blogging instead of doing something more productive. Like study or sleep.

I haven't had dinner but I don't think I want to have it.

I think my brain is gonna overheat, the way a machine does when it's overworked.

I think I'm really quite clumsy 'cos I realised I've got new bruises/cuts every other day.

I think I always think.


I think all this is quite normal. Live.

The Cycle

My friendship(s) seem to be undergoing a cycle. It started with a point, travelled to different points and now, it's coming back to the same point. It may sound abstract to you, but it's actually very simple. I wonder how many of you actually know what I'm talking about. But really, don't bother to figure it out. You can't. :P

So my parents are away, again. For the next 10 days, I'll get a taste of juggling between housework, job and my man. Something like the 'supermom syndrome', only minus the kids. Somehow, I don't really mind. I'd prefer to minus away the job though.

Goodness. Did I really say that?

I might have to delete this post later. Ha.



Was it jealousy?

Rainbow

Blk 268A #12-137
Punggol Field
Singapore 821268

That's right. A cottage in the middle of Punggol Field. LOL :D

I'm excited all of a sudden.

NIKE Plus Run

I completed my first 10km yesterday. With you. :) The friction we had seemed so minuscule now. I'm glad.

Having not touched any work since Thursday, I feel guilty and the pressure is starting to come back. Argh! I gotta resume the madness tomorrow.

Punggol Sapphire. 3rd Sep.



Yes or no?

Talented

If you don't already know her, then you should. Be wow-ed.
She's amazed even the hardest-to-please man, Simon Cowell.




I'd be damn proud if I were her mum.

How's my daughter gonna be like?

Surprise surprise

One of the rare nights when I don't feel like working. Should I rest tonight? I think I should. I can work early tomorrow since I've the morning free. :)

Next week is E-Learning for some of my modules, i.e. much shorter timetable. Yay! Even if it's only for a week. I'm glad that I'll have more time to do assignments.

Ok, I think I'm exhausted. I think it's because I didn't sleep well last night and the long day today. I think I couldn't sleep well last night because I drank coffee in the evening, jolly well knowing that it would affect my sleep. I never seem to learn.

Well, since tonight I'm not gonna be frowning over the monitor and fussing about the best phrases to type into my assignment, let me share with you a song that recently touched me.





I wonder if there's a better way.

Hehehe

I just love it when you do that. It's something that I wish I could do for her everytime, but my patience acts as the barrier. Thank you. Maybe the power lies within the fact that she isn't your mum. Ha.

The government just noticed me to donate $20 to their tax revenue again. Oh, you're welcome.

My account balance is running low. I'm open to donations too, you know.



Tick tock.

25th

Every month on that day, my time will be yours. *Grin*

To say that we've been through ups and down is not the least exaggerating. I remember that time, yes that particular period where we have the ultimate cold war, how we missed out on each other's life, because I was angry and hurt and you were into a relationship. But time heals all wounds and our friendship has proven to be integral to our lives. You once told me that you envy my friendship with her (I hope you know what I'm talking about), of how we can maintain the closeness without meeting often, I think we've just done it! :D

And so, to show everyone how proud I am to have you in my life (eew, it sounds a little gay), here's the second (or is it third?) picture in my blog.





The rest is on my facebook, as you had requested.

Efficient, ain't I? ;)





Snow White & her dwarf.

Stress

Definitions
1. physical, mental, or emotional strain or tension.
2. a situation, occurrence, or factor causing this.

I think I'm under stress. Just a little, I hope. I've so many deadlines and I'm really bad at this. Whenever I've deadlines, no matter how far they are, they'll just loom over my head and I can't wait to finish them. Yes, I'm giving myself most of the pressure. But I just wanna get them over and done with. And the current situation leaves me wondering which to do first. There're just so many of them! Maybe I should learn to procrastinate. Just maybe.

My patience is really bad. I didn't give it much thought before, 'cause it seems like the norm in my family. But after seeing it through your eyes, I realised how bad it is. I'm being unfilial and rude. I hurt the people that I care most. I think last night was totally uncalled for. I should've been grateful that you were there. But again, I let my temper get the better of me. And how I wish I would not always try to crap my way through. I'm just being nasty. I'm just being me.

You've taught me so many things and you've made me wanna try to be a better person. Yet, I'm still as self-centered and selfish. I'm just not trying hard enough, isn't it? On the other hand, I've seen the improvement in you, really, and I'm proud of you. I wish to make you proud one day. I hope I've brought you happiness.



If only 'sorry' could erase everything.

Solo

I'm on my own this weekend. :) I really hope you enjoy yourself on this dive trip. It is what you love, isn't it?

Thank you for the surprise. I love the fact that I was completely caught off-guard and it doesn't cost a thing. To me, it's priceless.

I'm not gonna spend lots of time here. I promised myself I'm gonna make the most out of this weekend. NIE is crazy. Tons of readings and assignments. What to do? I'm stuck in a madhouse for a year. And I really think they're crazy to squeeze 2 year's curriculum into 1 year, just because we're graduates. I don't know if I should feel flattered or annoyed.

Kah Shien: I can't wait to see you!
Phoebe: I can't wait for Friday!

P/S: It does feel kinda weird not to see you playing game on my laptop while I'm studying.


A chance to miss.

I'm fine

Is it possible for couples to quarrel because they care too much about each other and end up with misunderstandings?

I told you that everything I do, your interest is my top priority. Apparently, it's the same for you. I know you just want to please me and make me happy.

I really appreciate that. Thank you.

It's funny how we always have clashes because I want to do things for you and you want to do things for me.

Let's improve on that, shall we?

The Month of August

I've tuned back to studying mode, which is great. I've been reading my readings (I'm still behind though) and taking down notes religiously during classes. But guess what? I decided not to go for a lecture this morning and now I'm contemplating to not go school for the whole day. Haha. Hey, it's only natural when you have 5 hours of break between the first and the next class and you know that you can use the 5 hours to do more productive things at home (like blogging and swimming) rather than rot in the library and canteen. I'll catch up with the readings later. :P

Ok, I've a resolution for the month: watch my weight. I'm really getting fat. REALLY. Damn.

That's like my resolution for...ever.

And I'm pressurised because my boyfriend exercises twice a day! Well, he eats more than me, so that's a comfort, but still...!!! I'm gonna be an exercise freak soon.

Ok, I'm done with the fats part. Something(s) came to my mind while I was doing my laps just now. I was thinking about my skeletons in the closet. I was also thinking about things that one can only wonder and never find the answers to. See, that's why I love swimming. It makes me conjure up thoughts that are quite redundant. Sometimes, I do think too much.



It's been peaceful.

What's Up

Nothing's up, really. I just didn't know what to put as the title, again. Haha. This post is gonna be very random, so expect some mess.

I'm happy that the fuel prices have been going down. Keep it up! :D

Have I told you that I love the rain? Well, I do and add to the fact that I've been very free this week, my mood has been good. :) I don't have to worry about my car being dirty and that I've to clean it soon. The rain takes care of it! There's a downside though: The poor boyfriend has to brave the rain each time he rides. Poor thing.

My timetable is finally out. Just yesterday afternoon, I was annoyed by the efficiency level of NIE and maybe they heard me cursing, the timetable was out at 11pm last night. AND it sucks to the core. Have you ever had classes from 8.30 a.m. till 7.30/ 8.30 p.m. before? Well, I hadn't and I'm gonna have a taste of it soon. Let's just hope I don't get too grumpy.

I realised that I really don't have much patience. My tolerance level towards certain things is really low (e.g. my mum) and I know how nasty I can be. I'll try to change. :)

I've been running, in order to be able to last longer on the Nike+ Human Race. My thighs are aching but my tummy is still bulging. I shall strive on!



Don't worry, it's mutual and it's not stopping anytime soon.

3rd Day

Since Day 1, I've been late everyday. Fashionably late, some may say, or rather, I'm always late. No, I don't plan to be late, it's just that I always underestimate the traffic and overestimate my driving speed at the same time. Especially today. It was raining cats and dogs, and I could barely see through my windscreen. BUT because I'm in a rush, I was driving at 110km/h. Not something to be proud of, I know, but that's what you do when you know you're gonna be late (again). Right?

As I expected, I don't see any potential friends looming around. Just a few nice coursemates whom I know can't be really bothered to mix around in school too. Like me, they're only hoping to have some acquaintances to guide each other with, to survive this 1 year. Well, that's what I think. I could be wrong. Hmmm.

I'm preparing myself to get back to 'study' mode. I really think this 1 year is gonna be annoyingly hectic. Even before I start my first lecture, the test dates are already announced. And some of my classes end at 7.30 p.m. WTH.

Lastly, I'm re-assembling my pencil case; deciding which stationery to put inside. When was the last time you had one? :)

P/S: St James sent me an sms today which says that my bottle is expiring in 12 days. If you're interested in free liquor, let's go.



Tame me.

Farewell

My last day at FTPPS was very touching indeed. Tears (from me) and many well wishes. The children were so sweet! As I walked out of the gate, I was filled with sadness but also anticipation. I have become so attached to the school, especially to my close group of colleagues. Missing them already. Sigh.

I'll be starting at NIE on Monday. I predict that my days there are gonna be somewhat similar to my NUS days; I can't be bothered to make friends. I'm satisfied with what I have already. :)

Jingpey: Hurry go organise our next outing! Muackz!



Communication and understanding do the deed.

Doubts

There's something about what my colleague said this morning that's making me think.

I want to pour my thoughts into this space badly, but I can't.

I recognise the fear.



Do you think?

Still Good

We've not been very lovey-dovey these days but I'd say that all's still good. Right? :)

I believe in the learning process and as time goes by, we will get stronger.

That's my faith in us.



How do I measure up?

Uh Oh

Ever since school resumed, I've been only involved in athletics, with the occassional relief classes. As time goes by, I'm slacking more and more. It's been 2 weeks (or more than a month if u include the June holidays) and it's starting to get quite meaningless. I do enjoy my current job scope, just that, I can feel myself getting more and more lazy. And I don't like it.



Days without incident: 2 days

PCD - When I Grow Up

I miss my bimbotic moments with Phoebe (don't deny it, we were really quite bimbotic), especially after meeting her last night, briefly. You see, it's always like this. After every meet up, I'll always miss her more, but our current lives disallow us to spend as much time as before.

I love you, babe!

There are smart bimbos in this world too, and I'm one of them. :P

The Second Half of the Year

I know I've said this umpteen times but I'm still gonna say it again - TIME FLIES.

My first half of the year was very enjoyable and fulfilling. I became attached to my job and to a certain Mister Goh. I learnt new things and re-confirmed what I've already learnt about life. Those brief 6 months have made me grown just that little bit more. How was your first half of 2008? :)

I look forward to many things yet I wish that many things could stay the same. I anticipate the excitement yet I'm afraid of change. Contradiction again.

However, whatever, regardless of how your first half of the year was, you now have the power to make the rest of the year a nice one. Work it.



Intertwined. Good?

The Best Damn Thing

Avril Lavigne is one talented girl.

Well, I've finally uploaded my Taipei pics. As usual, I look pretty horrifying in some; I don't edit my photos at all (yea partly because it's too much of a hassle) and you get me au naturel. I realised that my looks have changed a little...I look more haggard now. Eew. This is what aging does to you. Now I know why people (basically women) religiously slap on anti-aging creams regardless of the ridiculous price. My girls, will we become one of them? *shudder*

I was planning to take afternoon nap today since I only slept 5 hours last night. BUT! I drank coffee in the morning and now I can't sleep. I should wash my car already but I'm feeling lazy. The price of petrol has gone up again. Argh! Plus there's gonna be an increase in the ERP rates. Goodness! I think we all should just learn from China -> ride bicycle. It'll support the government's healthy lifestyle campaign too.

Days without incident: ~28 days.

Light and Breezy

In school, I no longer have a form class; which means I have much lesser things to do all the way until I leave for NIE; which means the probability of me staying back until 6 p.m is drastically reduced. Hehehe.

But I do miss them. I miss screaming at them and feeling all drained out at the end of the day. I miss their nonsense and creativity. I miss their sweetness.

Anyhow, I AM looking forward to NIE. There are many different feedbacks though. Some say it's the honeymoon period of my career, yet some say NIE is hell. We shall see. :P



Let's keep it up.

Back!

I just spent 2 hours re-arranging my wardrobe; I need space for my Taipei buys.

Taipei was fun! An ultimate shopping experience! I'm not really in the mood to blog and I don't have a knack for describing things, so please click on the link 'Jingpey' if you guys wanna hear about it. Heh. Photos will be up soon. :)



My face is really heart-shaped, even though it looks round. Don't laugh.

Prior to Taipei

I realised I have been missing in action for a week, which shouldn't be the case since now I'm on holidays and I should have lotsa time. But you see, blogging has become somewhat obligatory. If not for the fact that I don't want this space to become 'stale', I can actually not blog for a looooong time, which is not a bad thing because this shows that I'm happy. :D Well, not that whenever I blog it means that I'm unhappy but when I'm bothered, this space will be my vent.

And so, what have I been occupying myself with? Honestly, I don't really know. Time seems to pass just as quickly as when I've lotsa work to do. I spend most of my morning sleeping, afternoon television and computer (or out), evenings with the boyfriend. Fabulous life! Hehe.

A pity is, this is ending soon. School is starting in less than 2 weeks and I've to start doing my 'homework' already. Even before school reopens, I'm already working...from home. I'm planning to finish whatever work I have before I go to Taipei. Possible? Hmmm.

Anyway, I'm excited! This is the first time I'm going shopping overseas with a bunch of girls and they're well known to be spenders! Gosh. Let's just hope I don't spend unnecessarily. But again, when girls shop, what is deemed as necessary and what is not? Hahaha. :P



"You just have to get your way." - you allow me to. Muack!

Happy Birthday!

First, let me thank all of you who were present last night. Hope you guys enjoyed yourselves as much as I did! Muackz!

I had never been as 'gone' as last night. I remember a few years back when I got drunk with Phoebe and Kah Shien, I could still walk properly and shower before going to bed. Last night was a classic. I couldn't even open my eyes. I lost count how many times I vomitted. And listen to this: I went straight to bed after clubbing for the first time in my life! It's not that I didn't wanna shower, but I really had no strength to do so. I was unbelievably, hopelessly, utterly 'gone'. Luckily, I have you to take care of me. Thank you. :) Thanks for staying all the way even though you weren't feeling well and gotta work at 7.30 in the morning. Touched.

I will upload the pics onto my multiply. Soon. Including the 'so glam' photos that my bunch of lovely friends took of me when I was barely conscious. Laugh your heart out. :D



I feel blessed to have all of you.

Super migraine

I just had a super intense migraine at the left side of my head. It's a very hard throbbing, as though someone is hammering my head full force. I had never experienced such sharp pain in my head before. Scary.

I think I should go for full body check up soon.

Prior to my birthday!

I'm all excited about my celebration tomorrow! :D

Updates soon!

Prior to the diving trip

I'm all excited about it! I'm 85% sure that I'm gonna survive the trip now. I just have to remember to breathe.

I know how worried my parents are but they're acting cool about it. I'm touched and guilty at the same time. All the more I have to come back safely. :)

Well, this also marks the first overseas trip we're having together. Yuni, be nice.

I know you guys already know this, but let me just say it again. I LOVE YOU, PEOPLE!
The Very Important People in my life (if you don't already know that you are that important to me): Hia Si Ying, Tan Kah Shien, Frances Lee, Chan Lenny, Goh Mia Seng. I would be lost without you.

Yeah, just in case. Just so you know.



Paranoia

Feeling Good

I've stuck to my plan of exercising everyday until my diving trip and I'm currently having quite firm arms, legs and tummy. Hehe.

I'm a little irritated by my laptop. I used to be able to click on something by tapping on my mouse board but now I've to press hard on the button to be able to click (if you know what I'm talking about). I don't think it's spoilt, I think the function has been turned off somehow but I've no idea how to turn it back on. Do any of you know?

And guess what? The stupid blogger has its 'sign in' icons (those at the top right hand and left hand corner) in Chinese. Is it my computer or is it blogger? Irritating.

But I'm still feeling good! 'Cos I'm gonna meet the ogre in less than 3 hours, after being separated for 5 days. Haha. I sure hope that there won't be any last minute changes; he's quite indispensable in his work. *Hope*

The oil prices. At this rate, drivers like me are going to just park our cars at home and take the public transport. Either that or eat bread for 3 meals in order to afford the petrol. Seriously.



Turning 24. Goodness.

Blogging

I'm trying to adjust back to sleeping late since the holidays are here. Not too bad, it's getting later by the day. Ha.

Okay, this is going to be a very boring and crappy post if I continue. So I shan't.

Good night, darlings.

:)

Impressive

It's the start of my June holidays! :D I still have to go back to school this week though, to clock the hours and to hold compulsory supplementary lessons. 8am - 1pm. But I'm officially de-stressed! Hooray!

I'm proud to say that I've been exercising (yesterday and today). I'm planning to exercise tomorrow, the day after and the day day after as well. My plan is to try to get back to my drop-dead figure before I go for my diving trip (do not roll your eyes yet), so that my boyfriend can drool and his friends can be envious. Not that I'm in a bad state now, but my tummy used to be firmer and flatter. Oh, there's a downside though. My boobs. I don't mind their size now, even though they're still considered small compared to yours (you know who you are). LOL. Ok, you may roll your eyes now.

Anyway, I went shopping on my own today! You know the difference between 'shopping alone while waiting for someone' and 'really shopping alone'? Well, today I just decided to drive to Orchard and shop by myself! Hehe, that's another thing to be proud of. :p

After some thought (and some discussion), I think I'll survive my diving trip after all. Yuni the Great, leh. What do you expect? Hahaha.



I won't disappoint you.

Fear

Let me digress a while before telling you the real thing: Damn. My appeal was rejected. Another $50 to be added to Singapore's revenue. Double damn.

My main concern: As you all know, I'm going for my virgin dive next friday. I had my second (and supposedly last) pool session last night and it was horrible. You know how people say, when things go wrong, blame yourself, not others. I found out last night that I could easily lose my life during that trip and I would not have anyone to blame but myself. The drills that I'm supposed to master aren't difficult at all. But for some reason or other, I screwed up. Big time. I did a fatal move not once, not twice, but thrice. I can say that it's basic instinct but really, it's no excuse. I knew I should never do that. What can I say? My incompetencies. Maybe it's true. My attitude towards learning this is wrong from the start. I wasn't serious and treated it as a game. I knew he'll be my buddy and I'd be safe in his hands. In actual fact, he can only look out for me this much, and if anything happens, I've to save myself. It's my responsibility.

So now, I'm going (have to) for a third pool session. Hopefully, by then, my fear and anxiety would have been overcome by excitement and anticipation.

People, pray for me.



The price.

My lack of maturity...

...aka childishness.

I don't even know where to start recording this stupid event of mine. And let me tell you......it's REALLY stupid.

(Warning: The following paragraph has been typed out in a very long-winded way. You are advised to read it only when you really has nothing better to do and you need my stupidity to entertain you.)

I knew beforehand that he's gonna work on Vesak Day and I am okay with that. I've my workout to catch up with anyway. I can slack and spend some me-time. I can even do some bonding with my parents! Then, I got to know (from him) that he can actually not work tomorrow, provided that he can bear to break his word in front of his boss. So, of course, as the responsible and hardworking man he is, he quickly dismissed that thought and he will go to work. Unfortunately, my brain has registered the idea that he can actually not go to work if he wants to. It went like, 'Ding ding ding! Yay!'. And it refused to let go of the idea even after my boyfriend has patiently explained why he could not not go to work tomorrow after all. I let my emotions got the better of me and turned swiftly to be the girlfriend from hell. You see, I understood and I know that going to work is the right thing to do. But the he-can-don't-work idea just got stuck in my brain and I refused to accept the fact that logically, he couldn't, not that he didn't want to, and I ended up sulking for the rest of the night.

And I left the poor man feeling sad and helpless.

It was so totally unnecessary. Why was I acting so difficult? Why couldn't I just back down, right? I am too damn headstrong. I was (am) too spoilt and I just want to get my way. I was pushing it to the limit.

Thank goodness, he managed to 'shield' (he said) himself from my nonsense and counter attack. He managed to cut short my sulking time. Otherwise, I'd still be sulking now. Hee.

Moral of the story: Deal with a prrrroblem child by giving her a problem.



Are you sure about me?

Funny Wednesday

I think I'm going to be sooo fat! I just ate a huge slice of delicious chocolate cake and a bar of Cadbury Boost.

I think my boyfriend's head needs to be installed something called 'The Yuni Radar'. If he's on the line with me and he happens to get called for work, he tends to forget that I'm still waiting on the line and I'll just be hanging on the line until I decide for myself that I should hang up. And he doesn't call back. Thus, 'The Yuni Radar' can help him to remember that there's a gonna-be-upset-if-you-don't-call-her-back girlfriend and save him from trouble. I just don't like things left hanging halfway; we hadn't said goodbye yet. He can just call back and tell me that he's busy and we'll talk later, bye-bye. And I'll be happy. I know I can be real weird at times, but to me, that is an 'ending' and also a form of courtesy.

Just when I thought that I can be in a state of relaxed mood from this week onwards, the contact time today brought back the stress level. Work is really never-ending.

Sleeping seems so enjoyable during weekdays.

The Real Me?

We were supposed to go to the zoo today with 2 other friends but it was cancelled. I slept at about 4am last night and at 9am my eyes were wide open already. No matter how hard I try, I just couldn't go back to dreamland. It gets quite frustrating sometimes, you know? Especially when your man beside you is fast asleep and you know he won't be awake till at least 12 noon and that is provided that I manage to wake him up. So, in the meantime, I have to fully utilise my self-entertainment skills.

After lying in bed for what seemed like hours, I finally gave up going back to sleep and decided to surf the net. Pathetically, there is nothing much for me to do online and I resorted to taking personality tests. Here's what I've found out about myself from several tests.

Test A- The Real You

1. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
2. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
3. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
4. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Test B - What type of personality do you have?

You are self-centered. People around you get tired of trying to please you all the time. You don't care how others feel and everything has to be done your way - this is why you don't have very many friends. Deep down, however, the real you is quite a nice person, and when you like someone, you can be very sincere. So try to think less about yourself and you will eventually be a more popular person.

*ouch* Am I really that bad?

Test C - Your Hidden Talent

You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

In other words, I should just mind my own business. LOL
And fyi, if I were taller, I would really go for SIA or modelling.

Test D - Future

1. Your future friend: People with mature and strong character attract you. Your close friends are usually a tigress or a tomboy. (I can only think of Phoebe as the tigress. All my friends are quite lady-like and gentle. I think.)
   
2. Your travel plan: You will travel to exotic countries like Tibet, India, Egypt. You enjoy visiting ancient ruins, lost woods and spending time in a hut in peaceful neighborhood. (It's true. I'm in fact Lara Croft at heart.)
   
3. Your future financial status: You are very good at saving and sometimes you are even stingy. The reason you want your teeth to grow longer is because when you can't eat, you can save even more on food. Once your money is deposited in the bank, there's no way that you will withdraw it out just to spend on luxuries. (In this question, you are asked to choose if you'd prefer your teeth or nose to grow longer and longer. I chose teeth because I thought I could simply saw it off when it gets in the way but I can't do anything to my ever-growing nose! Right?)
   
4. The last period of your life: You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around. (Who wants to be a lonely old lady???)

Test E - Get To Know Yourself Better

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


I don't sound so bad after all, do I? :)

A Fruitful Saturday

The time now is 1.44pm as shown on my laptop. I woke up at 7 plus (my auto body alarm, as usual), sent my boyfriend to Eunos for his driving lesson, bought breakfast for my parents, had a very heavy breakfast (Lenny, I bought bee hoon for myself! It's not the white colour plain one, it's the brown colour one and I added vege plus dou fu pi. Heehee), bought and read The Straits Times (ages since I read one), watched tv for the rest of the morning, caught the last episode of a HK drama again (I really wonder why I always manage to do that), got nagged a little by mum, felt that it's time for me to shower and I just showered. And I'm sweet-smelling now. LOL.

So, I don't have any 'homework' and I can totally enjoy this weekend! Yippie! Now that the school term is ending, I think and I hope that the next few weeks can be nice, nice and nice! I foresee that my marking will be much reduced and I can go home earlier! Double yay! :D

Honestly, I miss clubbing. I miss dancing. Not that I miss the kinda life I had 4-5 years ago, but now that I look back, it seemed so much more fun and carefree. I think this just proves to me once again, that I've grown. And changed. We all have. For me, I think of the bigger picture now. The word 'fun' has a different meaning and I no longer yearn for it as much. This isn't a very good sign, right? Mid-twenties syndrome!! HELP~!

OK, I still have more than half of my Saturday to spend and I still don't know how I wanna spend it. My boyfriend is at home, hopefully he's finished doing his household chores as he had planned before getting glued onto his computer screen. Maybe it's time to go over and annoy him. Haha.

Oh before I forget! There's something I wanna complain! I got a $50 summon from parking at his house. We didn't know that his carpark's coupon parking is only till 10.30pm, which means parking overnight is strictly reserved for season parking holders. So, just in case some of you aren't aware of this rule, BEWARE! There are many ways that you can accidentally contribute to Singapore's revenue.



I love it when you smile.

A Nice Day!

Since last night, I've been in a bouncy mood because I know what kinda Wednesday I'll be having. After working so hard for the past few weeks, today is finally a relaxed day. No marking, no contact time and no more tuition (for at least 1 week), and I'm home at 3pm! When's the last time I did that?? *grins*

Just a quick update. Previously, I mentioned that I wanna watch that movie and I can't catch it right? Well, guess what? I caught it! 'The Other Boleyn Girl'! It was given to me as a surprise. :D

So, what are you guys planning for the June holidays? Oops! Sorry, I forgot. Not everyone has June holidays like moi. LOL. Yuni is going diving and Taipei! The air tickets and hotel for Taiwan alone cost me $900+, and I've no idea how much I wanna spend there, plus my diving trip should cost bout $500, which means, I'm gonna be soooooooooooooooo broke!!

To my dearest Frances and Phoebe, I'm so sorry! I've been really busy! Once school is no longer such a mad rush, we'll meet up k! Miss ya, girls! Muack!



I would never jeopardize the best thing that I have. Not intentionally.

Ramblings

My boyfriend just spent 30 minutes in the toilet playing his PSP. LOL. And he's finally out.

I just spent another hectic day in school, left for home at 5.30pm, knowing that there are more things waiting to be completed. Deadlines are looming! I don't mind staying late in school to finish up my stuffs, but I really mind that I have too little time with the kids. Don't get me wrong. I'm not obsessed with them or anything, but I have so much more to teach and go through with them before their exams, that I'd rather that school hours are extended to 3pm. For the time being, of course. I'm happy with the usual school hours, before this week. :P

Went NTUC just now and spent $50, mainly on food. Heh. I simply love grocery shopping! And I loooove to look at the food labels to see which brand is the healthiest. When I found the one with the, hmmm for EXAMPLE (before you people start shouting,"Hey! You count your calories!") the least amount of calories per serving, I feel a sense of achievement. Hahaha.

Life's simple pleasures.

And have I told you that he can be really hilarious at times? Thank you, for making me laugh that much today.

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

10 smiley faces.

P/S: While randomly surfing the net just now, I saw this movie 'The Other Boleyn Girl', read the synopsis, and decided that it's gonna be a movie that I AM SO GOING TO WATCH. Sadly, the stupid GV is only screening it on Tuesday, 29 March. Oh man.



pohbem child~

Attitude

I came across a phrase while checking my email:

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass. It's about learning to dance in the rain.

It struck me and really, I believe that attitude is everything. It shapes how you think, how you react to certain things and eventually, what you turn out to be as a person.

Agree?

Good morning!

It's a Saturday and I couldn't sleep past 7.30am. Well, there's nothing new 'bout that and it's a good thing that I woke up early; I had time to trim my brows. They were becoming too bushy to be tolerated. And ya know what? I looked out of my window and take in the morning scenery. The light blue sky, sun rays shining through the trees and the cars passing by. It's been a long time since I did that and it's great! I AM such a morning person. Heh.

Things on my mind :
1) I'm going to MOE to sign the contract today. 4 years. Am I up to it? I'd better be. Unless I think I'm too rich and I wish to donate $40k to the government.

2) I need to change some of me. Let's start with my temper. It's not that I'm bad-tempered or anything, but once I'm tired, I get frustrated easily and I flare up. Unfortunately, I seldom realise it as it's become some kinda habit. In short, my patience is reduced to a third of its usual capacity. And that is bad. The people closest to me tend to be the ones that get it. :(

3) MARKINGS. I brought home 2 stacks of books and 1 huge pile of worksheets to be completed this weekend. Let's finish it today so at least I can have my Sunday free.



Sweetness.

How Am I

I'm good! Nothing has come as close as this before and it's a great feeling! :D

But this has resulted in Ms Chan having less passion for her job (for the time being she hopes), as she's enjoying so much of the after-work activities.

So you see, there's not much going on in my life recently; you guys won't be missing out anything even if I don't update this blog for months. Haha.



Though I would like to grow old with you, I don't think I wanna grow fat with you.

Lucky You

You = Lenny

How lucky you are to be away from our crazy parents and their nonsense.

How unfortunate I am to be at home to bear the brunt of their we're-bored-so-let's-find-fault-with-juju kinda attack.

How unconvincing they are whenever they say they want the best for me. They had never spared a thought for me before.

How frustrating it can become when you are trying to communicate with people from another world, ironically, the hands that brought you up.

How amusing it is to see myself being reduced to the wailing child that I thought had disappeared, trying to get my point across while hurting like hell inside 'cos you want them to understand your point so badly and stop being misunderstood.

How ugly I look right now.



This is when I wish someone can just take me away.
If they were any historical figures, they could be Hitler and Stalin.

A Brief One

I think it's getting better and better. To the close ones out there, I believe I've updated you verbally. Otherwise, to those whom I have not had the time to do so, please wait for the juicy updates when we meet up. :)

Btw, my exercise routine has not quite resumed....so far.

BUT! I weighed myself the other day and I seemed to have dropped 1 kg, so perhaps the other day, it was water retention. Yea, right.

Well, at least I'm still able to fit into all my clothes. AND...I'm not the only one turning fat. HAHA



I'm lovin' it.

Bad Tuesday

Normally people have black Mondays. I'm having a lousy Tuesday. 3 more hours to go. Hope I wake up feeling better tomorrow.

Maybe I'm just sad that I've put on weight. HA. If only my brain is so simple.

I think I'm just tired. Zzzz



I think it's you.

Detox Week

I am officially 2 kg heavier. DAMN.

I am so gonna resume my exercise routine, despite the obstacles. Nothing will stop me from going back to 46kg.

*Determination*

Plenty of fruits, vegetables and water.

Yeah baby.

Updates

I've been busy with school as usual, plus the boyfriend.

For the past 2 weeks, I'd been spending lots of extra time with my kids due to the swimming lessons. When they're in the classroom, I'm their teacher. When we're outside, I become their 2nd mum. I can see that they've become attached to me, and I start to worry about how they're gonna cope with the new teacher when I leave. I hope their results won't be affected by the change. The selfish me secretly hope that they'll not like the new teacher as much as they like me. Ha!

The boyfriend. Everything's well and everything's what they're supposed to be, if not better. The little (sometimes not so little) squabbles that we have, turned out to be fruitful learning journeys for us. As we are approaching our 3rd month, I can say that I've gotten used to having him around, knowingly or unknowingly irritating me. :) But I guess that's where the fun part lies. Muack!

That's all for now, folks. I'm going swimming. It's horribly humid now and I'm turning horribly fat. H O R R I B L E. But I shall not let what SY said come true. I SHALL NOT! :P



My life is brilliant. How long will it last? I'm betting on forever.

:)

I realised that I am happy. Most of the time, anyway. :)

No complaints this time round.

Communication

My stupid laptop have to breakdown at this time. I don't know what's wrong with it. I can't even start Windows properly. F****** irritating! Especially at this time when I need my computer the most. Now I'm using my sis's tiny laptop again. Argh! Better than nothing.

communication – noun
the imparting or interchange of thoughts, opinions, or information by speech, writing, or signs.

misunderstanding – noun
1. failure to understand correctly; mistake as to meaning or intent.
2. a disagreement or quarrel.

I wish you can see my words the way I truly mean it. But more often than not, they would be mistaken, and in the bad way. The same goes for you. We have alot to learn, don't we?


I'm hoping.

The Familiarity

It's not something new. I should've learnt the lesson. But why do I keep doing that?

There must be something missing from my brain. I'm so afraid. Will I screw things up again? Please don't.

I can't afford to.



Hurting myself and the people I care about seems to be my forte.

It's Friday

I am supposed to have a 1 week holiday. Okay, I do have a 1 week holiday, so how come it feels like only 3 days? It's Friday already!!! :(

I woke up at 8 plus this morning, stoned for a while, did some work, took a nap, eat and now Friday is ending!! Can time pass any faster? :(

To another level

Warning: The whole of this post is gonna be about him.

He's been really, really busy these few weeks, all thanks to that JI idiot. Anyway, all JI members are idiots so what difference does it make?

I hope I don't get killed by saying that sentence. I mean, seriously, idiots as they may be, they might read blogs right! Then, maybe my IP address would be tracked down and Bang! I'm dead.

Okok, enough crap. Back to him. Yes, so he's been super busy. The frequency of our meetings has been reduced drastically, including phone calls. But no, that's not the point of this post.

The point is, I think this is it. And I think he thinks this is it too. What I mean by 'this is it' is not in the bad way if some of you are thinking along that line. I just didn't wanna use 'the one'. Ha.

He made me a set of his house keys. I was like,"Uh, don't want la. What if I steal your things?" Ha ha. What a lame way to respond to such a big thing. I was shocked and pleased at the same time. I didn't think it was necessary. I thought even if it were to happen, it wouldn't be so soon. At least a few more months, maybe? Anyhow, thank you for trusting me. :)

Yesterday, we were supposed to spend quality time together since it's his off day for the week. But because he was soooo tired, I went shopping on my own while he slept. I didn't want to wake him up even though he told me to. I decided to let him sleep more, instead of going all over the island with me (I had to run some errands and he wanted to accompany me). So, while on the train (Pasir Ris to City Hall as my car was being serviced), I realised that he has, inevitably, claimed a permanent slot in my heart. Irritating as he may be sometimes, I love this guy.

*shy*

By the way, we caught Horton last night. 'An imaginative elephant named Horton hears a faint cry for help coming from a tiny speck of dust floating through the air. Horton suspects there may be life on that speck and despite a surrounding community which thinks he has lost his mind, he is determined to save the tiny particle.' If this sounds interesting to you, then go catch it.



Let him be the one.

Spendthrift

Maybe it's because I suddenly feel rich with the additional bonus I received this month. Or maybe it's because I haven't been really spending money for the past months (well, losing money on the mahjong table doesn't really count) and so I gotta spend more to feel balanced. Oh my, listen to me! I actually have to spend money to feel balanced. Goodness. It's okay if I really feel good after spending money, but the thing is, I don't. Instead, I feel the pinch and I question if those stuffs are really necessary after I spent the money. I don't even really like one blouse which costs $105. I must be mad. In case you're wondering just how much this woman has spent, it's $500 in 3 days.

So you see, being busy ain't such a bad thing after all. At least my expenditure can be curbed.

Living Life

Finally.... *Inhale*

This is finally a break from everything. I'm getting part of the old-self back. Since Friday, my brain has not been stressed to finish up the work that's at the back of my head. I know I'll have time to finish it before school starts. In the meantime, let me enjoy the relaxed state my body is in, and also treasure whatever time he can spend with me. For as long as that idiot who ran away isn't caught yet, he is activated, i.e. super busy plus in camp.

And so, when I'm not outside, I've been catching up on my sleep, eating better and healthier food (thanks to mummy dearest) and spending lots of me-time. I'm feeling happy and my temper has improved. That made me come to a conclusion (as if we don't already know that): I get cranky when I'm busy and stressed. Like, real cranky. The slightest thing triggers me. I hereby apologise to those who got a taste of my crankiness for the past weeksss. "Sorry" :)

Meanwhile, I shall continue enjoying life as much as I can this week. I'll update the interesting and not-so-interesting stuffs, when I feel like it. Ha!

KS : I miss you!!
Oink : I miss you!!
Silvia : I miss you!!



Everything in its time.

The Constant

'Change is the only constant.' I first heard about this 8 years ago. At that time, I couldn't make sense of it, or rather, I didn't think the sentence held much truth in it. I couldn't see that things that we thought would never change, that would stay the same irregardless, would eventually change. I've seen the realities now. I'm starting to be doubtful of everything, including myself.

And that's when faith comes in. I'm contradicting again, ain't I?

It surprises me all the time, to realise that I'm no longer the Yuni I've known myself to be. All the valuable life lessons that I've learnt through time...they have changed the way I think, my needs and my expectations. I compare and contrast. I treat myself as a study object and analyse the change. I ended up finding out more about myself, which is not a bad thing actually. The downside is, I get to confirm things that I would rather keep on denying.



Meant to be.

My 2008 Resolution

Last night, after 2 rounds of mahjong, I decided that I shall not play that game on my own anymore. Being headstrong and overestimating myself had gotten me more withdrawals from my bank account than before. The money could've been better spent. And I have not mentioned the 2 parking tickets which I got last week. Bleah.

MY weekend

My folks are out of town. My boyfriend's stuck in camp. The house is mine, and the weekend is MINE!! Yippie! Hahaha. Oh just in case he comes across this and before he can start to think that I enjoy his absence, here goes: I miss you, bb!

And so, my weekend has been great so far. Slept for 7 hours last night before waking up to a cool and peaceful morning. Turned on the tele, marked some worksheets and did some workout. I feel invigorated already! :)

I'd better go shower before SY kills me. I'm supposed to meet them after lunch and at this rate I can probably meet them for dinner.



Absence really makes the heart grows fonder.

Week 9

It's the ninth week of school...meaning Term 1 is gonna end next week and my March holidays is just around the corner. I don't know if there's any reason to be looking forward to it because I know that once the 1 week holiday is over, there'll be even more to do. Not that I'm complaining but I seriously think that teachers work ALOT, in the expense of their own health. Proof: my colleague was sneezing away the whole afternoon, wrapped herself in such thick jacket that I thought she was going to climb Mt Everest, and still refused to see a doctor and rest at home. Why? 1) She really has alot to do and can't afford to take the time off. 2) She thinks she is superwoman and regards her body as invincible. 3) Her students are her main concern and she disregards everything else. And so, despite her condition, she works 11 hours everyday. Seriously, I can't think of any other job that I would willingly stay back to do OT. Alright, I know it's high time that I stop bitching bout my work. Bleah.

Guess what? Tonight is one of the rare nights that I can really sit down and rest at home. No 'homework', no extra commitment, just chilling out at home with my folks eating packet rice in front of the tele. It is quite an enjoyment, though I'm getting used to seeing him everyday. It all boils down to readjustment, if you know what I mean.

And since now is one of the rare moments where I can blog properly, let's blog more. I didn't feel like blogging initially, maybe 'cos I found out that some bloggers have stopped blogging and that made me lazy and I don't see the purpose when my life has been revolving around the same things. Nothing interesting. Or maybe it's because all's well and I don't have any complaints to post up. Well, I can't say exactly that everything's perfect now. We do have our arguments...some are really minor while others are quite scary. But we always manage to talk things through, which is the best part. It should be fine. Ha.

This paragraph is to my dear sister. I miss you!!! Have you found an apartment? Talk to you online soon, ya? Please take good care. Muack!



Contradiction seems to be an innate characteristic in me.

WORK*3

Nowadays I seem to be perpetually tired. I never seem to have enough rest. As I am typing now, I'm wondering if that's the case, why am I still up instead of retreating to my I-should-spend-more-time-on-but-no-chance-to bed. I decided that I should update this space here so that people who pop by here often, aka friends who are concerned about me, will know what's going on in my life.

Work has been hectic beyond imagination. I used to be puzzled why there is a lack of teachers when the pay is quite good and the job gives you a sense of satisfaction that no others can provide (sometimes). Now the answer is right in front of me. We're simply overworked, underpaid, and under-appreciated. Teachers not only teach children. We do ALOT, and let me stress that again , A L O T of other things that is really time-consuming.

Nevertheless, I like this job. Just hoping that it doesn't kill me eventually.



You have been the highlight of my days.

The Chinese New Year Holiday

I have been a sleep-deprived but a happy girl recently. This super long weekend is a much needed break to rejuvenate my soul and get ready to work hard again by Monday. :D

February. A turning point for our relationship. I don't think I'll be irritated as easily as before. I think I'm going to find more things that I like and less things that I don't like about him. It's always so subtle. Sometimes, it really just happens overnight.

So, how's my CNY so far? It's been almost the same every year, visiting and collecting ang baos. The only difference is this year I went to different houses and saw different faces, and felt totally comfortable. You know how it is when you just know that something is right? :)

And this shall be the first picture on my blog.





Let's hope I don't lose my footing.

Shocked

I got a Tiffany & Co. bracelet. Genuine TIFFANY! Goodness! Isn't it too much for a 1st month gift?

I almost fainted. And knowing how much it costs just makes me more flabbergasted.

It's double of what I thought.

A song

When I first heard this song 4 months ago, it sounded so heartbreaking to me that I could physically feel the pain. I thought it wouldn't/shouldn't cause me anymore heartache when I listen to it now...but I was wrong. Maybe it's just the song. Maybe not.

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover




Because I've loved and lost.

Exhaustion

I've been down with flu. Continuous sneezing, watery eyes and peeling skin around my nose. It's no wonder though. What do you expect when your body is having an average of 6 hours of sleep every night, with terrifying workload in the day? Of course, needless to say, plus my other commitments. :P

I'm so looking forward to the CNY holidays. For the first time in my life, I fully understood the importance of a 'getaway'.

Space

I am in high spirits today, despite the fact that I only had 3 hours of sleep last night. Reason: I'm at home on a Saturday! Seriously, when was the last time that I had the whole of Saturday to myself? I can't remember.

Time is really precious to me now. There's so much to do and too little time. I'm very tempted to lament about my work but I shan't. I have to blog as fast as I can; my dear KS is talking to me, my mum's waiting for me to go out for dinner and my brain is working at a third of its usual capacity. Those of you who, like me, frequently suffer from lack of sleep, should know how I'm feeling right now.

So, how come I am at home on Saturday? Or should the question be, how come I can be at home? Haha. He has to attend a wedding dinner tonight and I had to do some stuff at home during the day. :D Oh man. I didn't realise how much I needed a break until now. Realisation: I am a girl (woman) who needs space. Well, who doesn't?

Just 1 last thing to blog about before my brain is officially pronounced 'not in working condition' for the day: I wasn't irritated for the past 2 days. I think, finally he knows what kinda stuff he says will get on my nerves. Basically, he just needs to crap lesser.



Happiness seems closer than before.

Stretching It

I don't know what is wrong but I just got f***ing irritated again.

Am I really okay about this?

The Paradox of Our Time

Got this from an email and decided to share with you guys.
A message by George Carlin, a comedian of the 70's and 80's:
We have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways but narrower viewpoints. We spend more but have less, we buy more but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge but less judgment, more experts yet more problems, more medicine but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life, not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

And the solution is?
I don't think there is any.

Getting On

I've been trying to catch up on my sleep as best as I can. It's not quite successful. My dark circles are looming again.

Him. If only he can reduce the frequency of irritating the hell out of me. Then, maybe, everything will be perfect.



If I had my way, I'd never get over you.

Suffocated...nearly

I finally (really finally), have time to sit down and blog. I've been aware of the amount of time I've been spending outside, and it's become quite unnerving.

First, my workload ever since school has re-opened is overwhelming. Gone were the days when I can pack up and head for home by 2pm. Gone were the days when I can have a proper lunch and rest during free periods. Now, I've to grab every free period to do work and continue racing against time to try to complete my work after school. I used to be able to check my phone quite regularly last year and reply messages rather promptly. But this year, I'm so busy to the extent that I sometimes forget that I've a handphone to attend to! The meetings that have been held so far just make things worse. They take away my time for marking and at the end of each meeting, I just end up with more work to do. Damn. If not for the fact that I constantly remind myself that work is never-ending and I should just leave my work for tomorrow 'cos I do need to relax and unwind, I would've been staying in school till 7pm instead of the 5pm limit I set for myself.

Second, someone has been taking up alot of my time. This week I've not had the chance to sit in front of the tv and stone. AT ALL. I need such time for myself. I need time to do all the unimportant stuff like plucking my eyebrows, doing masks, walking around the house and disturbing my sister, listening to my mum's nagging (I must be really missing alot of personal time to be missing my mum's nagging, hmmm), etc. This cannot go on. Absolutely no. Or I'll go berserk soon. It's not really his fault but I just don't know how to turn people down. Especially when all I need to do is agree to have dinner at AMK or Bishan (which is really nice of him since he stays in Pasir Ris). Thus, next week I'm going to learn how to say 'no'.

I have to wake up in about 4 hours' time for my CCA training. Crap.



When I was with him, I realised how much you must have loved me.
Now that I'm with him, I realised how much I loved you.

Back To Work

My 5 weeks holiday has officially ended and I'm now struggling to adjust to waking up early again. My workload is piling up too rapidly for me to take my time to re-adjust; I have so much more responsibilities and duties this year as compared to the previous one. And, someone is not helping by asking me out almost everyday. But well, I enjoy the company. :)

I hope I have the time to update this blog often. But if you guys do not hear from me, it means that I'm really busy. Either with work or dating, or both. Call me. :P



I can't believe how blind I'd been.

Hello 2008!

I just reached home from spending the last hours of 2007 and the first hours of 2008 with Sy, James, Alvin and Andrew. We had bbq at the roof top of Sy's old home, Kew Green. Simply wonderful! :)

I wanted to have a last post for 2007, but I just couldn't find the time. Really. Yuni hen mang. So here I am typing the first post for 2008, at 5.30am.

Gotta catch some sleep now. HAPPY NEW YEAR!



Is it really gonna be a happy one ahead?