Post-Christmas

I caught another movie again last night. 'Elizabeth: The Golden Age'. :)

Went JB for go-karting on Thursday. The last time I went was about 8 years ago and it was in Escape. Thus, in comparison, JB's the real deal. MUCH faster. But can they make longer tracks? It gets boring after 3 laps.

Met Phoebe on Wednesday. Had fun as usual. Time always passes so quickly whenever we're together. Looking forward to our next meeting. When ah? Btw, LOVE the gift. Thanks, babe! :D



Slow down, Yuni.

So?

It's that feeling again. A foreboding. I can prevent it from happening if I want to. But I'm not the kind who like to play safe. Ask my mahjong gang and they'll tell you stories of my adventurous, heroic acts. Ask people who has crossed roads with me and they'll tell you just how many times they have pulled me to safety. I am lucky. But I know, my luck will eventually run out and I have to learn to play safe. Because if I don't, I might just get killed by my own risk-takings one day.

I have to bear in mind that some rules never change.
I have to be really careful because I've seen the ugly side.
I must be very careful because people do hurt people.
I can't afford to forget because it was too painful to be repeated.



Let me be a coward this time round.

Movies, movies

I mentioned in the previous post that I seem to be having a movie marathon. Well, here's to justify that I am having the so-called movie marathon:

• Enchanted
• The Warlords
• I Am Legend
• National Treasure: Book Of Secrets
• Alvin and the Chipmunks
• Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium
• Good Luck Chuck
• The Heartbreak Kid

That is 8 movies in less than a month! Tsk tsk. Is there really nothing else to do on dates? Okay, I didn't watch all of them on dates, just 6 of them. Oo

Which means, I'm currently left with 'The Golden Compass' and 'In the Valley of Elah' before I can 'proudly' declare that I've watched ALL of the movies which are showing right now.

Even when it's in the dark and you are enamoured by whatever's showing on the big screen, the company still matters.

Merry Christmas!

This year's somewhat different. The company and the feeling. Christmas doesn't seem as merry. Is it me, or is it you?

It's sad to realise that as one grows older, occasions like this seem to get less meaningful. It becomes 'just another day'. Where has all the fun gone to? At times like this, I look back.

It's 2.30pm and none of my friends is online. My rightful place should be on the bed too, but I'm catching a movie later so... Anyway, I can't go back to sleep even if I want to. Ask my body why. Even though it has only 5 hours of sleep the previous night (morning).

I seem to be having a movie marathon these days.

Well, Merry Christmas! Make merry!

So Small

It's so easy to get lost inside

A problem that seems so big, at the time

It's like a river that's so wide

It swallows you whole

While you're sittin round thinking about what you can't change

And worryin' about all the wrong things

Time's flying by, moving so fast

You better make it count, cause you can't get it back

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing

Is just a grain of sand

What you've been out there searchin for forever

Is in your hands

When you figure out love is all that matters after all

It sure makes everything else

Seem so small

Greenpeace

The whaling issues have been bothering me. It has evoked much anger in me and I've finally done something about it. I've just donated US$30 to the Greenpeace International, and I'm planning to do that annually. I know it is a small amount and probably insignificant to them, but at least I'm involved. :)

People, go check out the website and if you're such an environmentalist like me, do something. Words mean nothing, sometimes. http://www.greenpeace.org/international/

While I'm at this, please allow me to vent some of my anger at the Japanese. Japan catches nearly 1,000 whales in the Antarctic each year in the name of research. (Any International Whaling Commission (IWC) member is entitled to hunt whales for scientific research, but what Japan has done now far exceeds the amount allowed by the constitution.) The thing is, Japan has killed thousands of whales and they still can't provide the scientific data. Obviously they just enjoy killing whales lah... I heard that they even eat dolphin meat in Japan. What the hell?!? Can't they be more human for once?? So what if the country produce impressive talents and are leading in many aspects? I'm utterly disgusted by the things that they do. Not a surprise that they are also leading in suicide rate, huh?

*Shake head*
Thank goodness their actions have been condemned by the world.

Please stop eating shark's fin soup if you can help it. I've done it.
Please reuse, reduce and recycle.

Home Sweet Home

I was only away for 5 days and during that period, I seemed to have lost touch with the rest of the world. It's mainly because I wasn't connected to the web, didn't read or watch any news, nor do I get to listen to the radio (which is really an essential part of me). All I got everyday was non-stop chatterings from my mum and aunties, car rides punctuated with brakes and horns due to the horrible traffic, sumptuous meals and thank god for this, priceless family loving.

And so I'm home. I missed my room, my bed and even the toilet. I missed my laptop and my radio. But being the contradictive me, now I miss the non-stop chatterings, the crowd and the warmth. I miss them already.

The wedding was beautiful. :) I've uploaded pictures on the multiply. Be captivated. By moi, of course. What were you thinking? :D Alright, you may roll your eyes but really, it's not everytime that you guys can see me like that, isn't it?

Still, I thought about things. They always manage to creep into my mind.



Wondering about uncertainties leads to a myriad of unexplored possiblities.

High on caffeine

I should be sleeping now instead of staying up trying to find things to do. I've a feeling my mama is gonna wake us up at 7am, or earlier, to catch a 12pm flight (yes, she's that anxious). But I'm still so full of energy! I had Coffee Bean's regular (16oz all by myself!) latte at 10pm and this is the result. My body reacts very well to coffee. Furthermore, I've been sleeping alot, according to my standards. My standard sleeping hours do not exceed 8 usually and I do not, I repeat, DO NOT sleep after 11am usually. Therefore, I am very surprised, okay quite pleasantly, to open my eyes and after squinting to look at the clock, to realise that it's after 11am these days. Yesterday was the biggest surprise. I woke up at 12.30pm!! Why huh? Is it due to the very relaxed state I'm in? Or could it be that my body is just trying to make up for the insufficient rest when I was on work mode? I think it's just because I'm no longer on automatic body alarm which triggers at 6.30am every morning (for the time being). I think...I'm probably the only person whom I know to ponder about the reason behind waking up later than usual. Oo



James Blunt, you're capable of making a sad song sound really sad.
Chester Bennington, listening to you always reminds me of someone.

Built To Last

That refers to the friendships I have with you guys. :)

I must say that I couldn't ask for better friends to have in this time and space. I'm so thankful, and words alone are inadequate to express what I feel for you people. Mushy, huh? ;)

To be honest, that wasn't my intention. I had trouble coming up with a nice title and was listening to that song by Melee and thought, "Why not put that?" Then, I realised the title hasn't got anything to do with what I wanna say so with my incredibly intelligent brain, I came up with that to link it up. I can sooo imagine your faces now. HA!

Had a really nice 'farewell' dinner last night with the almost-complete gang. It was organised by the ever-so-gorgeous Ms Hia to gather everyone before we all leave for overseas trips. Especially important for our dear Wanjun as after last night the next time we'll be seeing her is in 2008.

So much has happened this year. Catastrophic is the word. I went through an emotional roller coaster, struggled with decisions, came up with them (right and wrong), came to terms with how things had turned out, learnt the hard way, and most significantly, I'm seeing life for the first time. I didn't know there were so much to learn, so much to see, until I went through it myself. The whole chain of events still, when I think about them, leaves me flabbergasted. It's just so...'amazing' that things turned out this way. Some twists and turns, plus a few completely unexpected 'guests' who turned up at your doorstep, altered everything. Who knew? Maybe this is what they mean when people say 'life is predestined'. Sometimes, when you look back, you realise that you really didn't have much control over what was gonna happen. Yes, fate is in your hands, but it's more of like...you know a tornado is approaching your way but there's nothing you can do to stop it or change its path. You can only 1) run and hide, and hope the tornado doesn't kill you, 2) summon all your courage and take it as it comes. Okay, I know a tornado isn't the best analogy because if a tornado really comes your way, there's no way to still be alive after being sucked in, but you get the drift, ya? So, this woman here (even though I still feel like a girl most of the time) had tried both methods and came out bruised but nonetheless, alive. :) I put to test the phrase 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger'. And people? It's goddamn true.

I believe there will be many more won't-kill-me-but-will-make-me-stronger events in the near future. Afterall, this is what adulthood is about, isn't it? I do miss the carefree childhood, the fun-infested teen life but now, I'm ready to face life's challenges. I will trip, stumble, fall and pick myself up over and over again, and each time, I'll just get stronger. :D



True to my word, this is a decent post indeed.

Miss me?

Hello people!! It's been a week ya? Miss you guys too. LOL

Chatting with ks while trying to blog at the same time...telling her all the interesting stuff that has happened to me this week. It would be quite engaging to blog it all down but I guess some are only meant for my girls. So, too bad...strictly girls' talk. We bitch about boys. :P

I'll be back with a more decent post later, or maybe tomorrow. I'm not really good at multi-tasking..so as I'm busy typing here I'm neglecting my dear ks. Well, this post is just to minimise your disappointment when you visit my blog, that at least you people have something to read for the moment.



It's not right to live by other people's expectations.

Just like a tattoo...

http://www.jordinsparks.com/popup_player?trackId=43

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do




Sometimes solutions aren't so simple...
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

My Christmas Wishlist (edited)

1) Jacky Cheung's concert - I'm worried that if I miss this world tour I might not get to see his concert anymore. I got a feeling that he's gonna announce 'tui chu jiang hu' soon.

2) Bikini - It's been on my mind since...forever! Ok, not really. I just need to replace the old one.

3) Spectacles - My current one is still good but I just want a new one.

4) Mp3 player - iPod Shuffle (or Zen Stone) is good enough. It's tiny, just like me. LOL

5) Digital camera - hmm...have not set my eyes on a particular one yet.

6) Trainers - Mum's been complaining about me using hers and making the shoelaces too tight for her feet so she gotta re-adjust each time. Before you start thinking "why is she using her mum's trainers?!", hers costs $200++, mind you.

7) Swimsuit - Speedo. It's for real swimming, unlike bikini. My current one is losing its elasticity. Come to think of it, I've been using it for a good 6 years now. Good area of investment.

8) Lasik surgery - Sponsor(s), anyone?

9) Shopping vouchers - Zara, Mango, Isetan, Tangs, Takashimaya....any is welcome. :P

10) To put 'out of sight, out of mind' into practice.


And of course, not forgetting world peace.

3rd post of the day

This just shows how free I am.
I remembered something that I wanna blog about yesterday.

I got a free 2008 organiser from SDU! So, finally, apart from the annoying newsletters they send every now and then, there IS a benefit of being an AUTOMATIC member. Well, just in case some of you are wondering, SDU stands for Social Development Unit, a place where singles are supposed to mingle (wow. it rhymes). The thing is, only graduates are automatically registered into this organisation. Other lower educated citizens are on their own. I guess this says alot about what my country is trying to achieve.

Oh well..

At least I don't have to spend my money on an organiser now. Yay!



I love freebies.

My Holiday So Far

It's about 2 weeks into my holiday. I. Am. Getting. Real. Bored.

Ok, not exactly BORED, but bored. I have to think of activities to occupy myself when none of my friends seems available (since I seem to be the only one who have the liberty of Dec hols). I spend my weekday afternoons reading, watching tv or surfing the net when I'm at home. I'm suddenly quite lost with the amount of time I have on hand...and I miss working. GOSH! DID I JUST SAY THAT?!

That makes me wonder...maybe I won't enjoy being a housewife aka tai tai as much as I thought.

Things I've done so far (with company):
1) Shopping
2) KTV
3) Movies
4) Mahjong
5) Delicious but guilty meals

Thank goodness Chan Lenny is back. Lenny, you will accompany me whenever you have nothing better to do right?? Not that you have much to do everyday, anyway. LOL

The cliche

'Beauty is only skin deep.'

But aren't we all suckers for the good-looking? Appearance matters alot. Period.



We are all shallow people.....to a certain extent.

So me...

I do crazy things at times (all the time, perhaps?). I allow my feelings to rule my head, and end up with alot of wrongs that I would like to right. There are things that I wanna re-do. Isn't that the most pathetic aspect of living? To have that much regret? To wish that things had turned out different?

But at least I realise my mistakes. And I learn from them. Now, that is important. So, this song is for all of you, who have made me who I am today, who have been listening, accommodating and forgiving. Thank you for tolerating my nonsense, and sorry for giving those nonsense. Though I'm sure the nonsense is not gonna go away anytime soon. Hahaha. Love you all! :P





Without you guys, I am nothing.

Things I'll Never Say

Check this out. She's absolutely gorgeous! Someone teach me, please? ;P

Censorship

It's really not quite possible to treat this blog as a diary when I know that people will be reading it as and when they like. I become very mindful of the effects that may arise after reading my posts. That's when censorship in my blog begins. I play around with what I genuinely want to type out in my head countless times, and more often than not, end up saying things that are not quite me but safe.

So why can't I just say whatever I like and truly feel? Self-consciousness, a preoccupation with oneself.

See, it's working again. I just backspaced a whole chunk of words. *shake head*

I'll be back with another post later. Maybe.



I love Sociology...because it's the only thing that makes sense right now.

A bona fide

I've been wanting to blog properly since 2 weeks ago but I had to organise my thoughts first, lest I say anything I don't really mean.

I don't think you know that I'm referring to you even if you're reading this. In fact, I hope you don't know that I'm referring to you: I can't help but wonder...do I really mean so little to you? I thought our friendship was something more than that. Now I think, I was just being naive. And it hurts to realise that I've been so naive all along, to have trusted you so much. I don't blame you for how things had turned out, because none of us had wanted it this way. It was unexpected, right? What hurts the most...is how you had reacted. You didn't care. Period. But do you know something? If the same happened to you, I would have been there for you. Just because.

************************************************************************************

To another you: I've seen the ugly side. Thank you very much for everything. I could never have learnt this in a better way. It was definitely a much needed lesson. Especially for a person like me.

************************************************************************************

Lastly, to you, whom I know will forever be there whenever I need you:
I'm sorry for the wrongs that I've done.
I'm sorry for all the pain that I've caused.
I'm sorry.

A penchant for it

"........But yes, that's it. He's just too bloody nice to me and I'm bored." With that Emily's eyes widen, and she claps her hands over her mouth. "Oh, shit. I can't believe I just said that."

"I can't believe you just said that either. Emily, most women I know would kill to find a man like Harry. He's kind, he's funny, he loves animals, and he adores you. I'd kill to find a man like Harry, for Christ's sake."

Emily makes a pained face. "I know this sounds terrible, but I'm sure if he was a bit more of a bastard I could fall in love with him."

"You're serious, aren't you?"

"I know, I know. It's dreadful. I am a disgusting person, but if he's ever a bit off with me, or doesn't call when he says he's going to, or I think he might be flirting with someone else, then suddenly I'm interested again."

An extract from To Have and To Hold by Jane Green.

Exhilarating

It's the second time that I've graced the treadmill this month. I used to hate it. Running used to give me painful stitches in secondary school and I only ran when I'm forced to. But due to circumstances (80% belongs to the weather), and in order to not forgo my exercise regime completely, the alternative has got to be the gym. And I must say, I'm impressed! So all those years of skipping and swimming does help. I mean, of course it does, just that I didn't know it has such an impact on my stamina until I ran. :D

Resilience

1. the power or ability to return to the original form, position, etc., after being bent, compressed, or stretched; elasticity.
2. ability to recover readily from illness, depression, adversity, or the like; buoyancy.

People amaze me. But I amaze myself most of the time.



More than enough.

A few things..

1) My hair is at a length where it's neither short nor long. It's at the length where it will make me look like Betty Boop if I don't do something about it soon.

2) I lost my thumb drive.

3) I'm sad that I lost my thumb drive.

4) My computer has ZERO songs. Yet, I'm too lazy to download everything again.

5) My wisdom tooth/teeth seem(s) to be coming out. But it's been like that for years now, so when is it really coming out. Note that it's a sentence and not a question.

6) I'm starting to like Facebook.

7) I love my job.

Yay!

Many people are coming back this month. Just by the thought of it makes me happy. *Grin* You, you, you. Can't wait! *Grin wider*

It's the last week of school (for the kids only) so it doesn't mean that my holiday starts next week. Teachers still have to go back for workshops and meetings. But yes, I'll be free. Do book in advance to avoid disappointments. Lol.



Thanks for making me a fighter.

Circles

Remember I had a post titled 'dark circles'? Well, it was referring to 2 things. The dark circles under my eyes and the dark circles in my heart. I don't know if any of you managed to figure that out. If you did, congrats. You've figured out me.

And so this time round, the 'circles' represent something too. Something more drastic. Should I just say it out?......................................Oh heck.

I admit. I'm in circles. Really circles. Many many circles. They're in my head and around me. I'm stuck. I want to get out of this. I need to escape from this. I'm struggling within. I know I'm beating myself up and I should stop it. But each time I thought I had, it comes back the next moment.

When? How? I don't know. Or maybe I know but there's no way to make it happen. For the time being. There are options.

But the key's not with me. Or so it seems.

The end of the 1st week of Nov

Somehow, this month is going to be a significant one. But first, updates!

My voice has fully recovered. I suppose it has been back for quite some time already, just that I never realised. I'm glad, yet disappointed at the same time. There goes my sexy, husky voice! Greedy, ain't I? Haha. Never satisfied. Sexy voice, I complain. Normal voice, I also complain. :P

Work. All the marking frenzy is over and now is just the miscellaneous stuffs; finalising the results, ranking and preparation for AGM (who doesn't know what AGM means? tsk tsk...how can you not know something that Yuni knows?). Then, there's the annual dinner at Jumbo Seafood Restaurant (*rolls eyes* but no choice, my school can't afford a high class hotel) and the theme is Denim/Flower Power (*rolls eyes once more*). Well, actually there were several themes to choose from and 1 of which is Red Carpet Glamour or something like that. But because we're gonna eat at JUMBO, who the hell's gonna wear evening gown there right? So, hooray to Flower Power.

Oh, before I forget, just wanna mention the excursion to Science Centre on Wednesday. I felt like a nanny cum tour guide, and discovered that kids seem to have no recognition of being 'full'. They can eat and eat and eat, and still wanna eat. They really have a way of making you spend money on them too. Pics - gonna be on my multiply. And know what? I really love cheeky boys. Haha :P

I think I'll frequent St. James. Seems like that's where I'll get invited to nowadays. It's been a long while since I danced the night away in that place on Kim Seng Road. Don't get me wrong, I still want to do that (in fact, I badly want to do that and it's funny how I don't seem to outgrow that activity while people around me are upgrading), but I don't have the chance to. Sad, isn't it? Thus, my room shall become my dancefloor whenever I feel like dancing properly without having to frown at aunties/uncles waving their arms in Dragonfly and awkward people at Boiler Room.
Sy: I know you're hot but please try to be less of a uncle-killer. I don't enjoy entertaining them. Lol.
Wc: Your 'lao da' is really quite cool, huh. Hahaha.

I love using brackets and italic. :) Oh, looking at the smiley face I just created, I've a question. Why do some of you put your smiley face this way (: ? Aren't the eyes supposed to come before the mouth? Mmmm...

An epidemic

There must be some kind of virus this year. People around me have been down. Casualties with varied injuries.

See, I really think it's the age. It's not just me. We're all learning hard, aren't we? It's a matter of how we handle them, to sort out our lives and discover things. Can I say that we've reached some point of maturity, finally?

This 'quarter-life crisis'.

Silvia: Be strong. I'm here whenever. Talk to me, soon.
Jing: You're getting over it. Keep it up!

And many more people whom I wanted to mention but guess that they don't read my blog at all, so I shall just keep my wishes for them inside.

Muackz: ks, sy, phoeb. What would I do without you guys? :D Love ya all to bits!

Dear Fran, if you're reading this, don't worry, I'll update you soon. Muackz!



Maybe all it takes is just a different perspective.

you

i don't understand what's going on. u wanted it to be fair to me but all i can see now is u're being so unfair...u've locked us both. y can't we? y can't u see? i need to talk to u....


but i'm so afraid...

Flying Without Wings

This is a beautiful version.



So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

4/11/07

I'm currently fixing my comp while working on my sis's laptop. Finally got the time to fix it...it's been down with the damn Trojan horse virus. I hereby apologise to those of you who got infected by me; hope not many of you are were as dumb as me and opened the file. :/

It had been another busy week that has passed in a blur. All the paperwork and stuffs...come to think of it, I'd worked abt 11 hours everyday, for 2 consecutive weeks. And guess what? I don't mind it at all. Not a single bit. A thought even occurred to me yesterday when I was on the way home: It's not a bad thing to be working 7 days a week. It's like, I was kinda sad that I don't have to work during weekends. What's happening to me?? It's either I really love my job THAT much, or I'm trying to do something here. Subconsciously.

23. No, not about the movie but how difficult this age has been for me. The age of realisation and navigation. The age where you start to really think about the future, get cynical and lose the naivety. Maybe it's because I've been too protected, too sheltered and now I'm out there, trying to gain a foothold in whatever's out there. I'm frightened and overwhelmed. I'm trying to understand why things are the way they are, tried to see things with what little knowledge I have and come to realise that I can't. There's so much more to learn and experience. I've finally stopped looking back. I no longer wish that I was still 14, when everything was simple and sweet. I see the long journey ahead but can I say that I've prepared myself for it? As much as I want to, I don't think anyone of us can ever be really prepared as no one knows exactly what is in store for us. We just have to take it with open arms and comfort ourselves by knowing that as we move along, we'll get better and better. It's just like the feeling of getting punched repeatedly. On the first blow, shock and pain surge through your body. The second blow hurts as much as the first, but by the third blow, your body will be more or less accustomed to it that you're sorta expecting it. The following blows will just feel numb.



What am I supposed to expect?

Tuesday

Highlight:
Theft in classroom.
Interrogated 2 girls - they can really act.
Eventually confessed after an hour and countless threatenings.

Are kids even kids anymore?

Lowlight:
Washed my car. I procrastinated for too long and as a result, the bird shit has left a mark on my paint. Damn.

Immersed

My phone has been totally quiet today. There were neither calls nor sms. Usually when this happens, I'll feel sad and lonely. But maybe because I was so busy working and not expecting any call or sms, it seems natural.

Just got home from work. Phew. I should really be reimbursed with the money I spent on red pens.

I'm so gonna sleep early tonight.



Serenity

Dark circles

A decade ago, I used to cry whenever they quarrelled. I would hide inside my room, afraid to go outside as though the voices were monsters. I would just be listening to the screaming voices. Paralysed, for as long as the quarrel could last. With every pause, I would hope that it's the end and prayed. With every start, my heart would sink and sometimes, I just forget to breathe.

Half a decade ago, I started to feel numb. I began to wish that they were living separately. I couldn't see the point of them staying together since they seemed to hate each other so much. I would be glad and relieved if my sister wasn't at home when it happened. Because then, she wouldn't had to go through what I went through. I started to prefer staying out late so that the chances of me hearing the screaming voices were reduced to a minimum.

Now, I'm numb to it. I'm just plain glad that my sister is away. I laugh at how they can argue about such trivialities. Unwittingly, they have shaped me into what I am today. I run and hide, as it's always easier. I hate arguments and I will do anything to make things alright, even if it meant self-sacrificing. I asked myself why and realised, it's because I want to mend other cracks that I think I can, because there is already a crack that can't be mended.

I remember

the car rides
'You and Me'
the talks at that taxi stand
the phone calls
the sms-es
the anticipation
That hug.
The kiss.
'Irreplaceable'
Sentosa
Airport
first picture
'Home' hokkien version

and many more...



Can we?

Disenchanted

'Stardust'. A fantasy film with a happily ever after ending. The thing about fantasy is, 'it replaces an accurate assessment of the world with images that substitute desired ideals or feared projections for such an assessment' (Ryan and Kellner, 1988).

I've been really busy with work. Working hours for the past week: 7am-6pm. It's all marking, marking and marking. Guess what? I kinda enjoy being this busy...for the first time in my working life, I don't complain when I've to OT. In fact, I willingly stayed longer than others to complete my work. Responsibilities. :)

Ok, I shall type more when my brain can function better. I just woke up and I slept at 6am last night.



Que sera, sera

The Light

It's another new week and I'm determined to make it a much better one than the last. I must stop wallowing in whatever I'm wallowing in presently; for the sake of people around me and most importantly, myself.

Been reading a distant friend's blog (she's considered distant as we both know each other but we don't really know each other...if you know what I'm talkin about). It's comforting, yet sad to know that there's someone else going through a similar (if not worse) phase, and she is keeping herself together. It makes you feel that what you have on hand now is really no big deal. In comparison, that is.

I would really love to type out the things which she said that struck many chords in me, but I suppose it would be too depressing and I already said I'm gonna stop wallowing in whatever, right?

And so, happy thoughts! I need a new bikini! I was swimming yesterday in my good ol' turqoise bikini when I realised,"Woa cannot make it...elasticity absent." Therefore, unless I wanna repeat Janet Jackson's episode, bikini shopping is a need.

Next on my shopping list: wallet. My current one is good, just that it's a little dirty. It was a gift from the gang for my 21st and I can't bear to part with it. But Phoeb's been complaining and since I've been using it for 2 years now, I think I can do with a new one.

Lastly, I would like to complain about my SGH-U700. The touch screen is really getting on my nerves. The functions are getting on my nerves. The only thing that pleases me is the way it looks. With so many nerves acted up, I am having the thought of reverting to my N7373. Practical, no?

Lalala

Wow, a week has flew past just like that.

'The Brave One'. An absolutely fantastic movie. Jodie Foster. No one else can bring out the emotional turmoil and inner struggles as flawless as her. One of the scenes which can't get out of my head: She was sitting at her porch smoking when her neighbour saw her and said," Smoking kills you." And she replied,"I don't care." Basically, she couldn't find any courage to continue living normally after her fiance died (you gotta really watch the movie to understand why she couldn't move on). So her neighbour said,"There're alot of ways to die. But to find a way to continue living....that's hard."

I predict my day ahead to be quite entertaining. It's been a long time since I have 3 activities to choose from in a day, with more than 3 different people. Hmmm. It's indeed flattering. LOL

Another rainy day

I'm trying to remember when is the monsoon season for Singapore and as far as I can go to whatever is left of the geography department of my brain, October shouldn't be having such high level of precipitation. So I guess, our Earth is really dying.

Had a very nice time with Sy and Phoeb last night. It was a much needed girls' night and I wish we can do it more often (of course not about gloomy stuffs all the time). We spent like, 5 hours talking? I finally see the benefits of having 24hr Mac's around...it's where you go when you just wanna sit down and talk and can't be bothered to go to a nicer place. But I still think that eating Mac's for supper is the worst choice ever.

I realised that I have not blogged about my sexy, husky voice at all...been too preoccupied with other things. I lost my voice last week, all thanks to the class of monkeys. It sounded totally horrible and I was really croaking. I thought I should get it back by this week but, it's been a week and I still sound raspy! I seriously think that this is gonna be permanent. Damn.



It's been 3 days since I last heard from you.

Blue

It's been raining almost everyday, twice a day. Cooling weather and usually, I enjoy rainy days. Watching the rain is one of my favourite activities..of course when I've nothing better to do. But I've always liked the rain. Unlike some people who find rainy days troublesome, I enjoy holding an umbrella and strolling under the rain. BUT, when it's really heavy rain, a thunderstorm, when even having a humongous umbrella doesn't help, I don't like it. In those instances, I would much prefer to stay at home and hide under my blanket.

This week is a very free week for me due to PSLE marking. Working hours: 8am-1pm. I know many of you envy me, but I would rather be busy this week. Time just crawls and it's really tortorous.

Why do humans do the things that we do? What exactly govern our actions? Past experiences? Intuition? Feelings? Emotions? Rational?

What do you do when you realise the things which you should've realised sooner?

The Fact

You invade every inch of my thoughts. No matter what I do, it's you.

Suddenly, everything else doesn't matter anymore.

I really hope we can pull through this. I really, really want to.

Clarity

It's all too clear to me now.

So how?

Apathy...If only

I know I haven't been really blogging. Uploading videos doesn't count. I wanted to continue just uploading videos to express myself, cos it's so much easier, but I realise that I can't. I need to pen down my thoughts.

I can't forget your words. Maybe you said it out of anger or maybe, you were just preoccupied with your own feelings. But it hurts like hell. How could you?

All I wanted was to make everything ok again. We were doing great, weren't we? Things were just starting to fall into place and I was happy. Yet, that had to happen and you said there was nothing we could do to better things. Do you really mean it?

I'm learning alot. From trying to understand you, to a point where I thought that I've finally understood. But in fact, what exactly are you thinking? Does it matter so little to you that you are willing to let it be ruined?

I had so much hope...so much faith. I let you in to where no one has ever been. I let my defences crumble. I did try, tried so hard to leave myself with some cover. But......Now I know why I've never allowed myself to get so far before.



I wish you could see.


I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

Valen Hsu - Hao Ting

One of the singers whom I listen to during childhood. She's back after years of hibernation. And guess what? Backstreet Boys are back with their new album too. Lol. (No, I'm not BSB's fan!)

How to save a life

The Fray - How To Save A Life

'Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life'

October

September has ended and October is here. Realisation of the day: I'm beginning to prefer working than rotting at home.

I think of the time when I was just giving tuition a few months back. I enjoyed every minute slacking at home, just being entertained by a certain nut on MSN.

It's different now. Much has changed. I see the joy in working now, and the boredom in slacking at home. Perhaps this feeling is caused by missing someone. Having too much time on hand is quite detrimental now.




It's alot...

Independence week (cont'd)

Been enjoying the peace and quiet at home for the past 5 days. Not exactly having the time of my life but it's good to have a change every now and then. Doing everything by myself; no naggings AT ALL. Starting to miss them though. Hah. And so, I sms-ed mummy dearest in the mornin. :)

Despite being exhausted, I did the laundry, vacuumed and mopped the floor which has been making my feet black. Well, not really black, but you can feel it when your floor's not been mopped, aye? Cleanliness is a virtue!

Children's Day is on Monday...which means it's a holiday for me! Yippie! But hey, I've got nothing to be happy about. It's just gonna be another day of me-time. All of you are working. I'm getting really brilliant in self-entertainment. Oh, bugger. AT LEAST I don't have to work. Let's just hope I don't wake up at 6.30am that morning. Actually, that applies for Sat and Sun as well.

Since I've got nothing better to do now (other than watching tv or sleeping or driving to 135 Seagull Walk for Wii which right now, I'm too tired to do so), I shall type more. I feel impelled to tell you people how kids nowadays have turned out, if you don't already know.

Boy A: Teacher, you got boyfriend, right?
Me: Do your work.
Boy B: Teacher, you and your boyfriend will do this, right? (Boy does the hugging and kissing action)
Me: (eyes widened) No..!
Boy A: Teacher, you will lock the room with your boyfriend and then.....(does funny actions)
Me: (eyes widened more) No..!! Where you learnt all that?!?
Boy A: Teacher, you know what is sperm?

Faint. My eight year olds. I don't know which is more urgent: To save the earth or to save our children's innocence.

Are you anyone's favourite person?

Came across an interesting clip while idling my time away. You know, when you're alone at home and just entertaining yourself...this clip made me have something to post on my blog. Excellent.


So, am I anyone's favourite person?

Independence week

It's the start of being completely alone at home for 1 week plus. My folks are in China now. Though it's liberating to be able to walk around in underwear, it can get kinda lonely. But so far, I'm enjoying it. Hah.

Okay. I've absolutely nothing else to type.

Just blogging

That's right, I don't have anything interesting to say but I'm just blogging for the sake of it. Hah.

I don't have to work and yet I still woke up at 6.30am this morning. How wonderful. But I was determined to go back to sleep and so after lying on the bed for 1 1/2 hours, I succeeded. Slept for another 2 hours before waking up to mummy dearest's karaoke. Ate the beehoon which Daddy dearest bought for me. Thanks daddy, but can I have some fish cake or at least an egg other than just plain beehoon and vege? I like those vegetarian beehoon with the fake char siew. Fyi, my dad does not read my blog. In fact, he does not go near computers...I'm just talking to myself again.

My Her World arrived. I was reading it and watching tv at the same time. Saw a Mont Blanc bracelet that I really like. Hmm...I wonder how much is it. It's been some time since I bought myself expensive accessories. And I caught the last episode of a HK drama again. It intrigues me that I always manage to watch the last episodes of dramas that I did not follow. It's like really random. Then, while mopping the floor, Britney Spears shocked me by performing her 'Give Me More' on VMA. She had just glittering underwear on and trying to dance. TRYING. It's like she's now too fat to dance properly...her moves seem restricted. Disappointed. I was once her fan and she was such a good dancer. Hey people, I said ONCE...which means I no longer am, so dismiss whatever thoughts you might have about my taste right now! :P

Gonna try the Waraku pasta later on. It'd better be good. I'm hungry already...my beehoon is fully digested.

A nice day!

Today started out really nice, due to a certain pleasant surprise from someone. It made my day, really. :)

Been nasty to the kids these 2 days. I can feel the tigress in me taking control each time I face them...which is very good as this makes my lessons so much more easier to cover. I finally understood why the experienced teachers told me not to smile too much and be strict! Because otherwise, they become barbarians.

Highlight of the day: I got a new phone! SGH-U700. It's not really necessary but my N7373 is gonna become antique soon, so it's just a matter of time. Furthermore, it's been giving me problems. Sorry, pinky but I gotta abandon you already. My god. I just talked to my phone.

Goodbye Welcome

Happy Birthday KS!!

Dedicating this post to Ms Tan Kah Shien...Happy Birthday!! Another year of not celebrating your birthday with us but I guess someone else is doing a better job of making this particular day a special one for you. Hehe. He'd better, huh. Presents?? Hah. You'd better come back during Sep one of these years, or else...you'll be forever missing presents from us. Hahaha.

Love ya to bits! Muackz!

A better day

As what the title suggests, I had a MUCH better day today. Nothing much, except that I did 'charity' to a boy. Bought him food as he was hungry and had no money to eat. If not for me, he would had to wait till 4 o'clock, which would be the time he got home today, to be able to eat something at all. No wonder he's so skinny and always sulking. And from what I know, alot of pupils in this school have no money to eat. I was like...huh?! How to study with an empty stomach. How can any parents allow their children to go hungry?? Then I realise that I've been living a too sheltered life.

Well, speaking of eating, I ate KFC today!!! It's been so long that I can't even remember when was the last time I had that. Yummy!! And since J8 is having a mini mooncake bazaar, Fran and I sampled on some. Niiice. I think that's the highlight of the day. LOL

Monday..

Had an extreme Monday blues in the morning. It's the first time that 'MC' crossed my mind since I started work 2 months ago. When my alarm went off. By noon, it got better and the blue feeling subsided slowly. So I concluded that, it's really just a Monday blues and not because I'm starting to dislike my job. Really. Even though I almost cried today.

I'm not a person who gets angry easily. I don't have a short temper and I normally don't get affected by what people do. You know how some people can get so angry over some things that strangers do. Like waitress being rude or when some morons change lanes abruptly without signalling that cause you to brake so suddenly. Well, I don't. Unless you're someone who means alot to me that everything you do matters. And that only leaves a handful of people. Mummy dearest will always be at the top of the list. Mums always manage to get on your nerves, don't they? Anyway, that's not the point. I digressed too much. What I'm trying to say is, I'm not supposed to allow those little ones make me so angry. But they did. And I think they'll always do. Because I'm trying to do my job well and they're not cooperating. And I don't seem to have a way with them. I feel so helpless and frustrated. I sooo wanna do my job well. Can I?

Okay, enough bout work. So depressing. Let's talk bout how the ball went. Hehe. It was at Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel, yes, the one beside Zouk. And no, we didn't club after that. The food was nice and I would've eaten more if not for the fact that I ate ramen before going there. Oh, I have not updated you guys on the preparation prior to the ball! Used Jean Yip's services for hair and makeup, which I think is soo totally not worth the money. As what he said, it's ah lian's makeup. The hair's passable, just that it could be nicer. Felt bad for making him spent so much. Anyway!!! The most feared thing happened! 2 girls wore the same dress as me!! One is exactly the same, the other is of another colour but exact design. DAMN. Thank goodness I didn't get to bump into them face to face. Lesson learnt (which I knew beforehand and this incident just reinforced it): Never buy gowns from Daniel Yam AGAIN. Irritatingly common.

Pics. I know all of you are hungry for it but they're not with me so we all gotta wait. :)

Sat 15/09

Just watched another movie at Cineleisure, again. Not that I'm complaining, but seems like 80% of the movies I watched recently were all at that place. Thank goodness I've UOB card. 12% discount. Heh.

The movie was 'Cheaters'. A korean sex comedy. Not very entertaining. Due to its nature (R21), I got to see boobs and sex scenes. Quite embarassing, ya?

Right. The ball . Wonder how I'll look like. :P

Gonna sleep soon. But my tummy is growling. Urgh. The mooncakes on my dining table are beckoning to me. I shall resist. Till tomorrow.

An update

Just realised that I haven't blogged for the whole week. But there's nothing much to blog anyway. Been working hard....I guess. Haha. The kids are as problematic as ever. Getting used to it so I'm not stressing myself as much now.

Watched 'The Invasion'. Great film. Highly recommended. Nicole Kidman's great, as she has always been. Sexy even, in the first few scenes (she went bra-less in a white t-shirt).

Mooncakes!! Not that I love to eat them, but they're really quite nice when you have a craving for them suddenly. Hmm, what am I talking about? Anyway, my mooncakes are from Swissotel, the one which comes with the cheongsam box. You guys know? VERY nice packaging. One of the mooncakes is in the shape of a peach! Cool.

Back to work

It's Monday and I'm back to work after 1 week break. Everyone in school was complaining how lazy they were feeling and not wanting to work today. One of my colleagues has 5 absentees in her class. Another colleague only got back half of the class's holiday homework. Same for my class, plus 2 absentees. I'm very sure they are not sick. I wonder what the parents are doing. If my kid tells me he/she doesn't feel like going back to school, I'll make sure school appeals more than home. Nah, kidding. Corporal punishment is so out of date. :P

My bf is being super sweet today. That's what I mean by feeling in bliss, you know? It really takes so little. :)

Bought my gown and accessories yesterday. I really need bigger boobs. But well, good things come in small packages, isn't it? Hahaha. Only lacking shoes now. Hee :)

Sunday 09/09

Oh man. It's Sunday already. Which means I've to work tomorrow...Can time pass any faster?

This week has been in a blur. I managed to do most of the things that I listed out, but how come I don't feel accomplished? I've been eating alot though. Damn.

I don't think I spend alot of time sleeping. As a matter of fact, I really don't. Even when I want to. I do think that I spend alot of time waiting.

I had always thought that certain things were beyond my control. That they are the way they are cos of what happened and I couldn't better things. But yesterday, I realised that I can. It only took a meal and yet I could already see the happiness in their eyes. I know how badly she wants to be there for me and how devastated she must have felt to be shut out. Sorry, I should've let you in earlier. I've to show my care and concern more. Time is running out. Esp for Dad.



Things could be different...only if I try hard enough.

Oo

Was reading Asyiqah's blog and...I'm..I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling. I wanna be there, Phoeb. But you didn't tell me. Sigh. It makes me sad how we're missing out on each other's lives. I know we are growing and things change...but damn it, I'm still nostalgic. I miss those times. So much.

I think I've finally sorted it out. No more 'polluted air'. There's nothing wrong actually, it's really me and my brain. I should banish all the weird thinking and funny assumptions. No more comparison. It has been really turbulent...at least for me. I hope we can land on the ground soon. If there's more turbulence, I might just decide to leap out of the window. But I've never been the suicidal kind so I don't think I will. Even if I decide to, I'll prepare a parachute, but I've a phobia of height! Which means I'll most probably be dead on the way down already. Die of heart attack. LOL. I wonder who will still be reading this without rolling their eyes and going 'huh?'

Anyway, I'm going to a ball next Sat! Preparation to looking drop-dead gorgeous. Haha.



It's really simple to make me happy, you know?

Bared

I don't know what made me do that.
It's so not me. To open up and bare my soul to you requires much courage. The risk. All my deepest fears, thoughts and feelings...they are usually buried. "So how? Damage control?" you asked. But it's already out of control. I had just given up whatever I had left.

I try to understand my own mind, to think in a more logical way. Yes, to stop torturing myself. To stop taking the slightest thing and evaluate it according to my own (forever negative) perception. It doesn't seem to be working. It eludes me.

And so, I feel like a meat on the butcher's chopboard now.

Still

Been talking to Silvia today...it was very nice. It's always a great feeling to talk to a hardly-get-to-talk-to friend. Was telling her what's happening in my life and stuffs. All the doubts that I tried to hide resurfaced again. It's nothing when one person tells you that, but it means something when everyone is telling you the same thing.

I am wondering, what is the meaning of having a blog? To write down stuffs that you want people to know? But the most inner thoughts that you would like to pen down will eventually be censored, cos there are somethings that you don't want everybody to know. And so, a blog becomes just a form of entertainment. For both the blogger and the readers. Or maybe, it's just me. I'm thinking too much again.



What's new?

Sep holidays

Feels great to have a job that encompasses school holidays. Well, this is a very much treasured one week break. I wanna do so many things. Time is precious and I wanna spend it carefully. After this week, I'll be caught up in work again. Argh, just by thinking of it makes me stressed. Do you know that after I took over last week, my pimples have popped out? Gosh. It's so irritating. Luckily I'm still gorgeous. LOL

So far, I've caught up on my sleep. Or at least I think I've been sleeping enough. Most importantly, I no longer need ages to fall asleep; less time is being wasted. Therefore, other than continuing on my sleep, here are the things that I hope to accomplish this week:

1) Shopping
2) More shopping
3) Meet friends
4) Workout
5) Be a leech
6) Tidy up my room (quite hard)
7) Club
8) Watch vcds (it'll be easier if someone accompanies me)

Let's hope next week arrives slower...

beyond human

Do u know that China abort babies at 7th, 8th and even 9th months?!?
2nd time mothers are forced to abort once found out. You get dragged out of your bed in the middle of the night, feeling like a caught convict. They'll go to the extent of pinning you down and ripping your clothes off to take away that innocent life inside. Just because of a bloody state policy.

Disgust.
And I'm ashamed.

Oops

Today's supposedly a good day. Woke up feeling real good and full of anticipation. I received gifts and cards, some are really sweet. But my kids have to give me hell at the last moments, which eventually lead to me having one of the talks with them again. I wonder how much of my words actually sink into their heads. Sometimes I feel that I'm just wasting my breath.

First outburst. Sorry. I know I can be really 'problematic' at times. Unreasonable(or just plain stupid) bitch, yea? But allow me some leeway, will you? I'm learning hard.



No longer spoilt...

To the President of the United States, who owns the most powerful country in the world (to date).

Random

I love my sister more than anything. Yes oink, if you're reading this, please don't cry.
I love my friends...alot. Can't do without you guys...sy, fran, ks, xy, js and the rest of the 'inner circle'. Thanks for being there for me each time. :)
I love my parents. I suppose it's quite alot. Just that over the years we're speaking less and less. I am estranged from them. I've to do something about that. Soon.

Time does not wait. It's a helpless feeling that overcomes you, when you know that time is flying past, regardless of whether you like it or not. And I'm trying to not assume that I'll always have time to do things later, that there's still time. Because before you know it, one year is going to be gone. I realised that, my conception of time has changed.

"Time flies like an arrow, fruit flies like a banana."

29th

How time flies. Looking back, it has taken me by storm. In a whirlwind. Swept off my feet. If someone told me a few months back that this would be happening, I'd said 'impossible'. But, ain't life full of surprises? :P

And I would like to thank dear peanut for mentioning my lack of bowel movement in his blog yesterday. I'm sure that caused some of his concerned readers to click on my link to check out my post. I give you credit for that. To answer your question, I mention it so that other people who share the same problem do not feel alone. And dear sis, if you're reading this, I wanna complain to the SHIT Federation again. Hahaha. And yes, I'm still constipated.



I'll take more of yours if you'll take mine...

It has started

I got the news today. Though I know I should be more mentally prepared, I was still shocked. The workload! Oh my...It took me 2 hours for the fact to sink in. Yes, I think I'm just plain lazy.

Too tired to think of anything to write. Well, actually I do have things to write about, just that, I'm too tired. So, I shall not stay up any longer. Not a nice day today. Zzzz

Hope this is the first and last of such crappy post.

Towards a healthy lifestyle

I, Ms Yuni, is desperately in need of sleep.

The adverse effects of insufficient rest are taking over me. My complexion needs recovery. My dark circles are simply astonishing. My metabolism rate is dropping (that's what I read in some book) or has dropped. Now that I think about it, I haven't been sleeping more than 6 hours (maybe just 5 on some nights) for the past few months. I don't know if I should feel impressed or bewildered by how little rest I need, to function everyday. Each time I plan to sleep early, there'll definitely be some more interesting things to make me abandon my sleeping plan. So maybe, I'm already resigned to it. Actually, I think my body is weird. It just doesn't like sleeping. Does any of you wake up at 8am on a Sunday just because you're used to waking up early during weekdays?? The stupid thing is, no matter what time I sleep the night before and how tired I am, I'll just wake up. Really annoying. And I CAN NEVER go back to sleep no matter how hard I try. ARGH.

Now I'm even wondering if my lack of bowel movement is related to this. It irritates me more than anything because, my abdomen becomes bloated. Sometimes sooo bloated to the extent that, when you hit it, it's as good as hitting an empty barrel. That's right, you can hear the 'bong bong' sound. But I figured that I should just exercise more, eat less rubbish and eat more fruits and vege. Not that I really eat rubbish, by the way, you know, it's just figure of speech. Great, I'm now writing rubbish. Soon, I'll be the rubbish girl. Oh man, I should just shut up and go to sleep.

Life's like this..

Believe me, I've been trying to blog several times for the past few days, but to no avail. Reason being that I've too many things to say and I don't know how to put it across. I typed, then backspaced, typed and backspaced again. I even thought of resorting to blog in point form. But points are so uncool, so here I am finally. Can't keep you guys waiting for too long, can I? Hah..

Was at Zouk last Friday, with my old clubbing mate. Everything seemed as usual. It was something that we used to do very often and enjoy alot. What struck me was how much we've grown. Doing the same activity with the same company actually felt different. My idea of 'fun' has transformed to something else. Something which I didn't expect to enjoy so soon. But hey, I'm still into clubbing, mainly cos it's the only time where I can dance.

Another guy died from running yesterday. I heard that he's a scholar, has a bright future and a girlfriend to marry soon. Little did he know that when he stepped out of his house that morning, he was never going back home. And how was he to know that when he kissed his girl goodbye, that would be the last? It's frightening to see how unpredictable life is. We'll never know exactly what is in store for us. Which made me think, what's the use of planning so much? Why don't we all just enjoy the moment? Hmm?

I'm finding my priorities in life. Actually, I think we all know what our priorities are. What we may not realise is, our priorities never stay the same through time and that we have to keep finding out what is the priority at that point in life.

I know the entire post sounds gibberish but hey, the merit of writing is the cipher that is employed. Go figure. (blog.enxyn.com, June 16)

I stated the source, thus you cannot accuse me of plagiarism. Lol. :P

Enjoying work

It's been a month since I started this job of mine. All has been well except for a tiny issue, which as usual, is related to working with human beings. I really don't see why some people need to behave so nastily towards others. Can't we all just make our lives happier? I was complaining to Sy and she came to a conclusion that, unless I'm gonna be my own boss, working in a zoo is the other alternative to avoid the politics. Thank goodness my job involves mostly, interacting with humans who spend their time playing and studying, or just playing. Easy to deal with and it makes my work much more enjoyable. :) Sweet darlings (at times).

Speaking of which, I got a rose today! From one of them. That was totally unexpected and it really warms my heart. I was flattered too, as I've only seen her a few times. Hehe. It's a fake rose, by the way. Just to my liking, as real ones wither too fast.

Got a taste of how marking 40 books feels like. Not too bad.



Finally....

Stacy Ferguson

Then



Now

My weekend

(Fyi, I'm typing this post for the 2nd time. The 1st one just disappeared. @$#%$#. Thought it's supposed to be autosaved??? Perseverance..)

Friday
Met Fran and Laura for dinner and fireworks. People is everywhere and due to our laziness and impatience to queue, we decided to try this new restaurant at Citylink Mall, Raku Ninja. It was BAD. I can't comment on the food as we didn't even get to eat the main course. Imagine this: Our order was taken at 6.40p.m. Shortly after, our drinks and appetizer were served. After entertaining ourselves for what seemed like forever, we asked to check on our order at 7.15p.m. He happened to be the MANAGER. So we waited again. At 7.30p.m, there's still no sign of our food and no one had gotten back to us. We were prepared to leave by then and called for the bill. The MANAGER still had the cheek to confirm with us the items that we had. Pissed, we asked what happened to the rest of the food that we ordered and he told us that there was some mixed up and our food wasn't even prepared yet! WTH...so I asked,"What are you going to do about this?" He apologised and offered to waive the appetizer so we just had to pay for the drinks. That sounded pleasing, so we agreed. And we left. Luckily he did that, or he's gonna wish that he has never been born. Hahaha.

After the fireworks, I squeezed with the crowd onto the train to meet 'drop dead'. We didn't manage to catch a movie but I bumped into some long-time-no-see friends. So nice to see them. :) The rest of the evening was mostly spent talking, till 4a.m. Hmm. We've been talking alot.

Saturday
Woke up at 10a.m. feeling like a zombie again. I seriously wonder what is wrong with my body...why can't I just sleep more?? Went Sy's hse and won 25 bucks from mahjong. I only played 1 'wind', mind you. Glee.

Caught Jay Chou's Secret. It's a really nice movie. I was impressed. Go watch it, people.

Sunday
Recuperating at home. Not by choice though.

Poor brain

A - Analysing
B - Believing
C - Comprehending
D - Digesting



Keeping the faith.

I'm lovin it!

Just got back from work. Since I have the mood now, I shall update you people, those who have missed out on what I've been doin at work and would care to know, on how my everyday job scope is like.

Basically, I'm 'floating' now. I'm used by the school as a free alternative to calling in relief teachers, when I'm supposed to be sitting in a particular class to learn the ropes. I have to be well prepared when I take over her when she goes for her maternity leave, as there is a number of 'problematic' students there. BUT so far, that hasn't been happening. TOO MANY teachers are on MC or on courses, so much so that they have no choice but to impede my preparation. As a result, I'm exposed to all levels, which is good, actually. I'm enjoying. The down side is, I might not be able to cope when I've to fully be in charge of a class. I can already imagine the workload. So guys, please don't envy me when I'm home at 2pm now. It's just temporary.

Thus, after envisioning the near future, I seriously suggest to ask me out as much as possible now. Otherwise, don't complain when you guys are not able to see me for weeks in a row. Missing me in your lives is never a good thing. Haha!



They are both angels and devils.

Madness

It's 2am and I'm still awake. I wanna sleep very badly but my brain is not cooperating! Frustrated. VERY FRUSTRATED.

Did I really?

Me: Do you think you'll get electrocuted if you touch the water?
Him: No..It's just droplets of water.
Me: But there's electricity, otherwise the water can't be flowing upwards.
Him: (flatly) The water's not flowing upwards. It's the light that makes it look like it's flowing upwards.
Me: (Apalled) Oh.

And there goes the she-is-intelligent bubble. Fyi, we were at Suntec where there's this fountain that's attracting alot of amused people.

Then, we headed to Zouk. It was a great night, overall. But I could have had more fun. Discovery: I blurt things out when i'm high. There are things that I would rather keep to myself. At least till when i'm better prepared. Then again, when will you be really prepared for such things, anyway? I tried to search my brain for what you (allegedly) said to me, but sadly, there were no recollections at all. Damn. When will I get to hear them, whatever it is??

Anyways, I finally got some new nice pics of us. Nice=me looking either cute or pretty, or both. LOL. Joy.


It's been nice spending time with you.

Ta da!

OH. I started a blog. I have no idea why I decided to do this. Hmmm....